Pretty little lies of "I'm fine"
***** little secrets behind those eyes.
Every time we say "goodnight"
We hope that we will die.
Our lights dim now as we lose hope.
They said that we were fine
We were all right
But every single night
We lose more of our light
No one in our sight
We cut we hurt
We get high
To act all right
We hide behind our smiles
That we show and cover our eyes.
But no one says the pleading
Question in the eyes.
We give up for help
We lose sight of hope
We give our happiness
For comfort is imaginary.
Parents never see
Siblings never know
Friends never care
People never share
The facts that we hide behind
Our eyes.

-3nwlry

I'm tired
I'm breaking
I'm crying
I'm cracked
I'm going crazy
I'm shattered
I'm broken
I'm hurting
I'm dying
I'm giving up
I'm cutting
I'm starving
I'm done
I'm terrible
I'm not okay
I'm sleep deprived
I'm depressed
I'm anxious
I'm almost dead
I'm sorry
I'm leaving
You don't care.
...
"I'm ok."

-3nwlry

Why won't you see
How easy it could be.
Look up, you'll see
How lovely it would be.
Time wastes we grow apart.
We won't be one in eternity.
Cry to sleep every night.
I wake like the earth is tumbling down.
Nightmares. Who cares.
I'm used to it by now.
Every night I cry myself to sleep
Waiting for somebody to help me. Why not?
No one will. I have to help myself.
To be me is harder than being a teen.
I feel like a thousand words
Need to leave but
No one hears anyway.
A thousand words.
A thousand lies.
A thousand "hi"s.
A million "goodbye"s.
A thousand "I'm fine"s.
A thousand lies.
A thousand songs.
A million poems.
Are running through my mind.
I wish I was...
Somebody else needs to listen.
Somebody else can't fix me.
Somebody else needs to learn.
Somebody else needs to help me.
Somebody else needs to learn.
In the dark I'm crying.
In the light I'm drowning.

-3nwlry

Once upon a single star
Shining just got you.
Just because you're happy.
Just because you're free.
Doesn't mean he loves
Any more than he loves me.
I am still a girl
But I see quite clear.
One day I'll be older
Not that you even care.
And housing tell me
Who I meet
I'll be free and you will see.

I may hurt my skin with blades
I wonder if I'll live
I may have trouble sleeping
For fear of the next day.
But one day when I'm older
You can't tell me who I'll be.
You won't be my leader
You won't control me.
I won't follow what you say
And I'll be free.
You might see.
What becomes of your only daughter.

-3nwlry

I'm sitting in my room
You're eerily creeping up.
You are always near me
I can't escape my shadow.
You can follow me around.
You won't catch me
You can't catch me.
I can't escape my shadow.
You see me in my darkest moment.
You are me when I lie.
You watch me harm my body.
You can't stop me. I never listen.
You watch as I pass out.
Crying like a child.
I wake up and see you there.
Everyone has a friend.
Not everyone can see them.
People think they are imaginary.
I looked up at you
And you pulled me up and out of the grave
Which I dug.
You held me tightly
I'm your only friend.
I realized I could smile.
I noticed you were real.
No one really saw the year tracks
Or the smears of blood on clothing.
Or the stinging in my wrists.
But I could finally breath.
And I saw the colors
Of the world around us.

-3nwlry

I clutch my head and hope to die.
I feel the blood running down her arm.
I tried to die but failed again.
No one saw, no one really cared.
No one truly noticed.
They saw me mad, they saw me sad.
They never saw me cry
They didn't see me happy, they just saw me smile.
But I have reached my breaking point.
I don't want to breath.
I tried to live normal, but they told me no.
I agreed and went about
Trying to find a reason
To live a life of happiness.
I met you but then I left
Without telling you the truth.
So now I'm here
Almost dead
No one really near.
I'm scared to die, even if I try.
No matter how you try to live,
You'll always come back
Too this spot to dwell.
I think I need help.
My wrists are cut,
My eyes are glazed,
My sleeves are dyed red.
My hands shake,
My knees give way,
I fall down and hit the floor.
Tears are falling,
The knife is sliding,
Blood is dropping,
I think I'm dying.
Now I realize just because
They don't show it
Doesn't mean they don't care.
I need help.

-3nwlry

I won't lie, he wasn't the one.
Neither was he.
I am still alive, I still think I'm fine.
I crossed out all the poems
I scratched out the songs.
I deleted all the texts
That connected him to me.
We don't talk anymore
I am not bothered.
We don't see each other anymore.
We're thousands of miles away.
I know I'll never win.
I know I won't receive.
Somebody who will love me.
Yet I still dream of the one.
I don't know who he is.
I don't know his name.
I don't know where he lives.
I don't know anything.
And yet I hope we'll meet.
So he can take me from this place.
Everyone has some one..
I know that's a fact.
But I don't think I do.
My one left me again.
When I woke up, it wasn't the same.
I don't ever get "the one"

-3nwlry