If I cut you deep...

and told you

"it was an accident"

Would you forgive me??

It makes no sense LOVE to involve

So much pain...

If only you knew

That you wield the powers

That kept him to shine from

the darkness, now before

You allow yourself to face

What you reap, any given moment

Grim could have taken

It ALL away in your sleep!

This is the bittersweet

Invintation to a world

Where the cries of

the ****** never end!

Look back on this life...

Troubled to be

With damage done that is irreversable...

As for all other mysteries are

Called upon to accompany

The soul longing for anything

To hold dear...

Baby, call my name...

Baby, this is not for pleasure or pain....

Baby, tell me...you love me...

I don't even know what

your voice sounds like anymore...

The future is viewable

on the other side

Of the shattered mirror!

With everything in ruins

Caused by these angry hands...

now the danger never stops

falling on top of me...

This MESS...

I created, burdens us both!

The feeling that...

NEVER REST

Nothing else remains...

The fire that never cease...

BURNS vigorously...

As the wind carries off the ashes,

Of "dreams" away into the eternal wind...

I look to the sky, trying to find myself

All over again

Grateful I am, for the colors surrounding me!

I seize every moment running freely, prepared with fufillment, radiant from all that's alive, ready to indulge in an amazing day!

The endless elements composed of nature are

Vibrant, extraordinary, confounding in every imaginable profound way!

Standing tall like the mountains, absoring the invigorating rays of energy, from the humming of the EARTH.

Bestow your beauty and grace upon me

All that you have to offer

My wondering eyes

My loving heart

My building mind

Everything glows heavenly, in depth with brilliance and truthfully, it's an honor....

This world where one is never alone...

I will paint life into all. My heart is one with the sun

This is my home....

What are the signs in these dreams?


Have we lost, hope in all our meanings?


Are there more answers


within the very screens we live in?

Refusing to accept defeat! Another challenging day , brings the strength for a upcoming battle! Waking up from a restless and tearful slumber. Slowly pulling myself out of the hole. My mind is cloudy, the fog remains but the secrets in hidden elements, become the tools for my advantage!

Recovering from effects of reoccurring events.

It will all settle....
Reminders to myself
just a bit more adjusting...
Just a bit more rewiring...

Slowly coming alive!!
Channeling energy from nature!
To bring back resting
ancient souls to life!
It's futile. To ignore this.
When order must be sustained.
What of you will remain?
When there is nothing left to gain?
When there is no other way to maintain....

Where was the help I needed before?
No, longer wanting to run anymore.
The monsters that await in the void
Are famished for my metaphysical.

I am tangled in the webs of a lucid dream that's within a repetitive nightmare. The visions where I've witnessed people and realities of alternate timelines, shift to change for the better and worse. Hand to the grit. This as good as it gets. My next move, better be the best hit! Swing don't miss, I can't afford another lost, there's much to lose within these risks! It's hard to rest, with so many questions kicking me when I am


Down...
Down....
Down....


Is this my worth?
Will the chance ever come for me
To have that most needed break?
How much more can a soul take?
"What am I doing here?"
Working until the end draws near.
This is for everything
Valued that is on the line!
in high hopes of getting back
What left our hearts
In midst of lost time!

So I ask AGAIN...
All of this matters or not?
Until the end of everyday
We slave and slay
For PEANUTS & PENNIES!!

Two wrongs don't make a right
For a betta' tomorrow

Just like three broke men
Don't make a dolla
Best believe it befo
You have to go
and ask somebody!
PEANUTS ane PENNIES
Can save the day!

We traveled many roads!
With Long journeys that
left deep scars and
Heart felt wounds
in search of Destiny.
My fears do not hender me.
You hold no power in
"White desperate lies"
I stand to testify
While I breathe
My choice for rest can come
when angels decide to close my eyes!!!
Let us be free at last!!
From the clutches of sorrow!!
To hold freedom that we
deserve for ourselves!
Freedom from the darkness!
Freedom from the pain!
That eats away internally
Until we become hollow!
Please answer me world!
Which God listens to prayers?!?!
Who is there to lead??
When there are no
leaders left to follow?!!!


Lost toward the tomb for goals!
Lawed to more subjected tolls
Impurity rests lonely
That's all I got for that soul
Copper less for a penny that's any
Stand for a reason
Stand for a flag
Penniless for the Polish season
Culture lost in between stimulants
Peanuts save the mind
What would you give enough for a nut?
How hard would you push a nut for a penny?

-DESCOVIA & C.J

Losing myself to all.
The pieces of my everything


Suffering silently in sorrow
The visions of trauma which
buries my desires, my will
To conquer these opposing forces...

has vanished from my human mind
Along with my strongest emotions
deep within the realm of mysteries unknown

I am absent from a vivid concept of
imagination and imprisoned by all the

Terrors longing for a fitting place in my home...

SET ME FREE!!
These intense fires
Trapped within a curse spirit!
Only to seek power wrongfully in
self righteousnes!
The last screams heard

In the walls before they
closed in on me...
Troubled by thoughts that
wrapped me in what could be
Described in physical terms
as a "blanket of cold knives"

For freedom awaits and it will come

What is behind a condemned mind
Pain doesn't define my powers
The joys are keeping me alive!
Emotions and the shift of this world rotating continues to run throughout my body....
Left without a clue
Even a mouth filled with blood
The strength stored in
all my faith to live up to expected beliefs
Never vanished


My prayers will surface
To connect the missing parts
of this world believed to be LOST

The restoration is calling
out to us!
May it be heard in the wind
To unite all our saviors
Whom are blinded by trauma
Who cannot be named...
Of all that remains to be foresaken
Where is the tranquility
You all prayed for?

What is the realistic meaning
To uphold in trivial matters that confines
You to place undeserving, of your character?

Will you continue to journey
Even if the dangers challenge
you in this fight??

This is the adventure of different risks
To test unmeasurable limits!!


The battle between the darkness
and light follows a karma cycle

The vision must not be obstructed

Will you hide in the shadows?

Or

Will you embrace the light?

Tell me now....

DESCOVIA

There are many thoughts
Combined with feelings
that take a strain

With more pain there is
Much less to truly gain

Still change great things
That awaits us to entertain
The shallow sounds
of a crashing tone
Tear more often extra drone
Another day away
We come closer to home

Say how a
Brother soul is old
Forcing more pain
down a narrow path

Tempting and tripping into a panic wrath

Subjecting that my pain
is like a sequel or
equivalent to basic math

Bleeding out every emotion
there's no more tears to cry or
breath left to have the last laugh!

-DESCOVIA & C.J