I hardly think about you
Except when the music plays
And I realize that no one else
In the whole wide world
Knows the lyrics
But us...

I hate myself
I hate how I look
When I look at myself
Smiling
With my crooked teeth
With cavities filling my teeth
If one looked at me from afar
They'd think I had golden crowns

I hate how I look
With stars circling my eyes
Bags resting beneath my eyelids
With my double chin
Not making me comfortable until I be uncomfortable with it
With my chin with the ****
I look like the handsome Squidward
But uglier

I hate how I look
With the nose that magically grows hairs upon its head
And how the same stars from my eyes
Weren't turning into styes
No—
They're forming on my nose
Little glistening bumps
That won't quite turn into a pimple
And die down
No—
They stay for years on end
No matter what I do

I hate how I look
I hate how I grow hairs so fast on any part of my body
My unibrow somehow keeps coming back
The hair from my scalp
Keeps chasing my eyebrows
Which I didn't know it could happen
But I've seen me
How I have to shave my hands to reduce the judgement from my classmates
My friends I say
And how there's dirt constantly underneath the confines of my nails
No matter what I do
Anything doesn't do anything

I hate how I look
How everytime I bend over
I see the stomach fat
Like it's always there when I stand up
I keep comparing myself to those picture perfect social media girls
How there's no hair on their stomach
And how I can see their ribcage
And how... THIN they are
And my thighs-
They look like a **** triangle
I feel my thighs touching at the top
While down below, it's like I magically turned Korean
And how my calves
Are twenty shades lighter than any part of my body

I hate how I function
How my stomach produces excessive gas
And how my brain automatically wants to turn the batteries off to my body
And how my muscles ache
And how I can only run on motivation
Which causes my lack of dental hygiene
And how I'm getting rapidly addicted
To the drug that every kid loves
Makes sense cause I'm a kid that is racing to highschool
But everyday
I contemplate
How I keep up
Living five years in dream jail
Because everything IS a fever dream
It's tiring
Painful

I hate everyone... I-
.
.
.
Well not exactly everyone
Just people that **** me off
Which is about everyone
Because of my belief
People can't drive,
Park,
Use proper grammar in their native language,
Can't help but body shame
To feel better about themselves,
Can't help anyone
And never put themselves in other's shoes,
They can't use their own brain cells,
Basically inconsiderate ignorant fools

Sorry! 💋<3