I get to see this sweet man today.

He’s been running through my mind for days; I’d question if he even knows.

What strength his heart can hold!

But I know one thing for sure:
He’s already gotten this heart of mine to cure.

Have we been here before?
It seems all too familiar,
A very welcome, once-upon-a-memory.

It’s crazy how, with each other, you can be, you and, I can be me.

Communication flows like a river in continuous motion.

Not knowing where to go next,
But knowing there will be a next time.

It’s a spectacular feeling.
I can’t wait for when we get to see,
How much stronger our bond will be.

Getting to see this sweet man today
Has  given me the happiest outlook.
Oh, what it could it eventually be.

Warmth
Warm internal feeling
Warm like a real embrace
Warm like a cozy fireside
But the warmth from you feels the best
At least I imagine it would be
Not a question or doubt in my mind
That it can feel and warm the entirety of me
This warmth your soul possesses, to me, is in another world, so intimate and enticing.
This has me feeling you’re here with me, even when you’re not.
A warmth I long for, even in the softest embrace.
This warmth between us is brand new.
Imagine what more time will do!

Watching you take your deep breaths,
As this body of yours fades away.
I never thought I’d see you take your last breaths in this way.
But as I sit here with you, seeing your face filled with so much peace,
I’ll never regret a second that I spent with you like these.  
You are the mother I have loved and fought for till the end,
Most of all, you’re not just my mother but also my best friend.
God’s holding you right now, just lift your arms up high.
He’ll cradle you like a newborn baby in the glorious heaven on high.  
It’s there where you’ll see angels and all our loved ones who’ve passed, whom we’ve loved so dear.
But Momma, please, when you leave, go on without any fear.
You’re going to get your wings soon and be healed inside and out.
It will be a glorious homecoming; I’m almost certain they will shout.  
We love you and will miss you dearly every single day,
But Momma, please don’t worry, we’re going to be okay.
So as I’m watching you take your last breaths, ever soft and slow,
I know your pain is leaving this body, a vessel in store for its new home.  
I can’t promise there won’t be tears; Lord knows I’m going to cry.
But you know I get it honest from you, each tear that falls on by.
Relieved and oh so peaceful, Jesus will take you in His arms.
Don’t be scared, sweet Momma, you’re going to be taken care of; now go and rejoice in His loving arms.

Like liquid flowing from the mountainside, endless to the land below,
That’s how my heart fills with your love and starts to overflow.
A symphony of liquid dances upon the rocks, coming from above,
That’s the sound of the beautiful ways we share our sweetest love.
The deep roar and rush of this liquid’s fall,
That’s the love deep within my heart, you, my all.
The liquid’s radiant rainbow in the curtain of the fall’s depths,
Shows the colorful brightness you brought into my life with a single breath.
This cascade shimmers in the sun’s bright light.
It’s like you, my star shining in the night.
In every symphony, whisper, and shimmering rainbow hue,
This waterfall of love, my baby, is the endless love I feel for you.

Waves

Waves toss me against the tide,
Pushing and pulling at my sides.
I wonder and wait, will it subside?
Can this wave be but a beautiful ride?
The turmoil, the danger, the roughness at sea,
Were these waves meant only for me?

Is rescue coming? Please, hopefully soon.
Will it pull me to safety? Will it be my safe haven and refuge?

Waves, oh, so beautiful, your colors of turquoise blue and pearl white,
But waves, oh, how your danger pulls me into your riptide.

Waves, please be calm, be still, please be at peace.
Let me rest upon your still seas.

Every time I'm with you, just sitting by your side,
I feel as if we're together on some magical exploration ride.
Your never-ending attention to my every need
Makes me feel so wanted, so loved, so trusted, and seen.
The way we mesh together, as if we're the perfect fit.
My lips, your lips together, a perfect match, as if delicately knit.
My hand, your hand, holding each other so tight.
I would love to hold all of you exactly like this all night.
My eyes, your eyes, have this deep and longing stare.
It feels as if I can see you, even when you are not there.
My heart, your heart, both missing something for so long.
It's crazy how we found it, like the ending to a beautiful song.
We are like the pieces of a puzzle in which we don't completely fit, but if we were a puzzle just us, we would probably complete it.
With all that we have been missing, we have both found.
I know there is a plan for you and for me; don't you worry, I'm sticking around.

