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Danash DelGotto Jan 2015
My life had just been wrecked
My mind twisted in ways it shouldn't
My heart was scattered across the world
My fears surrounded me
the darkness clouded my thoughts
I was plagued with nightmares
the stress was never ending.


Then, In a moment of blinding clarity
I saw your eyes,
they connected with mine from across a room.
That smile, that face, that light that shown
I wanted that light so desperately,
for my very own.
You had a meek assurance
that I had never known
a smile and a hug,
that said I'd never be alone.

I care not for my darkened past
In time they will all be forgotten
I care not for all those angry people
who had tried to turn me rotten...
Because in your love and grace
I find the pieces of my peace
and they all fall into place.
Danash DelGotto May 2023
Please, God  move this mountain
Take this weight off of me
Heal pain in my chest
My Lord please set me free
I'm being crushed
By this life I've been given
Lord please take away my past
and let me feel forgiven

I can't forgive myself
for the mistakes that I have made
please Lord heal this within me
Let me feel like the debt has been paid

I feel like I am lost in the wilderness
with monsters all around
Please save me from this darkness
Don't let it put me in the ground

I feel like I am already buried
beneath a past I can not change
I am so afraid Lord
that I've become deranged

Take the illness from my mind
Take the sorrow from my heart
Mend all of my broken pieces
Lord please show me where to start
Danash DelGotto Feb 2014
Lead me out onto the dance floor
just one more time before we go
I will wear a mask of joy
to hide my deepest sorrow

You are leaving tomorrow.

You will be back you say
you say a lot of things..
You make pretty promises
with words and rings.

and each word that breaks... stings.

You said that you wouldn't go
no matter what, no one could pull you away.
how am I supposed to trust
a single thing you say?

For some reason I still do...
even if there is fear and doubt.
I will support your decisions
even if they make me want to shout.

I want to scream in agony
that my heart is going through
it is being twisted on a roasting spit
I don't know what to do

It feels like its stopped beating
or that it is being squeezed
every time you look for that smile
that now seems diseased

You...You say you love me
and I know that much is true
But what are promises, but potential lies
until they are followed through?
Danash DelGotto Sep 2022
She held the darkness like a dancer
Holds tightly to the other
She held spark and fire - a pyromancer
The flames whipped around her

As She spun with her love
The only thing that made her feel alive
the flames were her lover - they fit like a glove
Her risky tryst that few would survive

As people watched on in awe
this violent passion - that lit up the night
Wrapped her in the warmth of its claw
They stood wide eyed in its beauty and fright

Her masterful art and the sway of the rhythm
left them exuberant as she seemed so defiant
To the heat of her craft - she cracked the algorithm
As the flames swayed around her - completely compliant

It followed her will - it would not consume
It was Chaos and law, Confusion and clarity
It could point to the wisdom of life and doom
She was a jewel in the heat - truly a rarity

She collapsed to her knees fast to the sand
Twin flames on  a ball on the end of a chain
That she pulled with each hand
Which Wrapped about her neck and back again

The fire didn't singe but caressed her face
Then sparks flew up to the stars above
Fire hit the ground followed by dark embrace
Silence was her applause -
as she extinguished her love.
Danash DelGotto May 2023
What could I possibly say to you?
What should I say?
What could I possibly do -
To take the pain away?

How could I hope to help you -
When I don't know how to help myself?
What can I do to help you through -
When I put my own life on the shelf?

How can I paint you a picture
that will stay in your mind?
One that will keep you in scripture
when the world grows unkind.

How do I make an impact -
That  will ripple through the years?
How do I keep your heart intact
How do I stop the tears - Your fears?

I want you to know I love you
I will forever more
Near or far - even in heaven above you
no matter what life has in store.

Know I always wanted you close
I want to hold your hand
But I wanted your happiness most
I pray one day you understand

How do I say goodbye
without saying those words
because even if I try
I can't accept what they affirm

Because this isn't goodbye forever
Its see you later
One day we will be together
in the presence of our creator

I will always be your mother
I will always call you mine
I will love you each like no other
I pray you see that in time

