Okay
you have said enough my love
i know i have for certain done enough
i don't wanna live with myself after hearing your side
i'm sorry i ever crossed your path
i ruined your purity
i manipulated your love and i cant bear to live with that
i couldn't make you happy
how i wanted to
and it will eat me up until i'm a ghost

I'm sorry emotions take over every time we talk
i can't hold anything in
i'm dramatic about everything
i dont wanna be alive anymore
i have never felt more comfortable with the idea of bleeding out
in my room while listening to good music

All i do is take
take take take
i cant help it
im just a ******* hole to **** all your energy
i did not realize i have this effect on people
this made me realize
i am better off alone
doing nothing but stimulants and writing pretty words
for people online who don't care

I'm so scared i don't know what to do
i'm going to be so lost without you
i'm nothing without you

Every time I see another pretty soul
Get swallowed up by drugs
I die a little inside

If we go to the moon together
Do we get Forever ?

Back to trying to write,
trying to write poetry, while i hear music in my ears
i can see myself creating a song
or at the least, trying to.
I'm worried my music wont
make any noise.
I'm worried it wont make people feel the way i feel
thats all i want, i think i could do it in poetry,
now i just have to find out how to do it in music.