This isn’t how I do this usually
Getting texts from you daily
I can’t deny that it’s an amenity
And maybe in six weeks we could possibly
Meet up for coffee or hibiscus tea
Cause I’d really love to be with you physically
I don’t mind seeing you weekly
Becoming fond of you lately
Maybe we could be a reality

Part II

As the leaves were falling
And the northeast wind approaching
A gust of sadness — a moment I was dreading
The cycle of “someday’s” and “maybe’s” reaches an ending
Though the actuality of it is quite relieving
The thought of it leaves me bawling

After days of loneliness
And nights of just dullness
Even chocolate was tasteless
Time was becoming senseless
When the pain felt like to the nth degree
And lost all desires of breaking free
Comes something I did not foresee

Part I

You can take what I’ve gotta give
‘Cause this can’t be divided fifty-fifty
When I say what I percieve
Your lack of words make you shifty

While I run through the woods
I feel the wind on my face
Like when I finally understood
We don’t ride at the same pace

Bottles of chardonnay
Cans of rose-tinged, raspberry flavoured white ale
To-go cups of triple shot macchiato
Goblets of merlot
Mugs of spearmint infused bittersweet hot chocolate
What if these drinks don’t fix it
They knock me down when they should be keepin’ me up
I’d better get moving but guess I am stuck
In a cycle of ruminating about the past and wanting to forget
That our story wasn’t gonna last and yours is just a vignette

The days are harder
When it’s bright outside
And the time has changed
You fake a smile
But you’re feeling the same

The days are harder
When you know you haven’t slept
And you open your eyes
Same eyes that have wept
Done with compromise

The days are harder
When you realize that it’s real
That pain means you can’t imagine the past,
Live a make-believe all at the same time and heal
But you tell yourself: “Today is gonna be the last”

And you wish it gets better
Or whatever comes before second best
Because if the days are harder
Then the nights must be the hardest

When you catch yourself smiling for no reason
Tell her you like her

When you can’t stop wanting to be alone with her in the same space again
Tell her you miss her

When you find yourself hoping everything’s alright
And can’t go on a day without knowing
Tell her you care

When you start caring so much
When every hug means wanting to stay in that moment
Every kiss means a split second never to be forgotten
Every gaze means wishing time could be frozen
— Even for a second
Then you don’t need words and that’s how you know.

When you think, you do et out loud
Your shadow is so vague
That when light shines through you, no doubt
Your limpid aura reveals; you are everything but opaque

When you sing, your voice
Like whispers from a gallery
People echo silence like noise
While your flair remain boxed in a chandlery

Sometimes you get scared when you lose control
But their flaws dont reflect your soul
Their actions arent yours thats all
But you can be more than who you are
And thats what makes you individual