It's amazing what just four months can do,
How much the love has grown between us two.
The way you hold me, as if I'm a treasure,
I could be held like this by you forever.
We came into each other's lives, steady, calm, and real.
It's amazing how this awesome, all-consuming love feels.
Not a day passes when something doesn't spark a memory of time with you,
I guarantee, baby, you're always on my mind, it's true.
I feel the depth of our love grow deeper every day,
I'm not stopping this wonderful ride in any way.
Baby, you have my heart, not to rent or borrow;
You can have this heart for all my yesterdays and tomorrows.

What do you see when you look my way?
Do you see me, or do you see something else?
Do you see all the imperfections I possess?
These imperfections make me feel less.
Like the shell of a girl in a picture frame.
Do you see what I see in the mirror looking back at me?
A body, all deformed but shapely; this body has had two beautiful babies.
What do you see when you look at my face?
Do you see the unevenness of my eyebrows and the squint in my left eye?
Maybe there are enough glasses for it to hide behind.
Do you see the freckles splattered on my face?
The sun hasn't been gentle on this aging face.
What do you see when you look at me?
Do you see my darkened eyes, so deep and dark that the colors almost don't shine?
Do you see this hair? It's starting to thin with little strands of gray.
What do you see when you look at this aging woman who is almost forty years old?
Maybe…me?

When people ask me what it is I'm thinking about,
My instant reaction is I want to say your name.
I know that's something I can't scream and shout,
But baby, if I were able, I'd tell everyone the same.  
Instead, I sit and just reply with "nothing,"
Which is farthest from the case.
Because, baby, you are far from nothing; you're the greatest gift of faith.  
I have you on my mind, like a piece of my brain is holding you.
There's no other name that consumes me as much as yours does.
Baby, I'd climb mountains just to profess my love,
I'd even fly on eagle's wings to share our wondrous love.  
So when people ask what I'm thinking, it's everything in between—
The magic of our connection,
The music in my soul that your heart brings.

What’s the dill pickle?
Why are you so green?
Where do you come from?
Why do people think you’re mean?

You always taste so yummy,
Making my tummy very glad.
When I can’t have pickles, I
Get very sad.

Those green delicious spears such a delightful treat.
Some like them sour, and some weird ones like them sweet.

Pickles are the best snack in a lunch to pack,
Take them on a picnic, or eat them straight off the rack.

The best pickles are the ones straight from the cold.
Don’t forget the baby pickles; those things are so bold.

So when you hear, “What’s the dill pickle?”
Don’t think someone is asking you what’s up.
It’s them showing how much they love this snack.
This little snack you love to crunch.

What you do to me makes my emotions shine brightly on my face.
One second I'm smiling, surrounded by your shining grace.
The simple little goodbye brings the biggest emotional tears to my eyes.
Some might say, "Wow, she's certainly an emotional thing."
But baby, for you I'd truly do anything.
You have my heart, and have since day one.
I believe we were connected before we ever began.
What you do for me is the best thing, don't you know?
I can never let your beautiful love go.
You may help these silly tears to fall,
But baby, for you, I'd risk it all.
I want to  be the one you come to when your day is bad.
I want to be the one holding your hand.
I know this love is no silly phase of time.
I feel like it's been forever, that I've been yours, and you've been mine.
You can hold me forever.
It's what you do to me that I treasure.

What it feels like when I can’t breathe.
Like some thief just stole my joy,
Made me gasp for air.
It happens like this,
when I feel like no one cares.
Why am I like this?
So emotional,
Don’t they know it kills me,
to not be normal?
If I breathe in and out…
Like everyone else does.
Maybe I wouldn’t panic,
The endless teardrops barge past, my bloodshot, swollen eyes
Nothing about this is normal
But yet they criticize
Stop crying.
Just breathe.
There’s no need for tears.
It’s like being mocked has become my biggest fear.
It makes me feel insane.
And feel suffocated.
I know im not crazy,
I know im just different.
But for someone who suffers from, PTSD, there’s a big difference.
I have had my struggles and emotional trips. I have obsessive-compulsive thoughts that get stuck like a switch.
Some say it’s easy to handle
Just don’t think about it.
But once something is in my head, leaving doesn’t exist.
So if I’ve ever cared for you, you’re always in my head.
There’s no way for you to disappear even with a single med.
I just want to breathe normally.
I just want to be seen.
I just want to be okay.
I just want to be me.

Some days I fade into the color gray,
A measly shadow passed along the way.
Seems like people walk through me as if I'm air,
It's almost like I'm not really there.

