i’m lost
i can’t tell anymore
who i am
how i feel
where i’m going
i want this to be over
all of it
i’m tired
i’m just so tired

i can feel it happening
the change all around
my feet once steady on the ground
are floating away again
i am looking for something to hold
but i’m just too far gone truth to be told
where will i end up
no one knows for a fact
i hope a little piece of me will remain intact

some people say depression is like drowning
but for me you see it’s like floating
i just wish i could float away
and be gone

took a look in the mirror today
looked into those deep sunken grey eyes
i wished i could apologize
grazed my finger across my skin
across the scars
i want to apologize
talked to my mom
heard the pain in her voice
if only i could apologize
saw you across the hall
remembered the burden i was  
i need to apologize
i should have apologized
now it’s too late

here i am again
what happened
i’m running that blade against my skin
waiting to be paper thin
i’ve lost myself
i need help
but no one can
drinking the nights away
sleeping the days
who am i now
i’m not the girl i know
i need help
pushing everyone aside
i’ve done it to myself  
but i still ask
who will help me now because
i need help

it was getting better
i swear
i could smile, i could laugh
but now i'm a zombie
i'm not even me
you say you love me
but how could you when i'm not really even me

one after another

they spill out

no control

even i have lost the truth

buried it like a secret treasure

hidden in the deep blue sea

i just hope i can find the key

and finally set the truth free