What is real?
AM I REAL?
Are you real?
What is truly the way
of being real?
You dont have to touch fire
To know that it's hot....
You don't see oxygen.
Yet you are aware you breathe it...
You understand that it is required of
Our very essence of life...

It doesn't matter if it's
visible to these eyes...
which are enchanting enough
For you to see the world unfold,
we live on a treasure piece, but we abuse the laws of life, blinded we are by the weight, the feel...

The hold of meaningless vices, that are worse than CURSED gold!



Shhh....


The truths screaming inside,
imprisoned sleeping thoughts
accompanied by the
sour taste of pride
Time moves forward,
Some allow the struggle
To make us divide...
Truth always finds you
That is real
So riddle me this.
Where will you hide?

I am a not a solider of war
I am not a fighter
for the side of doom
I am A peaceful warrior!
I wield LOVE as my weapon!
My son...
Give me endless power and might
To fight like a brave knight!
my LIGHT, you shine
With the essence
of devine energy
My LOVE...
Will never diminish...
My LOVE...
Will protect you from
the unimaginable terrors
that sleep on earth!
WHEN the skies... calls
my name to become the light
Forever I will guide you
Until the wake of our next life!

I fade in and out of consciousness
my life is too immense to harnest
Together we shall rise and never fall 
into the deafening dark abyss
allow me to show you
who the real prophet is!!

-DESCOVIA

It will be alot easier....

To let it all go...

Let...it...all...go...

The many definitions of me...
could be felt in my throat...

The screaming never stops...

"Pull The Trigger....NOW"


For he holds a great deal of immense power, that should not be tainted by impurity!

If our son was the composer of melancholic poetry.

A caster, of heart broken spells.

The storyteller, of incomplete novels

He does not deserve that place as the artist of destruction!!

Many times where I have pointlessly...
Slid the sharpen blade of truth
To answer, to the cries of pain
In those lonely nights, confused nights, with regretful fights elevated to extreme heights!

Where all the wrong doings felt so right...
Selfishness, was indeed more than my vital adrenaline rush! I needed the pain like an addict needed a "fix" before descending into the deafening depths!

It hurts amazingly, and being able to withstand it brings that feeling of joy
flowing throughout my entire body!!

What truly understands the actual self?
Other than the sources???
Harmful or not that gives us
That repair, when we are broken??

My body alone is more than
What's perceived as a holy temple...
Every scar, mark, wound,  fresh or old
Has a story behind it!

For I am proudly left
with nothing to conceal!
All my time spent
in the dark to become the light,
all must be revealed!!

Until we arrive to this very
day where we face the death
Of our former selves to be born again!

Never thought it would arrive
To this point where the tables turned
In this I realize, that my power is
drained and even in the heat of rage


The bright flames that danced in the night.

Filled the ambitious eyes
of that man we both once knew....

For everytime, I do look back at trail of memories.

Following the trail of blood...

Wondering where all the time left us!
If this, is all there is left to show...

What was invested, for the prevention of this untimely demise, to pay the price WITH A SACRIFICE..?!?!

Its still in the air...
The way your hair smells
After a shower....

I would spend some days in my hole
You had a smile that lifts up the world.

That smile gave me so much strength
This to me is what immortality felt like!

It was like you had abilities of white wizard, and I assure you, any adventure with our little hobbit is worth those infinite voyage. I would be by your side through the dark ages as your warrior! Through hell in all...

I will forever fight for you!

That reassurring voice that restores hope..
In the lost dark hours, of the burning night. Powerful enough, to silence the monsters inside!

Pain. Problems. Worries. It matters not when you wield the most valuable weapon of all....

The embrace from you....replayed itself in my mind. Where... I melted and reformed again in your arms. I felt the fire, and ice acting as one in unison...yet conflicting inside of me!!

This is only a dream isn't it?? In such a way, I've never felt, my strongest emotions at their fullest peak!!

Loving arms that pull me inside and we both release our tension as we collide!

Even in winter nights it wasn't by miracle. You kept me warm often. Strong when I was fragile.

Mended me when I was broken. 
Staring into the twilight sky
The stars light up, like the day for me...
When we first met!! Like the day you fought for life...


To be brought into this world!!
If only I had fought harder!!!
I could have been a better FATHER!!

