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JustChloe Jan 2015
Your like fire
Everytime I think of you it sends a spark through me
But not enough to restore my pulse
And give me body heat
JustChloe Feb 2015
All you have is your fire
so baby light it up
set fire to the world
shine brighter than the sun
we only have few choice
happiness is not one
so live through your fire
pretend you are one

All you have is your fire
the rest of the world is ash
your fire burned all of your friends
burned all you ever had
all it wont burn
is the pian of your past
so baby light your fire
make it last
JustChloe Apr 2015
My pencil writes on
My paper, and nothing comes
Out, Haikus are hard
Lol fail
JustChloe Dec 2014
She was pretty
and by pretty i don't mean like the anorexic models on magazines
or the copy cat girls we see in the New York city streets
just waiting to find a guy to sell there body
no
she was beautiful
and her inside light grew brighter than the outside one
her personality brighter than the sun
so just by instinct
i tried to put it out
make her like everyone else
I'm the villain in this story
yet all she did was try and get me help
so I lied
so she wouldn't help the real me
now the real me
i don't know who that is
no one has ever met her
I've seen it a few times
I cant tell whats actually me
and which personality trait I made up for people to see
lies are all that is left of me
and I want to explain this to the girl with the shining light
but all she would do is scream
because i tried to torch her light
but just like a candle
it wont stop flickering
JustChloe Jul 2014
I keep losing followers....



but i realized

that despite the desprate fight of some


to get followers


I dont care.

I mean I know my poetry is good

if I have 12 followers


or 12000 followers


because I believe in myself

and you dont have to follow me

I dont mind

I dont need followers

I will get those

in time
JustChloe Mar 2015
I feel like a billboard
FOR ENTERTAINMENT
is stamped in my face
I'm a disgrace
They are sitting at the circus
Waiting for black beauty to play
I'm for entertainment
Every move that at make
I'm a  Circus clown
Watch me do flips
Watch me fake a smile
Paint on fake lips
Watch me jump from buildings
And hope I miss the swimming pool
But I land in a pie
haha they fooled you
Watch me as I move
Laughter from the seats
I try to scream
But all you see
Is a clown being stupid
A clown being silly
Smile please
I'm trying really hard
I don't want to cry
I would cry my make up off
This won't last long
The spot light is stealing it all
Your stares are burning me
Your laughs are hurting me
Why can't you see
I'm for entertainment
When I walk into school
Your stares seem
Your stares seem to scream
*entertain me
JustChloe Apr 2015
I didnt mean to hurt you
im sorry if i made you sad
but this love is the first unconditional love i have ever had
its more than you think
Im not just hurting you im hurting me
My broken heart strings ring off key
inside of me an offtune orchestra sings
I have never been perfect
and i never will be
I will never be able to love you like you think
I will never bee all you need
but one day i hope you will leave me
so you can be happy
so im sorry
for hurting you
i hope you dont accept this apology
and forget me
JustChloe Dec 2014
Dont leave me here
wont you listen to me?
Why dont you care
do you even think
you lied
but i forgave you
what more do you want from me?
I'm trying my best to show you that i love you
but thats not what you think
please
stop ignoring me
wont you listen to the words i speak
I forgive you
realize it and come talk to me
*please
JustChloe Apr 2014
It's kind of hard to forgive you
when your knife is still in my back
JustChloe Jun 2015
She didn't know I did it for her
I was trying to be perfect for you
its all for you
JustChloe Mar 2014
Did  you know that any building you see
can be torn down easily
if its built on the wrong soil
If its foundations wrong it will fall down withot a fight
Like Goliath on the awesome night
And what happens if our foundation is not in Christ
We will not thrive
To be what we can be
We will be mediocre and feel pain constantly
Those superstars not in Christ behind close doors they are not alright
They will never feel the joy  through Christ
They willl never be able to say
Because I have faith in him I know I can survive
They suffer and crumble till they die
And then people talk about their awesome lives
You know who is awesome?
Me
Because I have faith in Christ and I believe I fell joy
Ad I can scream Hallejuah
And know what it means
I believe in a God above all things
Who can move the mountians
Without t0ouching a thing
Who knows what I can be
And you too
Because he is the one who created you
So what happens when a car
Forgets how its made
They will try to fast
Then fail everytime since that is not their way
What they are menant to be
God made you and me
He has a plan of what we should be
I don’t know what it is exactly
But its amazing
How do I know?’I believe I have faith
That is one of the amazing things that make me me
I’m awesome
And I have my life based in Christ
My heart
My soul longs for him
And if some young man wants my heart they can go to jesus to get it
Because I believe
And I know having my life bound in Christ feels amazing
I know it sounds captive controlling and crazy but its not
Its beautiful
Loving someone and knowing someone else loves you too
Having that assurance that someone is always watching you
Guiding you
Helping you
Picking you up when you fall
Knowing souome loves you faults and all
And always forgive
That is who Jesus is
And Im based in him
Because I don’t wanna fall
And I stand tall
You should come stand too
Do what John 3:16 tells you to do
And you will be renwed
Try to make your foundation Jesus
Pray that you love Jesus and believe it
And you will not fall likte the rest
You will soar
Have you ever wanted something more?
Well that something more is jesus
He is there for you
He wants you
Hes got you
Trust him cause he loves you
JustChloe Dec 2015
I feel free
Finally
I feel free
JustChloe Jul 2014
You have to kiss a lot of frogs

