if only i knew as i dragged the blade across my skin there would never be a way to win i look around and see it’s slowly falling apart it won’t be long now until you depart i can feel you fading i fear there’s nothing for me to say that will make you want to stay but please stay
through all of the pain i’ve had someone else to blame but now i feel quite the same as i take my final look around there is no one to be found and i realized this was a fault none other than my own oh how i wish i could have known before i was all alone now all i feel is anger only this time towards myself
i turned eighteen today the voice in my head had, something to say “you’ve done so well, 132” she told me “no one will recognize you” that was before i lost all self control looking around i see the ice cream bowl now all i can do is eat and eat
sometimes i wonder if i left would you really miss me i know you’re thinking you would but the thing is i know you already miss me because i have been gone for a while now