She wondered
daily
Is she learning from her past
Is she repeating the same mistakes
Was this going to last
Was this the non-traditional
Storybook ending
Or was this just a harder lesson
Than the past
She wondered

Woke up today
Grateful
Even for the pain
Tears
& swollen eyes
A new day
New adventure
Convincing myself
It
Will
Be
Okay

Took him for granted
Maybe he was not that bad
I didn’t realize what i had
Until someone else
gave him a chance
For her,
he is the best
She has ever had
For me he is my sad
Past

Wishing a knight in shining armor
would save me
From my fears
Wipe my tears
Years of pain
& Sorrow
Longing for a rescue
Fairytale, yea,
It does not exist

Everyone wants to be a
super hero,
But only for validation

From the outside looking in
Everything is alright
But on the inside if my organs could talk
They would spew
Of the most pleasurable poisons
Drugs, alcohol, ***,love
Things You would never get.
So i just shake your hand
Pretending normalcy,
Just like you.

It was about an hour train ride
One to relax
Reflect
Think of past regrets
& stress about future ones