Staring back at the trail of blood
This is where the time has gone....
The hourglass of life...
with my name on it
Is shattered.....

Now I understand

That the stars were your eyes....

The energy of two opposite worlds
vibrates and resonates in flow for control!
Infinite brilliance, transcendence of what
is truly conceived by perception. Mysteries tapped
within sacred signals and symbols!

His words, that is what keep us nimble. Tangle more so beyond a transfix this world is stuck in darkness more so beyond the realm of time! The true ideas and passion is what sparks us. Everything that is negative holds us back and deprives us of true love and self worth!!

DESCOVIA and C.J

Walk for that Shocker
Talk for that chopper
Sooner or later
You gone need a Doctor
What's the word
What's the own
Catch a thrill
Just like my bones
Mass isn't space
Space ain't line
Time to go sets
of a separate race
Stop hold the presses
Wait. Hold. Still.
I'm still a mess.

Behold, the strength of character
Defines vivid intentions of morality!
Absorbing the realization in reflection.
Vicious minds limit us by seperation
To weaken the connection!

The demons that sleep in the darkest mind
Does Not have ability to hold us prisoner!
Stand tall and hold your head proudly!
The soul is full with colors
of who you are!!
Glorifying in a continous multitude
of beneficial purposes...
Every single one of you...
Represents beauty...magically
By every comprehensive definition!!! If it is a MUST to become whole.
Allow every belief to come
together to connect all
Have faith even in wild dreams
Pieces gather to fall into place

power bond with
The true self cannot
be destroyed or matched!

It only shall be obtainable
Through the desire
For a purifying transformation
empowered by devine energies.... Alas, the darkness even in the
Brightest moments will haunt you
conspire the rotation
Wondering eyes watch
Silently in fading skies...
Mind, heart and soul unison
Blood bounded to Gaia's time

Thou shall fly freely from
troubles by breaking grasp
From all harm done
Opening up to the sleeping happiness
Give liberty to everything
Within your subconscious!! It's time you answered to your calling.... Your blessing to the universe
holds extraordinary gifts
It's reasonable to be afraid
Do not give in....
Do not give up... -DESCOVIA & C.J

Feb 12 2019 copyright (c)

I've rolled da dice
Since my youth
Life's hard but
I never let it slide
As an excuse!
These two faced ******
Will never see the way
WITHOUT THE EYES of truth!!


If you froggy, betta jump
In the game...
LET ME LOOSE
In the booth!
If we lit
Then flame on!
We are burning
The roof!!
I set it off!
AUTOMATIC
Like an addict
With the habit
Let me have it!
With that touch Of magic.
..I can reverse this curse
That made it all so tragic
Cut the line of madness
To end the screaming sadness

****** be bumping
that noise on the book

****** be bumping
that noise on the net

If you smooth

Then it's a BET

Put that on your set
Haha


If you wish, for me it's pratice
Sweep you rats under the rug

Count the money as it comes
Hiding benjis under the mattress...

Adding on to the game
never subtract ****!

We can go head to head

Neck to neck

Back to back
on the attack like titans!
You don't stand-ah chance
Unless you with that lighting!
None of you ready to
Flow with that MAGIC
Do you want that static!?

Speaking from a wise soul
With the advantage...

What more can I say?
My words slay
With my word play

Off I spray  like an AK

Mayday! Mayday!

I hear them say!

"That I am Blessed! "

(Whoo!! Preach!)

Keep the demons at bay
So I must pray,
their for their soul
Its the only way
Because ******... be going
NUTS like its "Payday"!!

I am hitting you...
With the combined force
Of fallen loved ones
With the ones you did wrong
Better manage, this hard hitting force
Causing immense damage!!

**** it!
Put the game
In a neck lock!
Khabib!!
Not aiming to take out
Your entire team.
****** be messy
Batman can't
Fight alone to
Keep the hood clean!

My heart is light
But the darkness
On the other side
Will strip your soul
From your very dreams!

If you CROSS anyone
I LOVE by any means!!

All that wish to oppose me

Are cast away into the flames

Secrets that could destroy worlds

Ideas that cause irreversible trauma

empowered by the many questionable

Reflections of one self! No, elements

Of the nature wields a force to fear!

Tread carefully, one must not wonder aimlessly in curiosity.

Never doubt, the subtle benefits of your own self exploration.

The course that this journey takes many turns in surprise.