This breaks my heart to pieces
But I will stay strong
I pray your faith increases
and you find where you belong.
Danash DelGotto Jul 2023
The refined mind
Will seek and find
Asking questions like "why have I come to be"
I wasn't created for depression and anxiety
To be pulled to my knees
By the weight of abuse and it's crushing gravity
"What is my purpose in this life"
It's not only to suffer though pain and strife
With my mind clouded with uncertainty
It's not to be consumed with depravity
Or by captured by this worlds absurdity
"Do I know how to grow
To come into my own"
Do my thoughts get lost in translation
Is this discernment or another sensation
That will leave me feeling hollow
Realities pills are hard to swallow
Who's that face in the mirror belong to
Who's voice is that coming through
I don't recognize my own reflection
And I've lost all sense of direction
If all life has value
Which I know to be true
Then my worth is more than I once believed
I prayed for the answers and this is what I received:
Every prudent mind seeks wisdom
To share to have to hold
Not what you get from the system
But the wisdom born in your soul
Danash DelGotto Apr 2014
raindrops strike the ground
in a rhythmic drumming sound
and all I can think of is you

you are my soulmate
the night on a swing sealed fate
light rain drops fell then too

while I lay in bed
just thoughts of you fill my head
the sound of raindrops come through

and when I wake
A shiver and quake
Because I fear my nightmare came true

I need your hand in mine
you still my busy mind
the way only you can do
Danash DelGotto Jun 2023
A quiet soul reaching out
begging to be heard
Falling through all the doubt
Like a wounded bird

Riding the downward spiral
into the convoluted mess
Pain that seems to be viral
That causes her to regress

Holding on for dear life
to the end of her rope
The thoughts sharp as a knife
Slices through her hope

As it lays there bleeding
burning down to embers
It seems she is receding
At that moment she remembers

She takes another ragged breath
And rises from the ashes
She musters all the strength she has left
All her memories come back in flashes

The reason she fights until her dying day
It renews in her the ability to press on
It keeps the darkness at bay
Until the coming dawn
To all the mysteries in this life,
nothing cuts as deep like a knife
in your back, put there -
by people - who swore they care
and yet it can all be healed
No matter how cold or dark you feel.
There is always hope in the coming dawn
until the very day were gone
even then there is hope
if you wish to widen the scope.
The spirit of death is dead.
Gone when Christ lived and bled
vanquished When He Rose again,
He sent his spirit, a comforting friend
so respect the Father and His creation
explore his joy peace kindness through dedication.
He will reveal to you all things in due time,
so push-up the hill. And enjoy the climb,
enjoy the majesty of the peak
And hear this when to your soul I speak
He did move a mountain by giving you the strength to go on.
At firstNone of God's giants  felt like a champion
  you moved past the mountain in your past.
You climbed out of feeling like an outcast.
You stood up so your peace could be reclaimed.
You squared your shoulders and cast off your shame.  
You can be humble and yet courageous.
You'll find faith in God is contagious.
So share the joy of Christ's truth
to aged and the youth
to woman and man
pray to the Holy Spirit to help them understand
show them Christ offering His extended hand- through you
and in everything Give God glory for all you do
for none is of your own volition.
Because He issued you your mission.
The question is what will you say when He calls
Will you say "Yes, Lord" or will you succumb to doubt
Danash DelGotto Jan 2023
It is pure grief
It is lonesome
As time becomes a thief

It will be sweet
It will be bitter
If ever again we meet

A moment in time frozen for me and you
Your smile brightens as the love shines through
Remembrance glitters in my eyes
As I turn away and say I'm fine

You're dreaming
As I lay awake
My mind constantly screaming

I close my eyes and pray
For all of you
Each and every day
Danash DelGotto Jan 2023
Think of soft purple sunsets
as you drift off to sleep
Let go of pain and regrets
Please do not weep

Close your eyes
get some well deserved rest
Look forward to the surprise
As your imagination proves you are blessed

You have the power to reach for the stars
Remember I love you no matter how far
I know you are with me in my heart
That life has many ways to restart

Remember all the times we have shared
remember your worth
Remember I held you when you were scared
Remember the wisdom that you unearth

Sleep in peace
and rise and shine
Say your prayers that never cease
And know that you are mine
Danash DelGotto Jun 2023
The whispered words of reverie
Within a clouded mind
Coalescing grief and memory
Until they're intertwined

A dance born from fear and love
Long ago forgotten
Joy you could only dream of
That turned to nightmares - rotten

The storm gathers overhead
with the clouds in her eyes
Remembrance of those for whom she bled
she bows her head and cries

She just wishes to see their smiles
to brighten up her day
To hold their little hands for a while
But for now her world is grey

Everywhere she seems to turn
She sees their little faces
The agony continues to burn
As she walks dreamlike through these places

Looking back through time
Like a still frame on a wall
This smile is her pantomime
A lie - that is her downfall
Danash DelGotto Sep 2022
My quiet hell seems peaceful
If you are on the outside
I sink deep into my shell
and return to it to hide
I hide behind a smile
and it seems to work
for a little while
but it fades to a smirk
then it fades completely away
and the truth comes out
at the end of the day
So I hide in bed so no one sees what I cry about

