Hello Daisies

Hello Daisies Mar 2023

Sometimes in the darknest of days
Snow may fall
Like the biggest
Surprise
On my face

I will dance
By myself
I will feel the magic
Within oneself
I will shine like never before
I will remember my glitter
From days before

You don't always need
Someone
To shine
You don't always need
Someone
To dance at night
You can have your own magic

Bless be the snow
Coming to me
With a glow
Bless be your love
From above
I can dance again
I can feel the brisk
Again
The magic
In my pen
The extra skip
In my step
The snow
On my breath

Bless be this dance
Bless be
This chance

#happy #snow

Hello Daisies Mar 2023

Carry it

Carry it
Carry it
Carry the pain

I wrote you a letter
I watched it burn
I drowned it
I drown you
Now it's your turn
You've been drowning
Me
For so long
No more,
Atlas I can hear
my own song
I watch you drown
I can finally
Calm
Down

I can finally
Carry it
The pain
Will never go
This I know
I can carry it
With me as I go
Into the sun
I was never much a fan
As I let it in
I can feel it in my skin
I can
Carry it
Within

I wrote you a letter
I watched it drown
It came back up
From the ground
It came back to me
I turned around
Don't look back
Whispered to me
I took the hands
Of my future
To be
I walked away
Never again
I say

Never again
Let myself drown
Never again
Lose my own sound
I hope
I pray
Never again
To feel that way
I will carry it
Every day
I will carry myself
To a better place

I wrote you that letter
With all my heart
I drowned you
Without a second thought
Goodbye
And good riddance
I am free
I am free
I am free
To carry it
To be me
I am free
Of drowning
In your guidance
I am free
Of your tyranny
Goodbye
And
Hello
To me
Again
I'm my new
Beloved friend
❤️

#heartbreak #healing

Hello Daisies Mar 2023

Dollar general

I saw two girls
Laughing and shopping
At a dollar general
It reminded me
When I wasn't so
Miserable

When I had friends
To buy snacks with
When every day
Wasn't consumed with
Trying to be better
Trying to be skinny
Hating myself
Feeling lonely
Dark
Cold

I miss that laughter
I miss those days
Together
Any weather
We were warm
Eating snacks
Telling eachother
Random
Facts
Buying crazy
Toys
Laughing
About
Boys

Those were the days
Now I sit in a cube
Isolated alone
In my cold room
In my cold mind
Focusing on
Whatever the ****
The grind
Is
That's all I do
Isolated
In
My
Cold cube

Hello Daisies Feb 2023

Surreal

How long can I pretend
To feel
To heal
What's real ?
I'm lost
∆°In the surreal ∆°
The art is false
The grass is grey
I'm a needle
In hay
Nobody's looking
Lost forever

Hello Daisies Feb 2023

a letter to burn

I wrote you a letter
To burn and feel better
I cried as my pen
died
Asking myself why
I can't burn this
I can't let this go

I can't
I can't
I can't let this ******* go

I wrote you a letter
Of all the hurt you've done
everything you did wrong
the pain in my lungs
I wrote you a letter
To Help me move on
it just held me again
Stung
With my own pen

You have a way
everything you say
In my mind
my own fault
my heart
an empty vault
Never you to blame
You hold no shame

I want to let you go
I want to break free
Of this dramatic show
I want to feel free
Of the tyranny
You have over me

That's why
I wrote you a letter
Saying goodbye
I wrote you a letter
Telling you I cried
I wrote you this letter
So you may die
From my life
I wrote you a letter
To say I love you
Most of all
I wrote you a letter
To let go of you

Burn you
To ashes
I fell down ...
... Like a boat,
In the ocean crashes
Waves bellowed over me
Screaming into my ears
Drowning me with fears

I can't burn something drowning
In water
I can't burn something
I hold as a flower
Blooming in the pain
Of my tears
I hold it so dear

I can't
I can't
I can't let this ******* go

I can't ignite the flames
I can't release the ink
I harbour it forever
In every song
Every sky
Every moon lit night
Every sign
I pass by
Every new York building
In the sky

Every ..
train
Late at night
Every group of friends
I pass by
Every joke
Or tear
I cry
Every little thing
I can't seem to burn
No matter how many
New bridges I turn

But

I wrote you this letter to say goodbye
I know deep inside
You're gone
So I wrote you this letter
To finally move on
The only next step

... burn my whole ******* house down

Hello Daisies Feb 2023

******* *****

It ***** to lose the one
The one person who made the stars
More magical then they already are

The one person
You could lay on the road with
Talk and bond your soul with
The one person you were forever with

A sister
A friend
A soulmate
A magical date

It really *****
So ******* much
Who will I look up with?
To see the stars at night

They feel dull to me now
They feel wrong to me now
I feel only sad
And lonely
When I look above
It'll never be
What it once was

You and me
Sharing our hearts
On a cold open road
Laying there like crazy nuts
Laughing and singing
Our minds were ringing
Of joy
being content
Of magic
So potent

Now it's gone
Your touch
Our love
The friendship
Everything it was

It really *****
To lose all that
It really really ******* *****
To remember that
It can never be what it was

Now everytime I look above
I feel my heart being torn
Apart
Now I can only feel blue
When I look at the pale moon
: (

Hello Daisies Feb 2023

February air

I feel the February air
But I don't care
I can't care
You seem to be everywhere

You are all of new York
You are all of my walls
You are all of my parts
You
... You
Are
Or were
All of me
Now you are just one thing
February air

You run through me
Without a care
You blare your angst
You remind me of the pain
Of leaving me at the door way
Of pushing our friendship away
Every day

You remind me
Of running into your arms
Of corn and fields of farms
Of surprises in train stations
Of birthdays in New York
Laughter in a swimming pool
Walmart shopping at midnight
And bagel bites candle lights
But most of all
You always remind me
Of February air
The breeze I once loved
Now dead and mud
Cold through the bone
No brisk breeze
Just frigid freeze

You are the seasonal depression
But every month now it seems
There is no end
To February
My very being
It'll fade
The autumn will come again
One day
I know it
I hope it
I need it
For I cannot breathe
For the rest of my life
In
February air