until one finally turns into your prince
JustChloe Oct 2015
i didn't do it for you
i lied for me
all the hurt i gave you
wasnt meant for you
it was for me

*so give it the **** back
Dead on the inside
God
JustChloe Jun 2014
God
I met God shes black
JustChloe Feb 2015
Just hold on I'm coming home
Sorry I couldn't pick up the phone
I know I shouldn't of left her alone
Mom do you think I don't know
I'm sorry what do you want me to do
Yes mom I'm running
No I'm not crying it's hard for me to breathe
Yes I know she left you mom
She left me too
I know it's all my faults she's gone
What do you want me to do
I can't bring her back
I'm almost home
It won't be long
Wait for me cut the cake
For my sister who is *gone
JustChloe Feb 2015
Your off to great things
Today is your day
Your mountian is waiting
So get on your way
*Dr suess
One of the best poets of all time
JustChloe Jun 2015
Distance yourself from her and others things that are hurting you

And Fill the wholes they left with God
JustChloe Nov 2014
"Truth or dare?" Emma said. She was drunk, so instead of the words coming out crisp, they all mended together created a word that sounded like, "Turthordar". Georgia could help but smile. "Truth." she had done way too many dares that night, she had to take of her shirt, try and chug a gallon of milk(and fail completely), and kiss a cat. "Wuss." Garry said. Georgia rolled her eyes and smiled, she loved her friends. "Do you believe in true love?" Emma questioned.
"No" Georgia replied as if she didn't need time to think."True love is love without a price, but all the love is this world always cost people something. Whether it is happiness, a home, or family love always steals something from you, and kills you from the inside when it leaves you."
"Wow," Gary said "You are such a buzz ****." Georgia chuckled as Garry took another swig out of Emma's bottle. Georgia heard the garage door open. "Shot my dad is home, you guys have to go, now the take the liquor with you,"
"What are we suppose to do? We can't drive."
She stared around the room for a second, and sighed.
"Ugh fine go upstairs to my room. Don't come down no matter what happens."
"What does that mean-"
"NOW"
Emma and Gary shuffle up the stairs as the garage door closes, and Georgia pulls out her braille bible. The door closes.
JustChloe Nov 2014
Things that we wont stop doing because its the only part of our lifes we control.
I cant let my habits go
I hate my life
JustChloe Apr 2014
The glass isn't half full

I just finished drinking it.
JustChloe Aug 2014
Take my hand

and you will see the scars

That i left

waiting for you

to help me
JustChloe Sep 2014
Hands can take life away
Hands can save someone life
Hands can take away pain
Hands can write show how much you break
Hands can show your not alone
And hands can tell you to get away
Hands can make someone stay
Hands hold the knife that cuts my wrist
Hands can tie the not that i hang myself with
Hands can write the notes I give to my friends
Hands show my story
and can cause my story to end
Hands show you a lot about me
Just look at my hands and you will see
how much pain that goes throw me
maybe your hands
will be the hands
that can save me
JustChloe Feb 2015
I catch myself sometimes
Smiling
Laughing at a joke from my father
Or a silly dance by my sister
And in that quick second I forget what I did
I forget how I hurt them
I stop feeling guilty
Because I forgot what a monster I am
Life is funny that way
You have seconds of joy when you forget your past
Than it all comes back
In a blast on your mind
Everything was just fine
To bad it's never the real Happy
JustChloe Dec 2014
So im happy
this is weird for me
the first time Im awake in the middle of the night
and not silently crying
im smiling
my face isnt use to this
a part of me thought this wouldnt fit
but it does
I'm connected to God
righted some of my wrongs
can breathe again
stepped out from the wrong
now im in the light
and i couldnt feel more right
JustChloe Jul 2014
I realized something