I hide in what looks like reverie
But its only a mask for misery
Once upon a younger year before the pain before the fear
I had dreams and aspirations
Schemes to heighten my elation
I gave up somewhere along the line
No more joy or peace to find
And yet life kept pushing forward
While my mind was continually tortured
Until it snapped completely
No more sanity
Everything I know gets called into question
My mind - far too open to abusive suggestion
Now slowly rebuilding what has crumbled
Ignoring snide comments mumbled
While I try to heal
While I reteach myself to feel
While I try to help myself deal
And collect all the good moments I can steal
I must be patient with myself
I must take my life off the shelf
I must do more than just survive
If I'm ever going to feel alive
Danash DelGotto Sep 2022
I love each one of them, more than I love myself
Without them I feel like a toy forgotten on a shelf
waiting for the child to come back and want to play
waiting for their smiles to brighten up my day
In my darkened corner I will wait an eternity
Until I see their loving faces staring back at me

A cage with in my mind Where I feel that I belong
For everything that I let happen for everything I did wrong
I persecute myself daily for the sins I can't forgive
I can not set myself free - I can barely let myself live

Knowing where I failed
Knowing the lives that I derailed
The pain I wrought
comes to mind like a twisting knife with every thought

I let you all down so I will do all I can
So you will never wear a frown
even if that means I drown

Sinking beneath my failures caught in a devils trap
How much more can I take - before this rope snaps?
I've slid to the end, and I am holding on for dear life
I'm not great at tying knots, but I know how to use a knife

Will God catch me if I fall
Trusting Him, though I lose it all
letting go of everything I love
til I only have my Father above

Why does this feel so cruel
So vile and unfair
why did the punishment have to be a cross I can't bare

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I get it now - God's will is stronger
I will not fight it any longer
I don't want free will anymore
I just want my life back like it was before

Rocking them to sleep at night
kisses and prayers - hugs so tight
Laughter every single day
I don't want them to go away

This is worse than death
it takes away my breath
It stings in my mind
How the world is so unkind
I pray to just rewind
back to a better time
I see it when I close my eyes
but when they open the dream flies
they well up with tears at goodbyes
fearing that it could be our last
God the time just goes so fast
Danash DelGotto Jun 2023
Fear grips my throat
It closes -Face to face with anxiety
I start to sputter and choke
As it whispers - you can't escape reality

It holds me down
Beneath the water
I begin to drown
My lungs begin to falter

I close my eyes tight
Preparing for the end
I look around for the light
This prayer I send

"Release me from this fate
let me let go of the fear
Scrub from my mind the hate
Let me feel that you are here"

A hand reaches into the waves
That I am caught up under
A gentle face smiles - My soul is saved
He pulls me through the rolling thunder

He quiets the storm within me
He guides me through the pain
He shines on my heart His mercy
With outstretched hand He stops the rain
Danash DelGotto Mar 2020
I never knew how far I'd fallen,
before your gaze fell on me.
My heart started to roar
loud, and thunderous, raging like the sea

I opened my eyes
and to my own surprise
there was no wing to catch me
No silver clad knight
awaiting in soft moonlight
meant to set me free.

I found my love
rifling through keys I had long forgotten
I thought it funny and a bit strange
that my heart may have grown rotten

I was wrong of course it hadn't blackened
as I had often thought
It was never stone nor made of metal
It is still open - just can not be bought

My heart had grown heavy
I had so much to carry
I felt much like Atlas at times
But, truly, I am still a faerie

A pixie, a sprite
a woodland delight
that is as carefree as can be
I still sometimes drown
in unheard sound
just whispers of Reverie

I love my own little world
but I am no longer a little girl
I have put away childish things

Reality seems to have fled
as the streets give up her dead
Hearts mourn as Fae sings.
Danash DelGotto Sep 2022
Was I ungrateful
For the life that I'd been given
Was I foolish in my thinking
That my past had been forgiven

I love them all so much
I want to hug them - feel their touch
"A pat on the face for mother"
Can heal a heart like no other

I am a broken poet
who has lost her muse
my mind blackened and I know it
But I won't give up, I refuse

I won't let the devil lie to me
I will feel peace through praise
I will be set free

I will break the petty cycles that kept me as a slave
I will not be buried alive in an unmarked grave
I will find grace
In Jesus' name
Danash DelGotto Aug 2023
Truth abounds and bears fruit so sweet
It seizes your heart and makes you complete
If you choose to rise above the storm and fear
If you are willing to face the demon you see in the mirror
The dawn awakens the faith you breathe in
It abolishes the hate you seem to seethe in

