You told me of a time
When you relinquished it all
The feelings you had
Because you felt you had to
To not get burned
And now you do it again
There's nothing I can do
You're convinced
And so one day I'll cry
Or die
And you will be happier
And you won't be burned
Except you won't know

You wouldn't be burned regardless
Not with me
You'll never burn with me
I care too much
I wish you did too

Have you ever started walking,
And you're sort of wandering?
I mean you have a path
There is a direction,
There is a destination,
But your mind isn't going there with you
Your mind disappears from your body
It goes somewhere else
To the point where you're sort of
Just blindly walking
Still going the right way
And at the point that you are
Near the destination,
You start to realize that
You aren't you
You have no opinions,
No desires, no needs
Death and poverty become
Just words with a textbook meaning
Rather than actual problems
You realize that you are only
A symbol or an idea
Of what you once were
And once wanted to be
Have you?

Lord, it’s a shame, I know
Thinking of how it could go...

I can't
Pretend
It's not
The End
Lovers
Then friends,
Strangers
Again

Old longings nomadic leap,
Chafing at custom's chain;
Again from its brumal sleep
Wakens the ferine strain.

I hate myself
My life
My lack of friends
My personality
I'd welcome death
If i weren't such a coward
I hate myself

Given the circumstances
We only exchange glances
We’d hold a stare and exchange rings
If only our love grew velvet wings
But you say what I’d say
If only in the way
Never does one make you laugh and smile
The way I do, loving you all the while
I have no idea why you run
If only I had one

If only...

There’s nothing worse
Than being on this planet
With seven billion other people
And feeling utterly alone

I am just another fool,
And I have to keep telling myself that
I am just a hypocrite,
And I have to keep calling you one
Cause I forgot to bite my tongue
And my assumption,
It is the mother of all mistakes
So I assume the role,
Open my mouth,
And clumsy words escape

So why do you wanna be there,
When you could be here,
You are slipping away

I awake to your replacement,
A bottle in my mouth,
In an unfamiliar place
Because you put me out,
The **** of a sick joke,
Into this ashtray life
As you come and go,
Cause I forgot to service you,
And we broke down
And you can't live with my mistakes,
But I assume false grace
Open my arms
And grasp for something true

How are you,
How have you been,
Girl I miss you,
Wanna see you again
Oh why do you wanna be there,
When you could be here,
You are slipping away

I bring out the worst in you,
And you try to let me know
You bring out the worst in me,
Anxiety, anxiety
I'm trying hard to let you go, but
You say I'm giving you the creeps
So I assume the role,
Open my claws
And grasp for your heart

How are you,
How have you been,
Girl I miss you,
Wanna **** you again
Into you like a mortal stake
So vindictive
Your love's slipping away

You've made me so happy
Happier than i could ever ask for
You're the sweetest
In my eyes
I love everything about you
But you've confused me
You've confused me and,
Hurt me for the last time
I think
So when i'm gone
Far too soon
Before or after my time
Whichever you think
Because your opinion is the truth
I believe that to be so
And you wonder how to get by
How you can get past it all
Try to remember this:

I'll just be waiting here
Patiently
Waiting for you to join me
Then we can spend some more time together

There’s no use trying to fight it
It’s in our blood
It’s what makes us,
Us
And we fully believe it to be so
That it’s foolish to play it safe
When our real life is out there
Waiting to be lived

No risk
Full aversion
Sleep my life away
Because living it is harder
At least my dreams
Can make me somewhat happy
I get to see her
In some of them
And because I'll die
If I have to live with this ****

Hidden in the darkness
Tremble beneath the mark
Of their words
Drive out on a monday
Meet you on a sunday
Then the sun turns

Please don’t wait
There’s no hate
But it’s a long road yet
No more talk
And no mock
Not a sign of regret

But the moon shines bright
In a darkened sky
A hollowed tree whistles
When the wind blows right
Walk with me one more night

Weathering the darkness
Waiting to embark
It’s a curse
Killing time with kindness
Her company was timeless
Then the sun turns

Please don’t wait
There’s no hate
But it’s long road yet
No more talk
And no mock
Not a sign of regret

But the moon shines bright
In a darkened sky
A hollowed tree whistles
When the wind blows right

Walk with me one more night
Dance with the shadows in the moonlight
Walk with me one more night

A broken smile
A compliment
Lost feelings
The sentiment
As the time slows
The tortoise goes
And we are all the weaker

Mellow. Like a cloud
If that's right
To be compared to
It's how i feel
It's my anger and sorrow
It's the fire and rain
All that fills my heart
A heart of darkness
So meaningless
Everything that has happened
None of it mattered
The people didn't
The *******
The hatred burns
Lava overflowing the cloud
The mellow cloud
I've turned into a psychopath
I think, because of the mellowness
I feel nothing even though
I should feel these feelings
I know i should push through
She said i could
But **** her
I want to die
I never belonged
But now it's even more
Evident
Cold, everyone has been to me
Cold, when i'm dead, i'll be
Cold, i feel nothing
****, be killed
It matters not
To me
I feel nothing
Just mellow
Like a cloud
No thunder
No lightning
No rain
Just white and fluffy
Feeling nothing

You can tell
When someone cares
It's obvious
But when someone doesn't
When they don't care
At all
They're able to hide it
Sometimes
But if you pay attention
It's glaring
And it makes you feel like ****
But whatever...

