Flowers flowing
The green grass growing
The sun beaming
The girl screaming

The man taking control
He used his whole sole
She was weak
She couldn't escape his physique

i am terrified
my mom makes threats and I can´t take it
i don´t want to ruin my life and future
someone save me from hell
this hell i am battling
someone
anyone

So last night I was almost not gonna do it and I thought I was better
I thought I was strong enough
I was wrong
I f*cked up so bad
I was a year clean
I am disappointed in myself
The instant I did it hurt my heart more than skin
My mom is gonna lose her ****

to the the girls who starve themselves,
the ones that watch their carbs,

you want to feel adored
you´re personality is fading
they´ll eventually get bored.

while striving for more
you settle for less

you can´t seem to love yourself
step on the scale, there go a few numbers
along with your happiness

Every time I walk into the store you are the first thing on my mind
I can only think about our sweet, unhealthy relationship
You crave those awful times in my mind
I can never stop thinking about you even though you hurt me
The feeling of carving you into my flesh
Made all of my pain melt away
I remember how I started you
I was at a very low place in the 8th grade
One of my friends hade done it and I thought lets try it
Little did I know I would never put you down
    I miss you old friend,
      Your survivor

What scares me the most
most won't guess what it is
is it me being dead?
dead batteries feel more than me

I am scared of being hurt
hurt is all I know

he is driving nuts
i can't remember a time when I felt like this
he turns me into a ****
i just want to steal his kiss

i miss falling asleep to his voice
i miss him holding me in his arms
i wish i mad the chose
i wish we were on better terms