You have shown me hope on the other side of time,
but all I see is the void in between.
I stand at the edge and try to see far,
and I fear that you will push me in.
I see myself falling,
dark clouds, thunder and lightening surrounding me,
struck through the heart a thousand times,
and after all the pain, mania settles in.
The devil will take residence in my mind,
and where my tears have fallen,
you will see me, as I am,
a fragile man that you have shattered,
and on the broken glass of my soul, you shall rest,
and your scars will mirror mine.
It's a bit messed up what this poem is about. A girl I have liked for a while has agreed to a date.
The problem with depression is that even when good things happen, you can only think about how ****** you'll be when it's over. You can't believe it's happening and so you work out how this illusion is being created, and you fear for your well-being, because when the curtain drops and the act is over, you'll realise that it was all a lie, and then what comes next, more pain, more misery, more tears, or numbness, nothingness, void.