People always ask what it was about him that made me keep going back. Honestly, I couldn’t even give myself any good reason why, maybe one being I thought I really loved him. This question often gets brought up and they always end it with “I don’t understand” or “I just don’t get it”. I explain it like this. You know when you love something so much you learn to hate it, but as much as you hate it you feel like you can’t get rid of it because that’s what’s so normal in your life and if it’s gone you’ll have nothing else.

Why is it that, everything was my fault? Last time I checked I did everything in my power to make you happy but nothing was truly good enough, you still flipped **** on me for stuff that wasn’t my fault? You verbally and physically abused me all the time! But I hear your going around to all your friends saying that everything that you did to me apparently I did to you? I wasted almost 2 years of my life, on someone who only wanted me only for his pleasures, not because he ever loved me. Not because he saw a future... he knew what I was like and yet he still treated me like I was nothing, you were scared of one person and I never understood why but now that I see who you really are, ******* I would be scared to.

There is nothing left for me to say, all there is for me is to just do what I’ve been doing. Hold in my abundance of pain and stay quite just to keep you tranquil and pleased.
I’m constantly in dejection, worrying about if your being mendacious towards me. I feel like nothing compared to her, I feel like nothing compared to the majority of the girls you know but I still claim to be okay when they’re around.
You are Persistently getting texts and Snapchats, DMs and calls from girls who are better then what I’ll ever be.
When she texts you I have to fight the urge to ask what you are both talking about, hoping just ******* hoping your not planning on leaving me for her.
All though I already feel replaced and unwanted, I still try to hold on and believe you when you say you love me.