Sadie Kim

Sadie Kim Jun 2015

You mispronounce my name
You forget I'm lefthanded
I think this is just me
I think this is one-sided

Your warmth has dissipated
It left a hardness
Inside my chest,
Like a plum
Now pitted and pruned
But I still hope
To see you soon

Sadie Kim Jun 2015

She Ran

And she ran
through the hollow peaceful night
a juxtaposition
to her mangled thoughts
and indecisions

She ran
hair un-brushed
the laces of her tattered Vans
untied
She ran bra-less
She did not give one ****

She ran to her mother's
old hatchback
away from men who longed to hold her
but didn't
from the abilities
that escaped her
diluted by the thick fog of apathy
that never lifted

And she drove through the dark
the radio dead silent
hearing only the crackles of
her own whimpering
Wondering
why God broke her so
Why the stars were misaligned

Through the windy roads that
would otherwise thrill her
but now

Until the bonnet
Passionately kissed the gum tree
POW

Response to song: She's Got a Ticket - Tracy Chapman

#sad #depression

Sadie Kim Apr 2015

Sterile

It is hard to keep my thoughts of you sterile

#10w

Sadie Kim Apr 2015

Human

I am gathering each grain
of sand to mix with the cement
For my broken spine

I am chipping rusted iron
And digging my outstretched
Fingers into the earth
For new ore
For my lifeblood

I am rewiring my heart
Waiting for each electron
To seep out of the new battery
Because there is resistance
In my familiar comfort in apathy

I need resurrection
I need to be human
Not a clone machine
Not a has been
Do I dare to hope again

#life #fight

Sadie Kim Apr 2015

are you keeping it together?

Are you keeping it together?
when your wife has given up
all her fuel spent
wanting to join her
dead mother

Are you keeping it together?
when your daughter
has turned into a lovesick,
dumb *****
her dreams, aspirations
vaporised

Are you keeping it together?
when your son
is as withdrawn
as ever
and isolated, sheltering
in his own little control room

Are you keeping it together?
Oh father, dear father
your false positive
is given away by your
little explosions
Are you alarmed that your
little family is falling out?

Oh this nuclear family
so full of potential
but we've been so marred
by our little tragedies
Too much, too much
the pressure
we put on each other
We are about to BURST

#sad #life

Sadie Kim Apr 2015

russian roulette

I feel like the plastic cup
that held your water
in a soul-less waiting room

I feel like the joker
in your deck of cards

I feel like a notch
on your belt that welted
my newly softened heart

I feel like the cigarette
that dirtied your teeth
and was followed by another

I played love like Russian Roulette
I should have listened to my mother

#heartbreak #you

Sadie Kim Mar 2015

Drawstring

I am a bag filled with longing and regret
I want your fingers to reach
for my drawstring

#you