I want to run away

Just leave everything behind
Never look back again
But I keep on running away
And hoping for a change
But it never gets better

How do I even start over again
With all my memories of the past
With the memories of their sweet kisses and love
It just hurts
How did it even turn out like this

I miss holding their hands
I miss hugging their little bodies
I miss hearing their voices

I want to run away
I want to stay
The memories keeps on lingering on

Help me
I'm so alone.

I can't even make the sound
Of your name
Coming from my lips

I'm too afraid
It will become too real
I'll fall too hard
Only to be broken apart again

And this time
I won't even come out alive

I want to feel nothing
I want to feel everything
I want to give you my all

I love you

I wish I could tell you
That I've already decided
To end it all now

I'd be lying if I told you
That my mind still wasn't filled with dark thoughts

That I'm one step away from ending it all

But I'll keep on putting on a smile
I'll keep on pretending
Pretending that I'm doing fine

Or maybe I'll just
End it all tonight

Why won't the tears stop coming
It's starting to burn
How do I make it stop
Who won't it end?

Do you know how much it hurts?
I felt like I was on my way up
But as always
I slipped down again
I lost my grip

I'm just so tired of falling
Of the never-ending pain
I don't even know what's the point
Of trying to make it up again
When I'm just gonna fall down

is anyone reading my words
Or am I invisible
and just someone

lostintheunknown

send
help
before
I
die

Idontwannadoth­isanymore

Please
I
Beg