Dont call me lazy
When I am sick
There's a difference between those 2
I'm depressed
Not lazy
I'm anxious
Not lazy
I'm burnt out
Not lazy
I have an eating disorder
I'm not lazy
I'm tired
Not lazy
I'm so done with this
Not lazy
I'm struggling
Not lazy
I'm sad
Not lazy
I'm nervous
Not lazy
I'm traumatized
Not lazy
I'm. Sick.
Not lazy.

too tired to talk
too tired to get up
too tired to do school work
too tired to care
too tired to eat
too tired to do anything
but
s l o w l y
t y p e
t h i s
a w f u l
p o e t r y

getting the burnout
tired of everyone
tired of life
tired of school
tired of art
tired of rehearsals
tired of being in the school play
tired of playing trombone
tired of painting
tired of drawing
tired of singing
tired of hanging out with friends
tired of doing homework
tired of writing short stories
tired of life
again
tired of responding to texts
but i keep sending them
tired of showing up to class
tired of correcting people on my pronouns just to get called a ***
tired of literally everything
but i know
i'll feel better in a little
and then it'll start all over again
so for now
i'll just hide my scars
mask my problems with humor
and wait
for happiness

so many times
i thought i was happy
turns out
it's just when you weren't around

i'm worried
because my best friend keeps trying
trying to **** herself
and i don't know what i'll do
if one more ******* awful thing happens in my life
maybe she and i will meet each other in another life
i don't know
i was never religious
so maybe we'll just be alone
unconcious
forever
i hope she knows i'm worried about her