Last year I could swear your face was the only one that I would like to see everyday for the rest of my life
but now I can't even remember that
because you gone
and I've stayed here screaming
where r u

Last night
I ate all my nails
And that tasted like anxiety.

tell me you will stay
will you stay?
I meant you stay and telling me you are not going to leave me.
that you love staying by my side
and hearing my voice.
and all the things I wanna tell you.
things that there are no sense.
things you used to pay attention even though you never got it.
and hearing my stories.
and looking to the deeper from my eyes
and thinking
you're right. you were right on 19, Feb. when you replied my message on Facebook.
and then thinking
you have never wrong when you gave me a chance.
thinking you're not wrong giving me a chance.

I wanna listen to you calling my name at night.
calling me on WhatsApp speaking weird words.

I want you.
I want you
talking about your day
and how much you love me and I want to listen to you speaking how much you cannot wait for the Saturday
to meet me
at home.

I wanna fall in tears while I look at you
and I imagine my life with
out
you.

because honey
If I lose you I will be losing myself
you're the bestest part of me.

but
I will never ever be
the bestest part of you.
I will always be
the worst.
and I am so sorry...
and I am so thankful.
everyday when I look at you or
I think about you
I recognize
I am lucky for having you.
I love you from the deeper of my soul.