Let the darkness in your heart fade away
The light breaches the horizon - seize the new day

You will find whatever it is you seek
You will find your strength or what makes you weak
Whatever you feed within you grows strong
The beauty is you had the strength all along

Take accountability for your own healing
Don't spend your nights staring at the ceiling
Wondering when your life will get better
Instead - write yourself a letter.
Heartfelt and full of compassion
As if written to a friend - needing distraction

Seek after wisdom from heaven above you
Rest in Christ who just wants to love you
Find your mind becoming renewed
Don't let the message become misconstrued

Confront the demons that hold you
Forget all the lies the world sold you
Remember you are what you think you are
Remind yourself - you're a rising star

You ascend up - high in the sky
Finding the faith that makes your spirit fly
Faith in God and yourself as His creation
Finding grace, peace and lasting elation.
Danash DelGotto Sep 2022
Sorrow Grief Trauma Fear
These are the shackles that I wear
These chains are forged in pain
They increase the weight I bear

I fight endlessly in this war
But my hands and feet are tied
I'm entrenched and I'm drenched
In the swamps of tears that I've cried

My soul weeps and is weary
My memory is my torment, not my friend
But I will keep trying and crying for God-
For Him to help put my suffering to an end
Danash DelGotto Oct 2022
I am nothing more than a shadow of the former life I led
I have often wondered to myself why am I not already dead
After all I have been through and how my heart has bled
It poured onto the floor with every evil thing that they said
They only told me that they loved me to mess with  my head
How was I supposed to recognize what love is supposed to be instead
After all the misery it caused with all the lies that they spread
When they laughed behind my back for all the tears that I shed
The only way I knew love as a child was in fairy tales  I had read
So that is all it ever was to me because I'd been misled
Forever walking on egg shells being cautious where I tread
They knew they tore me down till I was left hanging by a thread
Now I realize that long ago I should've taken my broken heart and fled
Then I would be happy not carrying around all this dread
I will drop all this pain and replace it with joy in its stead
I will leave the past behind me with every memory I shred
Danash DelGotto May 2023
My shaking hands are full of uncertainty
My steel heart is buried in sorrow
My weary mind filled with absurdity
With no motivation to see tomorrow

So many people with broken souls
Walking around with walls up
Our consciousness filled with holes
Filled with loneliness because nobody calls up

Hey how you doin' are you okay
Nah not really but I got through the day
So I guess I am better than I could have been
Thanks for asking, old friend

I have these conversations with myself
Because no one really understands
So I sit here on my shelf
With my uncertain shaking hands
Danash DelGotto Aug 2022
You never knew me
You just knew what you wanted me to be
You never loved me
You only love what sets you free
I'd rather light the bridge to burn
Than let you incinerate my life
You want respect you could never earn
I was stabbed in the back - you held the knife

You never noticed my pain
You sought to cause me more for your own gain
You led my hopes and dreams to the slaughter
You protected everyone but your daughter
So I won't call you mother anymore
I'm tearing down what love I had - stripping it to the floor

You can't control me because I am letting go
The manipulations are over - no more causing my fears to flow
I know you're angry, and you will cast the blame
You always do, because you're too afraid of shame
You'll never see the pain that you've wrought
that'd take accountability and that can't be bought

I'm completely through
Im tired of living for you
When with every word You spit in my face
Then painted me the disgrace

So go on keep defending the abusers
Go on and **** up to the users
Hate me if it helps you sleep at night
But don't forget you started this fight

Shots fired shots fired
When my soul was already tired
You hit me when I was already down
Then straightened your corrupted crown
Danash DelGotto Apr 2013
Oh what messes we create,
when we are a mess ourselves.
Contented to sit and wait
with our lives upon the shelves.
With shut eyes we wander far
stumbling through the dark.
Wishing on a distant star,
Ignoring what is in our heart.
So why sit idle while time goes by
And look back with wonder, on what was missed
Why not take the joy, and fly
Instead of blinded, with clenched fists?
Danash DelGotto Sep 2022
You could've taken my life
But you instead stole its meaning
You could have used a knife
But you carved my heart out with scheming
You took the air from my lungs
Without strangulation
I pleaded with who you've become
But you'd heed no dissuasion
You're a snake in human skin
Who wears a charming smile
To lie and lure victims in
To get them to trust you for a while
Then you strike with no mercy
Decimating all their dreams
Your ****** does not set them free
They have to live with their screams
Danash DelGotto May 2023
Take a step back from me please
Walk away before you see my disease
I don't want to talk because I say far too much
I don't want a hug or a comforting touch
It doesn't make any of the pain subside
It doesn't erase the scars on the inside
I don't know if you are human or monster
So please, just leave me alone, sir
I don't even know if I am human or monster
It seems I may be half and half, sir
With so many scars stitching this smile to my face
It may seem unnerving or way out of place
Mainly its forced, so it seems like nothing is wrong
My words weave a pretty yet deceitful song
I'm fine, thanks for asking - I am hanging in there
Just so it seems I haven't a care
it keeps up these walls I built to keep you out
Or to lock myself away - so no one could hear me shout
Its my double edged dagger I planted in my own back
Its a personal torture another turn on the rack
I can isolate myself in a room full of others
Because I was always alone even with my siblings and mother
They saw me as a sum of all the trauma inflicted
I was the burden - Which is why I live life conflicted.
Dilapidated dreams give way to somber thoughts
Caught up once again in the whys and why-nots
Swallowing my pride like a bittersweet pill
Always pushing my fears and problems uphill

