I dont know what ive done
Was it right or Was it wrong?
Had me feeling so right
Now its wrong now youre gone
Cut my feelings off quick
While u were still hanging on
I'm scared that youll be done With us
When i realise the cost
I ******* miss u already
My ride or die forever
Just saying that word
Made you smile for the better
So i never let it off
Never gave u assurance
Not even hypothetical
To make you feel like i noticed
Ive been sabotaging us since
I knew you were too good for me
I know that im no good for u
And with me you'll be ruined - see
I tried to tell u from the start
But never had the courage.
Because i loved you like my baby
But now i put you through this.
This is not fair on you
Its terrible to do it
3 years of memories
Every second spent with you
I blew it.
Every holiday that passes
Is gonna tear me up inside
My emotions in a box
Kept locked up with chains of iron
When i feel the sadness bubble
I try to put it
to the side
Cause the only thing u wanted
Was to make me happy
Right?
The only thing you wanted
Was for me to try but i was too busy
Trying to prove a point
Or add heat to the fight
The only thing you wanted
Is our families be fine
When my mum went ******* you
And you still kept on a smile
No weight or obstacle could
Test you anytime
So I put on extra pressure
Because I didn't use my eyes
And shouted when you broke down
And left you when you cried.
Because im unworthy of your
Love, and it's killing me inside.
Now there's tears till my neck
While im thinking of you
And im thinking this through
Turning back to you has the simplest of truths:
Ill do the same thing
Out of interest for you
Because
I know you dont deserve a
Synthetic fool.
Though; Anything i could do
To savour a moment with you
I would do in a second
To see you enter the room.