Gulishta

Gulishta Nov 2017

I never took you seriously,
Never knew what you mean to me.
Everything we shared ,
Showed me how much you cared.
Your possessiveness used to scared me,
Now I wish to see your beautiful eyes staring at me.

Singing with the radio,the sad songs.
Days of dancing in your arms are long gone.
It used to suffocate me,
The way you were always around.
Now I wish to feel your arms on me.

Why did I go made it complicated?
When you were that committed.
Trying looking for something,
that's always been there.
Now I wish to you to be here.

Gulishta Nov 2017

Till we meet again.

I didn't wanted to ***** you,
Wanted to give you time.
I was taking it slow,
Since I thought,we have a lifetime.

But you were snatched away,
In such a brutal way.
I couldn't get my bearing,
Couldn't believe what I was hearing.

I didn't know you were struggling,
What kind of a friend I've been?
Didn't even know,
The hand you were dealing.

I was just around the corner,
You would just have to reach.
Or you could've just told me,
We would've set up a meeting.

I would've answered,
Anytime you called.
What was your hesitation?
I was your best friend.as you've told!

If you would've just told me,
Maybe we would've still had time.
I would've moved heaven and earth,
Just to make you mine.

I searched for you forever,
Looking for your face in stranger.
Even chasing few wrong persons,
There's new height for my hallucinations.

Now,I'm going through the motion,
Working through this pain.
Waiting for that day to come,
Till we meet again.

Gulishta Nov 2017

No more

No more, expectations,
No more, explanations.
No more, sticking around,
No more, staring at the ground.

No more, letting you tell what to do,
No more, letting anyone through.
No more, saying "I love you ",
No more, weaving my life around you.

No more, wanting to get back together,
No more, the illusion of forever.
No more, hiding my tears,
No more, conscious what not to wear.

No more, letting you near,
No more, living in fear.
No more, pretending to sway,
No more, letting you get away.

#no #more #apledge

Gulishta Nov 2017

Moving on.

The stillness of the house,
The chaos in my brain.
The pigeon sitting on the window,
It just me and him again.

The vacant cupboard,
The empty shoe-rack.
the numbness that surrounds me,
And the things I still have to pack.

The moon high up in the sky,
the brightness of the stars.
it's all gonna help me,
to heal those scars.

the peaceful quiet,
after a very long time.
trying to leave everything behind,
that's all on my mind.

Gulishta Oct 2017

No life without you.

It hurts to even think,
What would happen if I blink.
My life is gonna change,
And everything we manage to make.
Only constant thing is uncertainty,
Won't even be getting an opportunity.
Everything that's there to loose,
ohh I don't,don't wanna choose.
They say they've done enough,
And keeping like this for you is rough.
Why moving on means leaving everything behind?,
Why can't can I keep you by my side?
They say it has to be this way,
I don't even get to get a say.
It's your life with they are dealing ,
Like you are gone already.
They say I have to let you go,
And expect me to keep going on.
My heart dying a little every minute,
Since I saw you on that breathing machine.
You can't leave me,
I haven't given you the permission,
And it's time to keep your promises.
You said we were meant to be,
Oh baby, baby please ...
Come back,come back to me.

Gulishta Oct 2017

My friend

It started with a shared meal,
Eventually, became a big deal.
You saw me sitting alone,
Talked! because you were bored.
One simple phone call,
Smallest of the gesture that's all.
You saw something in my eyes,
And Wanted to make it alright.
I tried to push you away,
you kept coming back much for my dismay.
The way you were ready to forget whatever,
just so we could stay together.
you pushed,until I get ready,
And our time together has been crazy.
I'm proud to call you friend,
And I hope "us" never ends.
...Gulishta

#my #friend

Gulishta Oct 2017

Stupid me.

You said, you were sorry,
You said, I don't need to worry.
You said, you'll make it alright,
And our future is so bright.
I wondered,what's going to happen,
If it was the time to be more forgiving.
You said , it won't happen again,
You said ,you were in the pain.
But I should've seen coming,
I should've been less forgiving.
I wanted to save you,
I wanted to keep you safe,
As if it's a fairy-tale.
You said you want me there,
I reached,you weren't anywhere.
I wanted to put you in a wrap,
you set me up in a trap.
They say life is not fair,
But what you'll make of a betrayal.
I gave you my heart and soul,
But you just wanted to see me fall.
you succeeded,
I didn't.

#stupidheart