Your old emails
Laying on my imaginary table,
Waiting for a wind to be scattered.

The tenderness of a tsunami
Is gathering in your eyes,
I don't dare to look in them twice.

It's spring.
Soon, the books will grow new pages.

If I am not the one,
If we are not together,
I'll be your biggest fan
And they'll arrest me for stalking.

you are beautiful
you're insane
you are the most broken person I've met

a hurricane
a violent rain

I'm cursed to stay by your side
all the bad in my life
starts inside you

you're a disaster
chaotic
painful

two faced
liar
I can never trust you

you play mind games
I believed I loved you
now it feels fake

the knives you carry on your back
are yours

I made a mistake
I stepped into your life
now trapped inside your reflection
I've become your shadow

you're horrific
a piece of art

from a distance
I can admire you

you are
you are
you are

all

I wish I was more of a man
to tell you of the end

I think I'm a bad child
talking behind her back
thinking she deserves it

I think I'm a bad sibling
I don't care for my sister
she can give me the world
but I'd never let her in mine

I think I'm a bad friend
always lying and running away
mistaking the space I give
I'm just avoiding the conversation

I think I'm a bad person
smiling at other's pain
I can't comfort you on a bad day

keep it up
I've been left alone
losing everyone
my heart slows down

Come in, come in,
Please, feel like at home, lonely and sad,
Sit down, sit down,
Put your misery around you on my couch,
Talk to me, talk to me,
About things that I see in your eyes anyway,
And then go away, and then go away.

hurts when I cry

I know these aren't my last tears

it's only wednesday

I believe I have two hearts

overflowing with anxiety

I fall outside catching my breath

hurts to cry

I won't tell you why

nothing I wish for comes true

maybe I deserve this misery

maybe I don't

Take a time
And look into the mirror;
Find the deeper you.

"Why are you lying to yourself?"