My hands shake and my heart thunders
My anxiety grips my throat as it plunders
I can hear my fear tearing my mind asunder
While my heart is still filled with wonder

I can't look back but I can't  move on
Living life like it's an overplayed song
Struggling with this on an everyday basis
I don't  know how long I can take this

Anger rises like bile in my throat
Last time I lost it I left nothing but a note
It doesn't matter how far I'd run
Because I can't identify what I'm running from

Then I start sinking back down
Into my mind where I wait to drown
In thoughts and turmoil left unshared
Because even when I did nobody cares

That is how I grew up broken and alone
Cast aside like a useless stone
I decided I was worth more than these traumas
I decided I was tired of these endless dramas

I took a stand
Hand in hand
With the only one who stayed
When my mind was frayed
With a whithering smile
We sit for a while
While he takes away my shame
He clears away my blame


Some truths are harder than others to take
Like when true love looks more like distain
I found love is whatever you make
Or it will make you insane
Danash DelGotto Feb 2017
Life has spun me round and round
Picked me up, threw me on the ground
It tossed me here, and there
It never seemed to be very fair

I never asked for the life I've been given
I am just glad I got the chance to be living
I thank God every day for the ones in my life
Who make it worth it, who take away my strife

I used to get scared about whats around the next bend
But I am turning the corner and the fears at its end
I see the light, Its in my loved ones eyes,
I don't see regret, anger, or lies...

I see my children, and what God has done,
To bring me here, right now, with my daughter and sons
I see what my life is shaping and forming into
and I know what I am going to do

I was made, to be here with Him
I don't care about the past, no matter how grim
Because my future is brighter than the darkness
No matter its pitch, no matter how heartless...

God is stronger than the devil
on every single level..
So love is more powerful than the dark
Its a complex idea, yet so stark.

Clear and defining, in every way
Love will last til the end of days
This family I've been given
I've been forgiven
Because I forgave myself
Danash DelGotto May 2023
On the whispered wind of sorrow
That travails a sea of tears
On a boat named loneliness
That is weighed down with her fears

She tries desperately not to drown
in the oceans of her pain
She tries to rise above the waters
To not let it drive her insane

She looks around for land
to seek shelter from the storm
Will she find the rock she needs
Or will she remain forlorn

She can't see the sun
Or any stars above her
She prays and gasps for breath
to the God that loves her

He doesn't want to see her suffer
She knows this in her heart
He could whisper to the waters
and her pain would all depart

She holds out hope
for a Savior to come at last
to rescue her from her own mind
To save her from her past
Danash DelGotto Jun 2023
Take the pieces of my heart
I surrender to you all of them
You can have every fragmented part
Why do I still feel so condemned

Grant me peace of mind
Please I do implore
Unloose the ties that bind
I lay my shattered soul upon the floor

I don't know how to press on
With out them by my side
Its so hard to face the dawn
So in you I do confide

I rise up from my knees
And I'll lift my hands in praise
I will sing in the summer breeze
And hope for better days

You guide me through the darkness
back out into the light
It blinds me with its harshness
And yet my soul takes flight

I will trust you through my blindness
I will let go of all my pride
I will show the world your kindness
So at least I can say I tried
Danash DelGotto May 2023
I am swinging by my neck at the end of my rope
Searching around for some glimmer of hope
Some safe place, a sanctuary for my heart
That has been cremated after being torn apart

I look and I look everywhere I go
Seeking solace, while I go with the flow
Trying to find a feeling I have never known
Looking for the place, a home to call my own

I am a sojourner pushed and pulled by fate
Tossed about like a leaf on the wind of hate
This world has choked my lungs of all the air
And yet I can say I'm not quite as scared

