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4.9k · Jan 2014
Suicide Letter
Kevin Collington Jan 2014
This is me, call me a broke *** *****
This is me, trying to make a lil figgas
I’M feeling depressed, unworthily and used
So confused stuck on which road I should choose
As I matter of fact, **** it, im done with this ****
I’m tired of this ****** thinking im a straight up *****
But don’t worry tomorrow it’ll be all said and done
Would you remember me if I got killed by a gun?
Or would you remember me as the money moocher?
The one who would rob the game with a two tone
Word on the street is I need to ******* grow up
Well to the critics who say I should chill shut the **** up
I’m just being me, living life as I should
**** ain’t real if you ain’t real in the hood
It’s because of you I feel like I can conquer the world
It had nothing to do with you becoming a part of my world
I had never been to D.C., OR to V.A., NONE OF THOSE PARTS
I just found someone who gave me a change of heart
Then you say I lied to you but I had to please forgive me
My heart’s been stomped to the ground like Kirk, b
No type of Franklins, just stuck on Aretha
****** called me a loose **** with a severed Urethra
Which means my main vein is damaged, but I know you mean well
How can such a heavenly body cause me so much HELL?
Y’all hear what y’all hear but the sugar daddy blocking it
I deal with colostomy bags often, ******* full of ****
Thirty Three years  so wise so cold
So ill so real so ****** so bold
Still I press forward to beat of my drum
Marching forward to my death Tommy Strong in my song
And I know I fail hard but what else is it to do?
I’ve been looking for something stable for a year or two
Feel like my momma don’t love me so I keep my enemies closer
Sometimes I feel closer to that mu’****** holster
Kiss my girl goodbye tell my daddy I love him
Tell my sis thanks for everything tell my haters **** em
Tell the police don’t shoot, because that’ll ruin it all
Shoot myself thru the nuts and say I had a ball
Then I chopped my **** off since I’m a *******
Shove my **** in your mouth now I’m a *******
And since ****** think im ***** I’ll just grow a ******
Or take a thousand pills until I have an angina
I’m done with the game so Ima bleed what he is
Ima walking talking toilet so I must be the ****
And when I die, bury me on the last train to Paris
Next to Bugs Bunny’s Corpse and basket full of carrots
**** it im outtie my spaceship is waiting
I’ll leave you devils here on EARTH TO DEAL WITH SATAN.
1.6k · Jan 2014
"Ecstasy In Flight"
Kevin Collington Jan 2014
I searched for a feeling that made me feel like a million
Went to hell and back sometimes had to be a chameleon
But when my time to feel it I was rocky road ready
When I saw your hidden treasure i knew dinner was hot and ready
So I step into the abyss deep in your ocean for that buried treasure
When i cracked open your box i found ecstasy and pleasure
My land was ready for you to drop the bomb on it
Had my soldiers ready all protected just in case of crooked mission
You wanted me to Iraq you and sneak up from behind
But I'm cautious so what I give you is hard to find
My friends said I was fraternizing‎ with the enemy
But when your soldier is at attention with a dime piece ain't **** you can say to me

I cooked you dinner while your dessert on the menu
The funny is to me you used to cold like with the flu ha chu
Finger itching finger licking for a taste of that bubble yum
soon as you let me enter it became on and popping like some bubble gum
If you the enemy i surrender my flag to you
what you got is boss no suit and tie but loyal
moscato had me feeling like i hit the lotto
especially when you spread it like butter and show me what you used to ride my bike like Throttle

I'm going all in i hope my soldiers don't shoot quick
I hope she nasty and her intentions is to meet my kids
Round 4 still at war on that kitchen floor
Round  5 we park benched to the subway doors
i love your sweet nectar your bee hive has stung bee
No poison venom just love uncontrollably
I’m deep in your treasure giving you techniques to remember
My Love and Head Games will keep you saying"Guess Who's Coming To Dinner?"
1.2k · Jan 2014
"Yesterday"
Kevin Collington Jan 2014
Yesterday I had sweet dreams and sweet memories
The liquor that I drank wished away those bad memories
Hadn’t smoked in a while so one of my demons is fixed
I brought a plane trip to heaven because life’s a trip
My sweet love became a demon in disguise
If I was sick she wouldn’t give me breath to stay alive
Still I feel deserted but blessed in all ways
Reminiscing of me and my brother chilling in the hallways
Yesterday you were alive and I could tell you my deepest secrets
Even at your bed side you would sit up just to hear it
Yesterday I was just at your mother house for Sunday dinner
Today I feel lonely heartbroken & disfigured

