I wonder where my body will go
After my heart stops beating;
Hopefully floating somewhere away,
Away from these feelings that are slowly fleeting.

I wonder if I can live a life so enriching,
So simple, pure, and true:
Reaching a place beyond perfection,
Learning to grow, smile, forget the feelings of blue.

I wonder if I can love another
With every last bit that I can give.
To guide each other through this cluttered life,
Give them feelings, help them live.

I wonder if anyone will remember me,
If I’ll do anything of real importance at all.
If I can change someones’ life for the better,
But right now I’m feeling really, really small.

And often times I wonder who I will become,
Who this person is that everybody sees;
My body keeping up with motor skills,
But my mind lost somewhere in the trees.

Concept: We climb, laughing, to the top of the tallest baobab tree in the whole grove. I can run my fingers through the clouds passing above us and the great blue of the sky blends into the enchanting colour of your eyes. With hands intertwined, we jump and are carried by the breeze. I know you are afraid of heights, but we are so safe together, so safe.

she was a puzzle in a piece of art
painted down on an empty canvas
as splatters of different colored ink
completing a masterpiece  that cannot be understood
by all **** means
and yet there he was staring,
a tear falling from his eye,
as it pierced through every little parts
of his broke down soul

It started on the drive home.
The new car wash in town
was having a grand opening.
Laughing people eating sloppy Joe
while matching faces in red t-shirts beamed,
their hands full of sopping sponges.
I turned and the words spilled out
after one soft spoken drip.
I wish my family owned a car wash together.
Or a stand at the farmers market together.
I imagined barefooted children
helping old women carry watermelons.
I wish we were the type of family to
own a diner together,
and I'd serve on roller skates.
The flood from eyes and mouth began.
Or own a roller rink, with theme nights on Tuesdays.
Or a gas station, or a drive in movie theater.
I couldn't stop.
I wish we owned a family farm
and took silly photos in muddy overalls
after five AM breakfasts together.
Or ran a summer camp, or an antique shop.
I wish we were the kind of family
that walked 5k's for a cure.
Each confession slammed shut with together.
Each dissolved into the air
like a child's dream to walk on stars.

weren’t we so in love
    we didn’t have a clue
  how you loved me
and I loved you
    like a fairy tale
   or a sonnet
  nothing dressed up
just love
   but with nothing on it
  so simple we must have
missed it
somewhere along the way
   or did you know?
      too scared to admit
this
    diamond or crystal
  we found
in our eyes that we
   kept shut
     oh, it must have been
anything but
  so tell me,
        did you know?

i wonder how much you know

i wonder how much i've forgotten

i wonder how much we never told each other