I love being silly
a child at heart with
a 100 year olds brain
I just can't help it

I'll take one hair and
place it on your lap
which means you are
important to me

I'll pinch your cheeks
while I'm exited
which means you
are precious to me

I'll hold your hand
no matter where we might be
which means I feel
safe around you

You know I was trying to heal
I never stopped trying
even when you were here
I made some changes
along the way
and now …
I am healing
just without you

Don’t think that
your words can pull me
closer to you

Don’t think that
your smiles does
the hard work

Don’t you dare think
I would’ve stayed just
because of how you made me feel

Im sitting here with my heart
right up in my throat
and I swallow,
These last few days have just been so low
and I don’t know if I have the strength
that I need to climb out right now
I keep digging myself deeper
and fill my hole with liquid courage
to make me forget that I have none
This is just another episode to ride out
but man, I’m so f*cking tired of crashing