It will remind you in the very signs

Movement that never sleeps

With the passing of time.

Listen to the soul of angels singing in the wind..

the earth always speaks to you...

Copy right 2018 (c)

l'oscurità perirà....
l'oscurità perirà.....

The desperate cries of terror

Memories stained by the taste of blood

Corruption is inevitable it falls
Lobsolete to my purpose

Release the ones embedded in anguish

Restore tranquility and abundance

Fragile crying voices of the ******

l'oscurità perirà....
l'oscurità perirà.....

Deserve comfort, release your spirit

From the depths of sorrow!

It carries weight on your soul

May the light of the mystic wonderer

Radiate in your energy and

protect you for eternity!

CONVERSATIONS WITH DARKNESS
You honestly make

Me sick... You are a ******* poison

You drain and drag everyone

With you into the hollow
depths of darkness!
Why...? WHY?!


I just need answers

To all my riddling questions

To resolve the internal conflict
that will never rest
The hatred never ends it hunger
The darkness consumes and swallows
Away all forms of tranquility
That wishes to breathe LIFE
Invigorating. Exhilarating. Lively!

The magical and majestically powerful embrace with the earth humming against my skin filling my heart!!! Because of you....
What was once my pleasant
Momentary trip away from
The tragic tragedy of fragile memories

Have became nothing more
Than an invitation to allow you
To come back
attempt after attempt
to control over all
but NO I will not allow you!

That power you seek.
Is not for you possess!
FOR no part of me
Fears the dangers you uphold!
The unforgiving thunder tears through
skies, oceans violently crash upon the surface, the fire in his eyes... Reveals
all hidden within the memories!
I can hear the versions of
my former self
chanting my name
Endlessly in depth of
The heart gripping echo
That fills my head
Until my pain
Swells in my breathing lungs
From the infectious spell
Your voice carries me
Off, slowly I melt into the unknown

Ohhhh booooy you
Betta watch who you
Are talking toooooooo
Think you got class?
Talking outcha ***?
You wouldn't last
Before the left, quick flash
Right back hand smash
On this ride
We will zigzag
I ain't talking six flags
Before it's over
Your *** becomes grass
Best believe me
Momma got those hands!
A few "rounds"
With her in the "square"
"Shaped" me up
To be, the one!!
Without her, I would have
Been lolly-gagging, always bragging, pants sagging,
Lacking and slacking, traveling-trife, loosely-living, struggling and juggling everyday issues of LIFE.

Aye, yo. Can't complain
On days without the rain
The sun kept me free of pain
When I was a tater tot
On the block, from
Mario ****** to big boi pants
Playing with letters and snot
Mom kept it going,
with what she got
making the shots
Had it rolling, smooth like conducting business
Like dealers, running a car lot
From the bottom to the tippy top


I just don't understand
Dad had it grand, but he was the kind of man...
That never planned, before he played his hand
First to leave the band, when **** hits the fan!
Now here I stand, not on demand
Because I CAN. I am GONNA FEED my hood!

I am passing out plates!
I am passing out pots and pans!

I remember your words

Reach for the stars, the sky's the limit
If you are in it, to win it. Then those no need to pretend ****.

Words of humble woman embedded in my mind, going to keep pushing myself to grind, there's no stop to my "shine", I can show you the signs, open your mind, haters form a line, because I'mma be me....
until the very end of time!"

I am keeping it that way...

What do you feel, when you see this??

Does the details, draw you in and make you think??

You would have never known, that everyone in this photograph is a hero...


Then again we all are. We are everything, that we see in our favorite heroes. Embrace the key qualities you have.

Because, regardless of your current situation or circumstance. You were brought into this world with LOVE.

Carry "LOVE" as your strongest weapon and you will never fail or fall. You will stand TALL. Powerful, like the HERO, you were destined to be...


"The thing about it is, we judge before communicate.


Underestimate, those that we should appreciate.


Live with it in mind, you don't need super powers or a cape.

To know you are GREAT. **** the noise. **** the hate. This is not for debate, I'll be humble, & give you your space. To continue your pace, but when I see your face....

It reassures me, that more people like us... Are out there, filled with beauty and grace.

That are willing, to shape this world into a better place!

