A ****** descent.
To favor no gain.
To feign,
or favor fate.

My heart was full of hope,
And lust.

I fought,
For love in vain.

A fragile thing.
That thing of hope.
Forever I the fool.

And couraged through,
A loss of heart.

And found my answer plain.

So, be it so.

My choice
of fault.

Hear

as

I

Amend.



Stripped of guile.


Of

will
And wile.


And pray my heart to mend.

Breakfast for the numb
Is a cocking of the gun
A moments pause
For all the loss
Or roulette
just for the fun

And strange of this
My thought's of bliss
My life to be undone

For Grains and lead
Will fill my bed

Or

kitchen full of red

For I the fool
To use such tools
When sporks will take there stead

For captain crunch
Can munch my junk

And you can **** an egg

If i told you i needed help
would you listen?
Or would your silence
Echo off the walls.
See my life is like a car,
Sometimes moving fast
And other times so **** slow.
If i told you i feel hurt inside
would you not just hear
but listen
to what i said
I need someone to care.
Im tired of trying to fight alone.
Im tired of trying to survive at a table for one.
If i told you
I cry all over my body
And each tear is a knife
And they are leaving scars on my flesh,
Would you cut me a bandage,
Sop up my blood,
Or leave me to bleed out.
If i told you
I was alone and my demons are taunting me
would you get me out
Or would you keep walking
or keep scrolling...
Im not begging for attention,
But one cannot be expected to be alone and silent like a life long detention.
If i told you
I was ready to confess everything
Come clean from my secrets,
Strip myself naked so you could see my imperfections
would you care even the slightest bit
Or are you so selfish
And so ignorant
To walk on
And leave this person to die.
If i told you i was ready to die
would you blame it in cliche,
Or believe it and save me from damnation
Its time to think.
It could be up to you
This isnt just my world,
Its yours, too
and dont you want to be
somebody
To someone?
I need you.
Because all of these "if i told you's
Are becoming
**im telling you

A fatefull turn.
The Grace of chance.

A weary heart.
A moments glance.


For in those moments.
Precious few.
Would grow,
and burn.
My heart anew.

A perfect
Form.
Cast from light.
That pulled me,
from
An endless night.

they know
where tobacco grows
and why I
forgot to put down the pants
I heard
the drowning underwater
I afraid
whether the outer limit
gets closer
I never
put any elbow
in it
to play with water
to add some fire
and as a last caress
against the dark halfdom of space
I'll do my best
watch celestial bodies
and say I've seen it thousand times
I ought to guide you
toward necropolis
because I have two missed calls
both yours

I be not he, I willed at past.

Short cuts found me so.

I have regret, I have a heart.

A blackened earth is mine.

I have the bleak, I wish the free.

The challenge never fought.

Wilted,

Hurried,

Haunted,

Dire,

In sadness find me now.

Report from those that care for me,

Report thee,

Abject glee.

I have no name for this I own.

It's price I do now see.

Suffer, endure,



advocate.

Suffer,


Still I feel.

I the fool to challenge this.

My burning in the sun.

I peered at youth,

To see the awe,

And subject to its rule.

No more of me and any man.

Beast

Do exit me.

So, Lay upon the Marble slab,
And cast me as a lamb.

To whirlwinds
Works,
And
Nought to pain.

But,never lesser name.

For such a feat of little lift.
Is momentary might.

And Distant shores
Of happiness.

Are weathered
In this plight.

To whom , who read,
And touch my heart.


A stay for dimming day.

For this my sanctioned
Penitence.
Will not be my dismay.