But then came you, and I feel known.
In your eyes, I don't feel alone.
You know the spark that's hid inside.
It's you who've made it come alive.

You've found all the pieces I've misplaced,
There have been tears cried just for you.
They are just from my ache of needing you too.
You've spoken my name like it has a powerful weight,
Like I'm no longer lost, and you've been worth the wait.
Where others have just given a glance, you truly see me.
Not who I was, but all I'll be.
In every night's silence in the dark,
You find and trace the light within my heart.

So when these days I seem to vanish and I seem so small,
You see me through all of it, you see me in all.
In your gaze, I always feel so new;
I feel visible, real, and special because of you.

When you hear the word "hero," you think of a strong person saving the world.
When I think of the word "hero," I think of you and how you have rescued me.
You may think you are anything but noble.
Or look and see your without your steed.
But to me, you're my hero because you know just what I need.
You may not think you're not worthy,
You have not be knighted by the sword.
But to me, your presence, personality, and love are more.
You may think you are not super, and you feel broken behind your mask.
But to me, I see a perfectly imperfect, super kind of man.
You may think your cape is missing.
You're not a hero in its absence.
But to me, no cape is needed to show a true hero to the masses.
You took all you are and all you have, and held my hand and me.
You speak to me as if I matter and make me feel so seen.
You're my hero; you've saved me from the sadness and loneliness I felt.
You're my hero, my unexpected blessing, whose whole being makes me melt.
You are my hero, my puzzle pieces that finally make me feel whole.
So when you hear the word hero and never think its you.
Just remember how wonderful the love is between us two.

Where the wind blows against the trees
and takes with it a trail of leaves.
The leaves fly away,
having no destination to stop and stay.
They keep floating through the air
on a wonderful trip without care.
Each leaf trails off on its own way, finding a place to rest and lay.
Within the magical, rhythmic breeze, two leaves trail alone.
They have no stop, just flying, maybe to their home.
Suddenly, the wind rushes the other way.
These two leaves start to float and sway,
Passing by one another,
barely catching sight of each other.
Then the wind turns to the softest breeze,
As the two leaves seem to land near one another with ease.
The two leaves, once in the air, destination unknown,
Found each other as they had felt alone.
The wind kicked up, pairing the two leaves together.
This sweet, natural connection as they rush and fall softly like two feathers.
These once solo leaves, floating in the wind,
Slowly held onto one another, a new friend.
Never to take flight alone again.
Now floating together in love’s sweet breeze
Are these two once solo leaves.

Have you ever just stopped and looked into the sky?
Have you ever looked up and wondered why?
The colors surround the sunset in the way they do.
I often wonder, and it makes me think of you.
It reminds me of the feeling I get when I look into your eyes.
It's that feeling I get still, that gives me butterflies.
The beautiful colors in the rays, cascading down.
Surely takes away any day when I have a frown.
The oranges, pinks, and yellows, too.
Melting all into one like an artist mixing hues.
Whenever I wonder what you feel for me,
I get this sense of warmth over my entirety.
The same warmth given to me on any single day,
When I look into the sky and it's you im reminded of, my wonderful Ray!

Gentle,
Loving,
Sincere,
And kind,
It’s what I see in your love that shines.
You make me feel wanted,
Make all the bad disappear.
It’s you and your sunshine
That brings me all cheer.  
Strong,
Courageous,
And the best,
With your talks,
The way that you love me and
Take hold of my hand,
Show me what it’s like to be
Loved by a man.  
I never take money,
Nor silver, or gold.
I’d never believe someone, even if told.
I can’t be convinced in any other way
That you weren't brought to me at just the right time.
Baby, you save the day.

I’ve never felt so seen,  
I’ve never felt so bare.  
Yet this is the feeling  
I’ve longed for everywhere.  
You make me feel I matter,  
That I’m worthy of love,  
Deserving of attention,  
You make my spirit glow.  
My smile shines because of you,  
Your care brings light to me.  
The ways you show your love, so true,  
In countless forms I see.  
I ache to spend my days with you,  
More moments by your side.  
I don’t feel I deserve this love,  
Yet I’m grateful for its tide.  
It’s not your task to guard my heart  
Or watch me day and night,  
But baby, I’m so glad you’re mine,  
My sweet guy, my delight.