See everything I went through had a times and places
There’s a syllabus and syllables with a whole lot of face
Still the smell of soul food was better than an old dude
And the laughter we shared can’t compare to anything boo
My love now is the equivalent of a ****** in a trash can
Looking through it trying to find its next meal man
Yesterday happiness filled the air
Now today it’s like no one’s there
My aunt told me never settle choose the best
Shorty committed surgery on me straight cut my heart out of my chest

Now I’m left with this empty hole
In the clubs, no dimes, just hoes
Never cheated, but the seduction on the plate
Had me stir crazy going crazy for days
Then yesterday came that’s when I learned the truth
I became a unregistered gun in the hand of a criminal who isn’t afraid to shoot.
327 · May 2017
Up and Down
Kevin Collington May 2017
Open love's chest and found nothing inside
My heart became frozen beyond the suicide
People don't understand the spiritual depletion
Living life on the edge pass the birds beaking
Eventually i became a sucker for love
A fool for fools and a answer for slugs
I yearned V-Jays from The record to the bed
Corruption by Vaginal deception messing with my head
Feeling blessed my while feeling misused
Disgusted and busted while feeling like doo doo
Praying daily to The Lord begging for forgiveness
He hugged me deep in my soul as my witness
Thats why i love hard because i was made with bricks
What you mad for because I'm sensitive about my ****?
You mad because i have a brain and use it?
You're religious rhetoric causes me to loose it
I'm real about mines so stand clear of the b.s.
Just because you're life is a test doesn't mean i ain't blessed
What it mean is my window pane is free and clear of the rain
My eyes are too dryed out for the pain
So the next time you try to break me down
I will Leggo your heart just to F5 that ******* down.
277 · Dec 2018
Finding Me
Kevin Collington Dec 2018
37, claiming Heaven
Finding Kevin
Denouncing Gen
Drinking Gin
Pain and Suffering in my body
How can I see find my right lane?
Liver bad but I'm glad
Wish i had more support form my mom and i wish my dad
151 caused me pancreatitis
Rap gave me headaches not hepatitis
Clean but ***** mind
So deformed my each and every time
I lie and say I'm one of a kind
Meanwhile I played Daddy to kids
Wasn't with this girl but i gave her ****
But now i feel like a ** no high heels
Too scared to tell people exactly hkw i feel
I'm done playing house I'm done playing with myself
When I'm scared of finding love to love myself
But at least i found peace beyond the misfortunes
I cashed life in now I'm banking on my fortune
240 · May 2017
Wake up
Kevin Collington May 2017
Time to wake up and smell the roses
Time to become real and stop posing
How is the fake 100 and the real on 0
So many people sold their soul they should rename themseleves Dinero
Only difference is Robert was a goodfella
While Kelly knew an Robert who would **** on a dream chaser
Woke up feeling renewed like movie
Until i realized like Trump nothing you say Against me shall move me
My office space is filled with memories unhinged
Remembering the space and time injected by syringe
Even if I do believe in government reform
I still wouldn't sell my soul even if there's a million sitting right beside the form
The Devil hates truth but loves music
Kind of weird considering the fact that in heaven he was in charge of music
So the next time you decide to ***** and complain about the future
Just theres always somebody waiting for you with a 2 to- (gunshot, shell drops)
100 · Oct 11
Rejoice To Love
Today I awoke to peace within my heart
Finally, I found a moment with care from the jump
I feel open, no more torn by the hip
No more drama, No more rain, just raincoats to the hip
Now I see beautiful visions, your eyes glisten like diamonds
Your smile is like the mountain dew on the horizon
Your laughter is addictive like coke or ****
I feel excited about life now I'm ready for the next step indeed.

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