I used to walk around under the weight of fear
Now its dismay, yet I can shed no tear
It stalks me every night and day
I wish for my life the voices would just go away

I can't seem to cry though I feel I'm drowning
I have my faith but it seems I'm always doubting
I doubt my strength, I doubt my sanity
Because my life has been endless calamity

When will this storm finally subside
I guess I just hold on, while I'm along for the ride
Buckle up and hold onto the rope
Its a rough ride kids, find your reasons to cope
Honestly, When I first got the first few lines of this in my head, it was to an upbeat kind of song... Really snappy.... Weird. I liked it though so I went with it haha
Danash DelGotto May 2023
What are you doing to yourself
Going over it again and again in your head
What purpose does this serve?
Why Linger on Words left unsaid

Why dwell in darkened memories
that refute Your Inner Strength
why do you keep yourself shackled
and keep love at arms length

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Because I feel like it's deserved
For every bridge that I've burned
Each took with it pieces of my soul preserved I feel the pain has been earned

I deserve the anguish I feel
For every horrible mistake
I do not feel worthy of love that's real
I put my own life on the stake

So I will relive my every scar
over and over in my head
to make it makes sense how I got this far when long ago - I should have been dead

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I do not think this is helpful
I really do not think this is right
you did not cause your misery
so lay down the burdens tonight

let yourself have some solace
give yourself an ounce of peace
rest in God's promise
and put to bed the Beast
Danash DelGotto Jul 2023
With every stone thrown
Apathy is grown
everything said becomes irrelevant
With the resentment you've shown
I feel all alone
Totally out of my element

Your voice can chill to the bone
With your coarse tone
Do you see my pain shine through
Does it remain unknown
I can't carry it on my own
Feeling nothing is all I can do

I push down the anger and fear
I bury it deep in my chest
I let go of all I hold dear
And simply hope for the best

I have faked joy for so long
I don't recognize myself in a mirror
It seems everything is so wrong
But I'm seeing myself clearer

My own mind provides my torture
Til I feel hollow -so empty
I guess that's why they call it disorder
Maybe that's why apathy tempts me
Danash DelGotto Apr 2023
What most people call coping
To me is just dying slowly
I don't like the question "how are you"
I don't want to lie- but can't utter the truth

I lie with my smile
To forget for a while
How this truth is crushing me
How my past won't let me be

Sorrow darkens my door
Because I don't have you anymore
To lighten my heavy heart
Your absence tears me apart

I'm being ripped at the seams
Sifting through shattered dreams
I feel broken and tired
Lost cold and uninspired

I pray for guidance for my feet
I pray for a place to retreat
I pray for some divine relief
From all of the pain and the grief

Just a quiet moment in my mind
Solace from this world unkind
Take this from my soul so weary
Take the thoughts dark and dreary

Hanging tight to the end of my rope
Finding faith in the ashes of hope
A light far ahead in the dark
I only see a glint of a spark
Danash DelGotto Dec 2012
The shadows of my past, washed away with tears,
The darkness that surrounded me, made up of my own fears.
All of this was taken back, to the depths from where it came,
leaving me with innocence, taking back my shame.
The hatred my heart held, and the pain that it inflicted,
are now fading memories, that my words have depicted.
They will not be forgotten, But they will not hold me down,
I will walk away unbroken, with a mind that is sound.
Now with peace in my heart, I walk among the light,
And I will win this battle, It is a battle of peace we fight.
Danash DelGotto Sep 2017
Lets dance to the beat of our entwined hearts -
Until the song is done.
Lets sing in the shower of our affections -
and just let that shower run.

Life gives us but one chance -
To find the mate for our soul.
So hold on tight to me forever -
Because you make me whole.

You have mended a broken heart -
That to I thought there was no cure
Hold me tight for the rest of ever -
And know that my love is sure.

When you smile, My heart alights -
With an enduring flame.
It takes away my breath -
Every time you speak my name.

I hope that I am to you -
At least what you are to me
You are the last my heart will love
For only you hold its key.
Danash DelGotto Jun 2023
Its dwelling just beneath the surface
Lying in wait for its emergence
Waiting to devour all of my dreams
Revels in ecstasy at the sounds of my screams

The darkness within me waits
Patiently as it contemplates
How best to destroy everything I've built
How to smother me in anger and my guilt

I can not **** what I can not see
In order to vanquish it do I have to **** me?
No that is the lie it tries to sell
So it can win and put me through hell

I get so weary of this everyday battle
It leaves me broken, angry and rattled
How do I keep on living this way?
How could I expect anyone to want to stay?