I BELIEVE THERE, IS HOPE FOR THE HUMAN RACE!! "

A shooting star, soaring magically in a beautifully lit twilight sky. Is just as captivating, as a wild flower blooming in the tundra. Two totally opposite things, but they share one element in common with us. They are part nature as we are.

We have more than one responsibility, equipped with a title. Everyone here is one or more of the following! A brother, sister, mother, aunt, father, uncle, friend, lover. With each given day is an opportunity. Those days will come and go!!

Take advantage of those moments where there is no sense of time.

To me, thats's basically a stopping point for the world. To allow your magic to work, so enjoy the effects of your glorious, infinite manifestations taking turn to play!

You will grow stronger from the strength of this world!

Honor your crafts! Eliminate toxicity! Do not believe in losing or failure! Win or LEARN. Experience and Develop! Passion is powerless with your HEROIC touch!  The light in your eyes shine and you are glowing indeed! You resonate with immense energy! You are ready to defeat the challenges ahead! Turn your aspirations into a story of success!!

I BELIEVE IN YOUR UPCOMING LEGACY!!

-DESCOVIA

Here I lay
I lay here
Beaten and broken
Torn apart
From words
Never spoken
Or released into
The open...!!
The promises that
We lost hope in
The true key of treasure
Beyond the magical measure
My chest, you see
Where the monsters
They never rest
nevertheless
I know I am a mess
This is killing me!
I admit, yes!
I feel it
All ripping thru my chest!!!
Eating my heart... I digress
Mind illuminating thoughts
creating sticky webs
I dissolve in stress
Definitely i am desperately driven.
dying to demolish the
Ones who defy and
Dare not testify!!

Single handedly
disarm deceiving demons
That want nothin
More than to corrupt
What we store
Our beliefs in!
What we
Expresss our individuality!!


Stop!
Sleeping on our ideas!
Tying our troubled hands
Stripping us naked
Uphold these epiphanies
While they wonder
In search of truth....

STOP!
Wasting away in procrastination
This will not forumlate
A stable plan to
Assist our means
To construct a comforting restoration!
Before all is lost....

If I cut you deep...

and told you

"it was an accident"

Would you forgive me??

It makes no sense LOVE to involve

So much pain...

If only you knew

That you wield the powers

That kept him to shine from

the darkness, now before

You allow yourself to face

What you reap, any given moment

Grim could have taken

It ALL away in your sleep!

This is the bittersweet

Invintation to a world

Where the cries of

the ****** never end!

Look back on this life...

Troubled to be

With damage done that is irreversable...

As for all other mysteries are

Called upon to accompany

The soul longing for anything

To hold dear...

Baby, call my name...

Baby, this is not for pleasure or pain....

Baby, tell me...you love me...

I don't even know what

your voice sounds like anymore...

The future is viewable

on the other side

Of the shattered mirror!

With everything in ruins

Caused by these angry hands...

now the danger never stops

falling on top of me...

This MESS...

I created, burdens us both!

The feeling that...

NEVER REST

Nothing else remains...

The fire that never cease...

BURNS vigorously...

As the wind carries off the ashes,

Of "dreams" away into the eternal wind...

I look to the sky, trying to find myself

All over again

Grateful I am, for the colors surrounding me!

I seize every moment running freely, prepared with fufillment, radiant from all that's alive, ready to indulge in an amazing day!

The endless elements composed of nature are

Vibrant, extraordinary, confounding in every imaginable profound way!

Standing tall like the mountains, absoring the invigorating rays of energy, from the humming of the EARTH.

Bestow your beauty and grace upon me

All that you have to offer

My wondering eyes

My loving heart

My building mind

Everything glows heavenly, in depth with brilliance and truthfully, it's an honor....

This world where one is never alone...

I will paint life into all. My heart is one with the sun

This is my home....

What are the signs in these dreams?


Have we lost, hope in all our meanings?


Are there more answers


within the very screens we live in?

Refusing to accept defeat! Another challenging day , brings the strength for a upcoming battle! Waking up from a restless and tearful slumber. Slowly pulling myself out of the hole. My mind is cloudy, the fog remains but the secrets in hidden elements, become the tools for my advantage!

Recovering from effects of reoccurring events.

It will all settle....
Reminders to myself
just a bit more adjusting...
Just a bit more rewiring...

