Life feels like a carousel
Spinning and spinning
I want to fall off
Too much happening
Nausea sprouting
Anxiety rising
More future scars appearing
Spinning
Spinning
Spinning
All alone

Open your eyes
You're not safe
Get out from the open
Hide in a cave

Lock your doors
Hide with me
In the closet
Where no one can see

Where can I go
Anywhere but here
Anywhere but here would be safer
Anywhere but here would be better
Where will I go
Somewhere i can meet new people
Somewhere i can hide
Somewhere i can have new experiences
With you by my side
Somewhere...
Anywhere...
Would be better than here.

The worst thing in the world
Is the days where you feel like nothing matters
The days where no matter what
You can't enjoy what you usually do
The days where you feel nothing
And everything
All at once
Like styrofoam covered in gray and blue
The days where the sun is out
But you feel the rain drops hitting your sleeve.
The days where you scrape and stab at your skin just to feel something.
To feel anything.
Or nothing.
...

Why
How
Could
I
Ever
Think
That
I
Would
Could
Be
Free
Be
Accepted
For who I am

open the gate
who do you hate
"people who know who they are",
he said
i have to leave
i have to flee
I'm now in a country where i can't be
who i want to be.

open the gate
who do you hate
"everybody but me",