Happy, if we're talking
What could have been
Meaningful, and full
Of emotion, good feelings
I never had doubt
All you had to do
Was let it work
Two lives that will be
Now forever plagued
With sadness and misfortune
They'll end on the same day
And far away
From each other
The problem here
Was not me, it was you
My dear, my darling
My sweetheart
I loved your singing, but,
Sad, if we're talking
What will be
Meaningless, and empty
With regret

Fear what is gone
Fear what is lost
Fear what is loved
Fear what it cost
Know what was known
Know what was here
Know what was lost
Know what is fear
Love what's now here
Love what's now new
Love what's now fear
Love what loves you

I'm hurt,
I'm broken,
I'm bruised,
I'm sore,
I'm losing
The battle
Of life.
I'm on
The verge
Of death
Right now.
But you're ok
And that's
What matters.

When it rains,
It doesn't always storm
That's only one way to put it
But it's perfect
So yes, we're falling down
But don't give up yet, my love
Because we haven't hit the ground
I will catch you
And we'll hit it running
Just let go,
Close your eyes,
Trust me,
Please!
And don't fear
We'll be okay
I promise
You're in good arms
The only sure arms

Where are we
In this maze of ropes
This was once a
Katamari of tropes
Designed to make
Us happier beings
And now i feel
Like we've lost our wings
We've hit a dead end
And to turn around
Seems to be easy
Give up the love we found
But we can't do that
And why would we?
This is what we both need
The way we wanted to be
So i propose a new idea
Don't turn around or reverse
Don't do what we know
Will make it worse
Power through the dead end
Carve our way through
Make a new land
The land of me and you

Sing or die
Dance again
And go today
Make it or break it
A revolution
Your motions
Like planets
All in alignment
To be or not to be
To do or not to do
And really
To know or not to
Is whether or not
To live is your leisure
For you to find out

Whoops I od'd,
Shortness of breath,
Call ambulance,
Tell my wife I—
Error in judge—-
—-ment cut my life,
No second chance
No guiding light
I never meant
To cause you pain
I never thought I'd be the one who took the fall
I got lost in the moment,
******* like to test the limit
Six minutes down,
Breathing  machine,
Brain not feel right
The look on you
Is killing me,
Drowning in shame
But don't feel bad,
Cause I
Never feared consequences
Hate regrets more than apologies
A year has passed,
Like photographs, my life is just
A scrapbook of
Old friends and faded memories
Looks like I pulled the rug from under myself
The falls too much for me to recover from
It's been real fun
But now I must say goodbye,
I'll see you all at okie dogs
See you all at okie dogs

Where is there opportunity
In this field of sadness
Nothing accomplished
Nothing gained

What's the point
Of going on any further
No commitment
No more pain

Why is it important
To get through this
No more hardships
Nothing's the same

When will it be fine
To just give up
Not a sacrifice
No disdain

They tell me
"Don't give up"
But all I hear is
"Aim for the brain"

Within my own mind,
I’m a prisoner.
Within my own heart,
I’m a victim.
Within my own body,
I’m a stranger.

It all comes and goes
All these woes

Strong
Bold
Beautiful
Intelligent
Powerful
Kind
Wise
Our better half

My wont is what I want.
And what I want is what I’m worth
So what am I worth?

My life, is something I dread
A monotonous, never-changing seam
Everyday I try another thread
The thread of a new theme
Nothing seems to work

Many times I wonder
If it's been my own faulty decisions
Or if there's something in the Sunder
To blame for the constant salty revisions
Nothing seems to work

I go about it all with scars
The wounds on my soul
Look up at night, I see no stars
Wake up, and I play my role
And nothing seems to work

Would she do it on purpose?
Or is it something bad?
Rejection of kindness
Reeling from the folds
Is this just a coincidence?
Every second now
Drowning in the mystery

You hesitate with every word
As if everything you say means the world
To everyone who might hear you
You shiver as you maintain eye contact
With every motion, your hair,
It cuts through the air with beauty
All of the beauty of your entirety
And you smile when i tell you all of this
With your teeth white,
And your tongue sticking out,
You are the embodiment of my happiness.

You
You make them here
My emotions
They appear
That
That's what I fear
The mixed emotions
The feelings that you hear
You hear the tears
You can hear the fear
My mind is gone
It's gone
It's gone
It's gone

We say
It's
All
So
Fun
But we must run
It's done
You
And
I
Are
Are love
Our love

Never
Get through to
The feeling
Inside you
It's ever
Conforming
As I
Get closer to
Everything
You are
You are
Leaving
And all
My memories are
Crowding my
Eyes
Eyes
Eyes

Our love