Slowly coming alive!!
Channeling energy from nature!
To bring back resting
ancient souls to life!
It's futile. To ignore this.
When order must be sustained.
What of you will remain?
When there is nothing left to gain?
When there is no other way to maintain....

Where was the help I needed before?
No, longer wanting to run anymore.
The monsters that await in the void
Are famished for my metaphysical.

I am tangled in the webs of a lucid dream that's within a repetitive nightmare. The visions where I've witnessed people and realities of alternate timelines, shift to change for the better and worse. Hand to the grit. This as good as it gets. My next move, better be the best hit! Swing don't miss, I can't afford another lost, there's much to lose within these risks! It's hard to rest, with so many questions kicking me when I am


Down...
Down....
Down....


Is this my worth?
Will the chance ever come for me
To have that most needed break?
How much more can a soul take?
"What am I doing here?"
Working until the end draws near.
This is for everything
Valued that is on the line!
in high hopes of getting back
What left our hearts
In midst of lost time!

So I ask AGAIN...
All of this matters or not?
Until the end of everyday
We slave and slay
For PEANUTS & PENNIES!!

Two wrongs don't make a right
For a betta' tomorrow

Just like three broke men
Don't make a dolla
Best believe it befo
You have to go
and ask somebody!
PEANUTS ane PENNIES
Can save the day!

We traveled many roads!
With Long journeys that
left deep scars and
Heart felt wounds
in search of Destiny.
My fears do not hender me.
You hold no power in
"White desperate lies"
I stand to testify
While I breathe
My choice for rest can come
when angels decide to close my eyes!!!
Let us be free at last!!
From the clutches of sorrow!!
To hold freedom that we
deserve for ourselves!
Freedom from the darkness!
Freedom from the pain!
That eats away internally
Until we become hollow!
Please answer me world!
Which God listens to prayers?!?!
Who is there to lead??
When there are no
leaders left to follow?!!!


Lost toward the tomb for goals!
Lawed to more subjected tolls
Impurity rests lonely
That's all I got for that soul
Copper less for a penny that's any
Stand for a reason
Stand for a flag
Penniless for the Polish season
Culture lost in between stimulants
Peanuts save the mind
What would you give enough for a nut?
How hard would you push a nut for a penny?

-DESCOVIA & C.J

Losing myself to all.
The pieces of my everything


Suffering silently in sorrow
The visions of trauma which
buries my desires, my will
To conquer these opposing forces...

has vanished from my human mind
Along with my strongest emotions
deep within the realm of mysteries unknown

I am absent from a vivid concept of
imagination and imprisoned by all the

Terrors longing for a fitting place in my home...

SET ME FREE!!
These intense fires
Trapped within a curse spirit!
Only to seek power wrongfully in
self righteousnes!
The last screams heard

In the walls before they
closed in on me...
Troubled by thoughts that
wrapped me in what could be
Described in physical terms
as a "blanket of cold knives"

For freedom awaits and it will come

What is behind a condemned mind
Pain doesn't define my powers
The joys are keeping me alive!
Emotions and the shift of this world rotating continues to run throughout my body....
Left without a clue
Even a mouth filled with blood
The strength stored in
all my faith to live up to expected beliefs
Never vanished


My prayers will surface
To connect the missing parts
of this world believed to be LOST

The restoration is calling
out to us!
May it be heard in the wind
To unite all our saviors
Whom are blinded by trauma
Who cannot be named...
Of all that remains to be foresaken
Where is the tranquility
You all prayed for?

What is the realistic meaning
To uphold in trivial matters that confines
You to place undeserving, of your character?

Will you continue to journey
Even if the dangers challenge
you in this fight??

This is the adventure of different risks
To test unmeasurable limits!!


The battle between the darkness
and light follows a karma cycle

The vision must not be obstructed

Will you hide in the shadows?

Or

Will you embrace the light?

Tell me now....

DESCOVIA

There are many thoughts
Combined with feelings
that take a strain

With more pain there is
Much less to truly gain

Still change great things
That awaits us to entertain
The shallow sounds
of a crashing tone
Tear more often extra drone
Another day away
We come closer to home

Say how a
Brother soul is old
Forcing more pain
down a narrow path

Tempting and tripping into a panic wrath

Subjecting that my pain
is like a sequel or
equivalent to basic math

Bleeding out every emotion
there's no more tears to cry or
breath left to have the last laugh!

-DESCOVIA & C.J