When they see how my mind tortures me
All they want is for me to be set free
They think I do this to myself inside
What would you do - there's nowhere to hide

"There's nowhere to run no way to win"
It laughs and says with a grin
"You and I will always be tied
You're bound by the life you left behind"

I'm more than the amalgamation of scars
I choose my fate - not my pain - not the stars
You have no more power to hold me
I want repaid for the lies that you sold me

So help me God - I will take back my life
I'll pick up my peace and lay down the knife
I can't carve out the pain and the grief
Maybe this way I'll find some relief
Danash DelGotto Dec 2012
So many things blight us
So many things inside us,
Why do we have to hide us?

Look at yourself, Unveil

Open your eyes!

No longer see through that Darkened mirror!

What are you afraid of?!

For there is Nothing to Fear But Fear Itself

so analyze! Look within!

Seek where you must begin

To heal yourself, to undo the wrongs

Forgive yourself! Forgive Others!

That will change your life

If you let yourself be happy

If you let your self see..
and if you learn to do this
Learn to set yourself free

Please come back and tell me

So I may learn how too

So I may learn from you...
Danash DelGotto Mar 2014
Promises  .. Lies painted with hope with a layer of sick sweetness to mask the bitter deceit that drips from your soft lips.. A touch rendered of all inhibition through the naivety of an unconditional love shedding its cocoon of coy flirtation maturing into an adult passion.. When these two collide , the web spinner ties the lover up in a whirlwind fantasy, and the lover shows the silver tongue the pure honey taste of honest, trusting love ....and the guilt settles in then the panic ...what am I without my better half- what if my love finds clarity and exacts revenge...I will crush it here and now before we both are destroyed .... So the lover in her convoluted despair fumbles in this mixture of beautiful dreams crashing with nightmares to find the shards of her heart...as the pieces fall back into place ... The woeful eyes and guilty heart returns... Stay with me - Teach me love and joy... I need you... At first the fear of that reoccurring horror flashes in the lovers heart...the fresh wounds burn and sizzle ...she refutes the love she had and adverts her eyes for once spinning a web of her own building a protective layer instead of a trap for a heart..Then the child of joy and sorrow is born in the presence of his father and mother...The lover breaths in the nostalgic scent of love and joy ..she glistens with beads of peace in his arms ...she exhales her sorrow but her fears still linger but the hope and promise returns...only now his web continued on partial truth...he will love her and be faithful...but not be present to feel its warmth... The heart beat skips in joy for the marriage and in sorrow for the icy loneliness...the fear and panic creeps in but this the heart has dealt with before and shall not fail...so she hopes and promises
Danash DelGotto Sep 2022
Thank you for taking me into your heart
and showing me the meaning of family
For showering me in love from the start
For cleansing my heart of all its debris

You dusted off and healed my broken wings
when you took me under yours
You renewed my soul - and now she sings
You opened my eyes to how to end the wars

You are the mother that I never had before
You showed me what that love is supposed to be
You're crowned in God's grace - Of this, I'm sure
Thank you for how you teach love to me

You hold peace I never knew
Founded in faith that glows in your eyes
It shows in every word you say and all you do
You are a treasure, a true prize.
For Carole
Danash DelGotto Feb 2017
The love I capture in a glance
would fill an eternity,
The space between our hearts is nil
This love was purely the will of God
I know with certainty

A love to last the ages
told of only on a books pages
two become one, and grow old
That's not how the common tale is told

The story stops at happily ever after
But it doesn't recount the laughter
It doesn't show the baby, and the joy
It doesn't tell of a love, not even time can destroy...

It just says the end, leaving so much untold...
So I will tell the rest.
Our love to come is on blank pages
waiting to be written, and we will be blessed...

Thank you for your heart
I have mine as a gift for you
I'm sorry that its been shattered before, Its true
None the less, It will love you deeply, with every piece,
Danash DelGotto Nov 2022
The fire flashed in the skies
It lit up her eyes
Her heart thundered in her chest
The rain pelted the ground
The wind moaned out it's sound
Her skin - it caressed
the storm in her mind grew calm
she reveled in natures song
At that moment she felt truly blessed
The might of the storm healed her soul
It made her whole
She knew she could finally rest
Danash DelGotto Sep 2023
When good memories fade into bad dreams
Where do you go next?
When you find out love isn't what it seems
When you feel torn and vexed.

Conflicted in heart mind and soul
And the only one who can help you won't
Because your heart - they stole
they begged you to change but you don't

What do you say
When the thrill fades away
All that's left is ashes
And I'm holding the matches

Self aware and self destructive
Like gasoline on a funeral for shattered aspirations
But the love you show is seductive
And yet I am the cause of your exasperation

Don't deny what we both know as truth
Its ironic if you do
Don't waste on me another moment of youth
To your heart be true

We are standing at a crossroad
Make a choice. Follow that road and don't look back
How could either of us have known
That our courage and trust would crack.

