This time
it might've been real
she might have actually left me for real now
and i'm so scared
but i'm so high i don't care
once it leaves i am rushed
with emotions that were absent when i was in the clouds
I'm still gonna miss her too much for my own good
i need some downers

Oh i'm really done
done done done
i try every single thing
i beg and cry just to try help you
the 7th or 8th time i tried to call and fix this
talking to you was like talking to a brick wall
you didn't go anywhere
you found new problems
i say i can fix them, or try?
No she wont let me
okay, i'm done

I hate eating
i don't wanna eat
i can feel my stomach aching for food
but i don't think i could swallow a bite of anything
i don't wanna eat
it doesn't feel good
everything tastes like chalk

I hope you look back on memories of me and think
"I'm happy i'm not with that loser anymore"
I love you forever

Don't text me again
i don't want a long paragraph with a goodbye at the end
that scares me the most
closing the door forever
you don't need me but i need you
just don't text, don't say goodbye yet

I wanna fix everything i did
the stuff that nonchalantly came out of my mouth
was the loudest for you
i'm sorry i was oblivious to your suffering
you hide it very well
i wanted nothing but to help you figure life out, just as i am
but there's nothing i can do now
i hope i can treat my next love
with the love you deserved
i'm sorry, i love you