The look in your eyes,
The words say goodbye,
Your break it off with me.

I still love you,
I see your smile,
I hide my troubles,
And go to call you mine.

You told me you were happy,
And that you still loved me.
The **** in your head is too much for you to call me yours.
You say its not fair for me,
Its not fair that i cant be with the one i love,
Because i love you.

You say i did nothing wrong but i still wonder,
I wonder because i want to know what was wrong with us,
I need to know,
I need to know how to fix it,
If you’ll let me that is,
Because i love you,
I cant be with no other.

You may have moved on but i will never,
Because i love you.

He was crippled,
But only his body was cracked,
Its not simple,
Nor is it an easy matter to explain,
Let’s just leave it at that she says,
As she closes the holy book of lies,
She covers her eyes,
Denying to herself what she thought
happened.


Tracy-thirteen (2003)

I try to stay happy
Happy for them
I don’t want them to see my struggles
I don’t want them to hurt
Or to know the hurt i have
So i smile
Anything can be hidden behind a smile
Even the most hurt people can hide it
The hiding is from the smile
But the truth
The truth is in the eyes
Its always the eyes

Its okay to have fewer friends than others
Its okay to be yourself
I never knew that before
I wish i did
Its okay to love another woman
I know i do
Its okay to write your feelings
I know i do
But i do as no one listens
No one listens as i talk
I talk too much
Im too annoying
I never found them to be annoying
I sit there and listen
I hear all their problems
Their minor inconveniences
But as i make an attempt to tell mine
I talk too much
Thats why i write
Thats why i wrote the letters
Theres only one attempt left for me
I’ll be listening from the stars

They say kids need to get burnt
To learn not to put their hand in the fire
But i never did
Instead i built a tolerance
I saw how long i could keep it there
Before it felt too good
Before i felt things again
I need to feel things again sometimes

I said id stop,
I tried.
I said i wouldn’t,
I tried.
I didn’t want to,
I apologised,
I tried.
I tried my hardest,
Its still not enough,
I tried.
Im sorry.