No matter how many times

I try to fix everything

no matter how many times

I try to change who i am

monsters dont get happy endings
JustChloe Nov 2014
I wanna write a happy poem
but the only thing about my life that was happy
cant talk to me
so I"m left in the way it used to be
sadly
if you don't come back soon
I will have to do the things I used to do
before I knew love
because love just left me
and I don't know what to do
what should I do?
JustChloe Oct 2015
The hardest part of letting go
is learning not to care anyone
learning not to think of them anymore
learning not to love anymore
the hardest part off letting go is the silence
the 0 messages on my phone
when i remeber you when the only reason i had one
the hardest part
of letting go
is learning
how to be ok
with being alone
JustChloe Sep 2015
Have you ever felt bigger than your body?
as in your emotions swell to the point that your soul pushes against your skin
makes you question the reason you exist
have you ever felt big?
like alll attention is on you
like the world stopped for a momentt to laugh at you
critique you
make you feel alone
have you ever felt small?
as if everyone doesnt notcie you
steps all over you
the words you say fall on deaf ears
no point in speaking at all
have you ever not felt?
Have you ever
have you ever been alone?
have you ever
have you ever been without a home?
have you ever
have you ever had your heart stole
have you ever
have you ever
really
been
its more of a spoken word
He
JustChloe Mar 2015
He
They called him....
They called him things
he told his parents
But they never believed
People don't like to see
Pain
To them it was a game
But he was drowning in hate
And no one heard him scream
Can you hear him scream?
he got tripped in the hallway
His sanity was ripped at the seams
he was a nobody
Till Saturday the fifteenth
what are you gonna do about it?
he pull out of his  back pack
They laughed
stupid ***** what are you gonna do about that?
he pulled out a gun
And aimed right under his hat
do it, I know you can't
your to much of a ***** to do that
he was gonna pull the trigger
he almost did
But he turned it on himself
he couldn't deal with it
he had to get them to stop talking
Or he would have to stop listening
afterwards most of the people cried
Some were never the same
But one kid laughed
I knew you couldn't shot me *****
His death was in vain
JustChloe Mar 2015
RECOGNIZE ME
I'm breaking on the inside
But your ear buds block out my screams
SEE ME
I'm pleading
Help me heal my would
Pick up the rest of my broken heart
Make your move
Stop hiding behind your lies
She didn't ask
It's all a disguise
So you can sleep tonight
HEAL ME
Please
JustChloe Jan 2017
Hearts don't lie
But why do I feel betrayed by everything it tells me
I'm suffocating because my heart is convincing me I need you to breathe
But I was breathing alone just fine before you
I was being alone just find before you
I'm trying not to be angry
I'm trying not to hate you
Because I understand it's not your fault
This is not what you want
But you had a choice
You have a choice
And your decisions have hurt me
I told you this would happen
But when I said it I should of believed
I should of listened to myself
But instead I'm here again
Hating somone I love with a passion
For being happy
Without me
JustChloe Jan 2017
Hearts don't lie
But why do I feel as if none of my emotions are true?
Why don't I believe the 'love' I feel for you?
I should hate you
With every fiber of my body I should despise you
Want to rip your sanity to shreds
And keep your heart with the others I've broken
But I can't
Because I need you to be happy
And I hate it
Cause without you I feel as if I'm nothing
And your moving on to better things
And I'm trying to smile for you
But the pain inside me is more than I can control
I'm sorry
But I hate you right now
And I also love you at the same time
So just give me a minute
To blame myself for this wrong
and figure out how to make it right
JustChloe Oct 2015
hello my name is whatever you want it to be I
guess that means I'm a pushove
r you used to call me easy
and yet I still crawled back to you
on my hands and knees
pleading for forgiveness
for just trying to please
I don't think you understand
how ironic thi situation truly is
a girl tries to help you
ends up hurting herself
and leaving you empty too
so I guess that means I'm nothing
a vessele thats  waiting to be used
and yet no one wants to use me
why couldn't you just use me

