I wish you had called me. I wish you were more clear that morning. I wish you had stopped me. I wish you cared as much as I did. I wish I was good enough for you.

you say you love rain, but you use an umbrella to walk under it.
you say you love the sun, but you seek shelter when it is shining.
you say you love the wind, but when it comes you close the windows.

so that's why I’m scared when you say you love me.

twenty reasons why
i refuse to speak

twenty reasons why
i always feel so weak

twenty reasons why
i am not unique

twenty reasons why
you are the only one i seek

yet there are a million reasons why
i wish that you loved me

I yearn the mundane,
for a stable home,
for a place where I feel safe,
for common problems and not feeling alone.