I had to silence
the violance
that happens in my soul and sends earthquakes through my world
I had to forget
the regrets
from the missed opportunities, maybe they just weren't meant for me
I had to quiet
the riots
between me, myself, and I, they happened all the time
And I just couldn't take another casualty
I had to shut myself up so I could listen to me...

It's in these moments of calm that I feel the most panic
These moments when the TV is on
telling me a detailed story of someone else's life,
these moments when I am the most distracted,
that I am also the most aware of what's happening inside my body
Inside my head
It's in these moments of calm that I am the most afraid.

I don't like looking back,
three years ago I didn't have
any friends, any hope,
I gave them up all for a joke
of a man who laid his hands on parts of me he shouldn't have
and yes I knew, I swear I knew
that I had to leave but I couldn't move,
'cause at one point in time you had me by my mind
and I almost lost it all,
you didn't care you watched me fall,
but that was then and this is now and now is always gonna change,
but for today it's safe to say,
that I'm gonna be okay.
I say I'm gonna be okay.