and so my name is whatever you want it to be
and I guess right now that means I'm nothing
JustChloe Jul 2016
I stopped creating
For a long time I didn't make anything
I wasn't writing
Singing
Dancing
Or Expressing
I was depressed
But didn't know it
Smiling through it
I lost myself
And that's scary
I lost my self
And didn't care for thinking
It was bliss
But a false paradise
Seriously
That struck fear inside my body
I'm stuck here trying to figure out
What's wrong with me
Her
JustChloe Mar 2016
Her
She doesn't have a.hello poetry
But i can't stop writing to her
It's as if i need to send her this
To let you know
That she
That he
That they
All left me
And she is the worse of all
She was perfect
To perfect for me
JustChloe Apr 2014
She sat in her room
hands on her ears
scream out
HELP ME
HELP ME
but no one could here
because her screams where drowned out
but her dad throwing things downstairs
You see her dad had a temper
but it never came to this
it was as if the walls where filled with fear
trying to hear
she couldn't believe
that her dad was a sterotype
and she couldn't see
until now
with sweat on his brow
her dad screamed and yelled and punched and kicked
then he went up a floor
she was so scared she scream louder then before
he went to her room and shut the door
JustChloe Aug 2014
Heroes always look brighter

when they are surrounded by darkness
JustChloe May 2014
When the world is darkest
Heroes see the stars
but don't so caught in the light
you cant see the dark
JustChloe Mar 2016
I guess I should write a poem about you
since you read my poetry
I know your depressed and I don't mind you stalking me
Honeslty
it's kinda cute
you still obessesed with me over all this time
still looking for the truth
To be honest
Nothing I ever said was really true
but I'm starting over now
at least I think I am
I'm figuring out what to do
now that we are finally through
so you don't have to stalk me anymore
you know what I'm up to
you can move on
if you want too
JustChloe Apr 2014
You hide
You hide behind your jokes and lies
you hide
you hide behind your disguse
and don't want people to realize
that you hide
you dont want me to see with my own eyes
and that makes you like me
so you can keep hiding
until you let me see
who you are and who you will  be
JustChloe May 2014
She leaned on her religion
yoiu called it weak
but to me it is the strongest thing see
because she was christian and she wasnt afriad to tell anybody
you see this is how most christians see and react to things
they say
"I dont hide my christianity
if it comes up in a conversation I might say something
I will be nice if people need me
but I dont walk around knocking on doors
I  dont go out evangaling
So christian is not what people see when they see me
thats not my problem
not my fault that they dont see the signs
that they cant read between the lines
not because of me"
and then they say
"I don't hide my christianity"
JustChloe Apr 2014
You make me so angry
You live your life separately
Them come home and take your anger out on me
You say you don't like the way this house is running
But maybe you would see if you apwere home when it was moving
You see a ***** bowl
While I have the memory of our child eating
You tell me I should spend my time cleaning
Well I think you should spend your time living home
Because this house is no longer your own
JustChloe Dec 2016
If home is where the heart is
Then I guess my home is you
JustChloe Jul 2014
You know that moment right before you cry?

That feeling?

Well that is my home
JustChloe Sep 2014
Hope

is worthless

Hope

Left me

Hope

is one thing monsters never see
JustChloe Aug 2014
My parents drove
Each Sunday
To look at houses
I walked with them
The good child
While my brother
Waited in the car

Walked through other
People's lives
Found the bedroom that
Would be mine
Peered at their trees outside
Left with their cooking
Smells in my hair lingering
As I slept in the room
I shared in our apartment

Each Sunday my parents
Drove to look at houses
Fragments of other lives
Clinging to my shoulders
Inhaled into my lungs
Houses large and lovely
Streets where oak trees reached
To meet each other

Until one Sunday
My parents drove
And stopped at acres of
Plowed overturned land
Separated by plywood sticks
Numbered close and
Anonymous as soldier's graves
We walked all of us through
The mud until my father stopped

And pointed at the stick in
Which we would live our future
In that cemetery of surrendered
Imagination I held close the collected
Flotsam of floating memories
Of all those other houses
Held close the keys to my
Eventual release from
Mediocrity of the stifled soul
Trapped within the pride of my parent's
Achievement
JustChloe Feb 2015
I'm suffocating
Life is leaving
Without you there to hold me
Your my oxygen

I don't care where you are going
But whenever you leave me
I feel like I'm dying
Your my oxygen

And I know this isn't a fair thing to be saying
It's hard to tell you because I want to set you free
But I keep you here because I need you to breathe
your my oxygen

And I keep denying myself the one thing I need
I'm growing older
And I need to figure our how to do this thing
Before you leave permanently
I need to know how to breathe
*Without my oxygen
Dependent Personality Disorder
a mental health condition in which people depend too much on others to meet their emotional and physical needs.
Hug
JustChloe Apr 2014
Hug
There's something in a simple hug
That always warms the heart,
It welcomes us back home
And makes it easier to part....
JustChloe Jun 2014
God created a being so complex

it cant even understand its self
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