As the walls that once guarded my heart
Fall upon our blossoming love
Don't let my hands tear you apart
Rest in guidance from above

Are we at an impasse
Are we headed for a breakdown or breakthrough
Will our love be able to last
Please God, Tell me what to do

I leave it up to You.
Danash DelGotto Sep 2022
I will trade away my sorrows
For a hope of a better tomorrow
I will cast away my fears
And find grace to quell my fears
God will heal all my wounds
Jesus will call me from my tomb
He will save me from my dead heart
He will cleanse my mind, and set me apart
I will not succumb to the worthlessness I feel
Because Christ died to prove His love for me is real
This truth has been my foundation and light in the dark
His word brings clarity with every last remark
Where there was insanity and pain
Now stands lucidity that casts out all my shame
"There but for the grace of God go I"
From now, until I die
Danash DelGotto Dec 2012
Insolence is in the eye of the beholder

You look at me and all you see

Is what your mind has made of Me

You don't see me change

You don't care.

Real love, is not a knife in the back

To make up for all you lack

To get your way

You don't cause pain

Or cast the blame

That is not up to you-

Only God can Judge my fate

Your words only feed the Hate

Your condescending and overbearing

Can't you see MY heart tearing?

You can't see anyone but you

I can see the real you

behind the fake smile

and stupid lies...

I see the fear, in your eyes
Danash DelGotto May 2023
I have heard it said my pain is an illusion
Because its just in my head
Because its not a scar, wound or contusion
That I just need to get over it, they said.

Give it time, healing is slow
Pray more, take this pill, stop overthinking
But they really don't know
the everyday struggle to stop myself from sinking

The callousness of society
bleeds my heart dry
The constant impropriety
makes me want to cry

"You choose to feel this way"
"Just choose to be happy"
If it were that easy I'd do it today
To choose this, how ill would I have to be

I am just so completely tired
of the way this world spins around
of how they all conspired
to put me in the ground
Danash DelGotto May 2023
Who reached out to me when my world fell apart
One maybe two people? Some that never did before
You know who didn't? My "family" - They had no heart
So what am I supposed to believe that life has in store?

So far life has shown me how to pull myself out of despair
It has shown me to trust NO ONE no matter what they say
It taught me that my healing is the weight for ME to bare
To not lean on anyone because eventually they go away

Some said they were sending ' prayers and thoughts'
and while this is always well meant
It didn't help me in the throws of my loss
When it felt like I was broken - my hope all spent

I had people offer all sorts of advice for me
What they would do in my situation
The harm they did, they simply didn't see
When they disappeared they offered no explanation
What did that do for me

Just, ****, Gone
Alone again to deal with my demons
What did I do so wrong?
I gave up, I don't need their reasons...

I guess I am better off without them
I don't need all the negativity
All they did was judge and condemn
So I leave them behind, and lean on my own ability

God is with me  - He whispers  in the dark
He holds me when everyone else turned their back
He puts me on the right path, and urges me to embark
on the journey of life - He protects me from any attack.
Danash DelGotto Jul 2023
I've started a Facebook and Tiktok for my art and spoken word poetry called Uncontained Artist.
If you'd be interested in seeing my face hearing me read please seek me out there.
I'll continue to write here.

Thank you.
Danash DelGotto Sep 2022
What do you do when you are kicked when you are down
Stand up - pretend to smile and play your part as the clown?
Pretend the words were never said
that messed so badly with your head
and soldier on through the storm
How long can I do that
How long can I fake it
How long can I shake it off?

The cracks in my mask are growing wider
chasms I can not fix
I can't just take off this
mask that I put on when I was younger than six
I can't open up with no confidence within me
I feel trapped in my mind with no where to flee
Danash DelGotto Feb 2017
You fill my mind with whispers of safety
You fill my heart with love abounding
You stand before me so bravely
Saying "Yes, I love You, I Do,"
Those words hold power,
I have never had trust in someone
Like I MUST have in you.
Because I gave you my broken heart
and you took my past, and had it undone
to mend it.. To defend it...

Now our lives are blended together
Two as one, now and forever
you are my light, my sun, my moon
My muse, my life, my dear...
You take away my fear.

Thank you for everything that you do
thank you for truly, just being you...
You took my broken heart, and made it whole
You hugged me, and brought back my soul...
You gave me the words to write on these pages,
So I give them back to you, and hope you accept
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