My sweetest man, with our souls tied,
A beautiful secret bond between us where love resides.
No one could know the power of this gentle flame,
This quiet call inside my soul that speaks your name.  
Your kiss, a rush of a flashing bright light,
Always warms my heart through any endless night.
Each tender touch from each other, with loves soft caress,
We weave together as one in sweet loves excess.  
Your hugs, so close, so tight how they hold me near,
My haven you are where all doubts we have disappear.
Our hearts have entwined, leaving no space between,
Our two souls as one, a love beautifully serene.  
But it's in its distance that it weaves a wistful ache,
A longing soft, but enough my heart does break.
My world seems to feel dim without your glow,
Each moment my soul awaits for you to show.  
Its when I see you in the dawn’s first ray,
Your smile baby shines a warmth that lights my day.
My hands always  reach out to empty breeze in the air,
Its then I  feel your love, still lingering there.  
No miles can dim this love in which we share,
My sweetest man, babu you’re everywhere.
In every breath between, our bond holds true,
My heart, my home, belongs to you.

You, my love, are not a choice; you are a feeling I chose to feel.
You are always the thought in my head, the little voice;
You are a beautiful sound; it is so real.

You are a beautiful strong flower standing out upon the best.
Your the shaded tree that towers up above the rest.

You are one of  life's simplest treasures,
Words you speak pierce my soul.
Your ultimate gift of love is more than I can measure,
You're the pieces that make me whole.

Your smile lights up entire rooms.
You always give me shivers, like a sudden chill.
Your comfort shows me love and makes me feel no more doom.
Your time with me has me feeling thrilled.

You, my love, are not a choice; you are a feeling I chose to feel.

Man, you are the space between the seconds.
You are my special someone who makes me light up in your presence.

Perfect part of my everyday.
Everything about you came to me  packaged perfectly.
Ray, you're the reason this smile fills my face.
Souls connected, both at the same time and place.
Only you are my missing puzzle pieces; we fit perfect the way we do.
No one else is between us when it's just us two.
You are... my person.

Rescue in the storms of my life,
Always thoughtful to me, every day.
Yes, I yearn for you more and more.

You’re the spark brought to my life,
Opening my heart to let all of you  in.
Up into your eyes I look .

A closeness to you I long for
Respectful person in all you do.
Everyday is something new to explore
          with you
Let you linger forever with me.
Opening me up to see you completely.
Visions of him I see every single day,
Even when he’s not there,I see him
Delighted beyond measure to have
              found this man!
Ray, Always remember you are loved.

My someone who has crossed paths with me before.
My someone is my safe place in human form.
My someone who doesn’t judge my tears.
My someone who seems to settle all my fears.
My someone who knows my soul by looking into my eyes,
My someone with whom I get butterflies,
My someone who takes my breath away,
My someone who has brought sunshine into my skies of gray
My someone with whom we speak most when we’re quiet together,
My someone who makes me giggle as if I’m being tickled by a feather.
My someone whose touch is so sweet, for that I long.
My someone whose hands hold mine so strong.
My someone who I crave, not just romantic or ******.
My someone’s presence just makes me feel so full.
My someone instantly calms me.
You are my someone, and with you I always feel free.

      
RL❤️

You're like a breath of fresh air on a long-winded day.
Your sweet message keeps my worries at bay.
You're like the cat's meow and a sweet kitten's grin.
Any word from you makes a special day's end.  
You're like the bee's knees when it comes to your love.
You make me feel like it's come from above.
You're like, "Oh my stars," oh, how you shine on me.
I can't believe I get to be loved by you for free.  
You're a sight for sore eyes, and mine are so sore.
Looking at you, I could gaze forevermore.
You're the butterflies in my stomach every time I'm near.
I can't help but feel these butterflies; they just give me cheer.

When I close my eyes, it’s your face I see,
The face of relief, calming deep inside me.  
Your face, the very thought of you brings a smile,
Where sometimes tears linger for a while.
The boldness of your expressions, the way I read your eyes,
A silent language only my heart recognizes.  
Your voice, my sun, warms my soul’s eternal flame,
Igniting love that time can never tame.
Your resilience shines when times are tough,
A strength that proves you’re more than enough.  
How awestruck I am by my man’s heart—kind, yet strong,
Standing tall through days that feel so long.
Your steady hands hold my wildest dreams tight,
Our fingers entwined, a perfect fit in love’s light.  
When we touch, you hold me as if you know,
I never want you to let me go.
Please, let this moment linger, let it stay,
A timeless bond that never fades away.  
With you, my love, every moment we share,
Feels like forever, a wish suspended in air.
Together, we weave a life so divine,
Every second with you, I’m grateful you’re mine.