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 Apr 2017 Aqua Rose
Wordfreak
Regardless of the happy times,
I shouldn't neglect to mention the joy,
They always return.
The feelings of inadequacy.
*The ******* whispers
 Apr 2017 Aqua Rose
Amethyst Fyre
Let's go chase the sun and paint the walls
In shades of gold and strokes of rain.
I'll pretend I don't see the whitewash underneath.
Let's go jump over puddles and dance through dust
Dizzy from turning on our toes, but don't stop.
I know what's waiting when I stop, when the world stops being a blur.

Laughter.
Adventures.
Distractions.

Unless they're not.

What if it was all a goodbye?
One more memory before I leave.
 Apr 2017 Aqua Rose
Amethyst Fyre
I'm typing these words to distract myself from the never-ending oblivion that hovers over this naive little bubble

It's in my inhale, hands to my throat as I choke
On tips of fingers that dance across screens and on every flower petal that falls
It waits
Oh, how come no one seems to see?

I close my eyes and type words as fast as I can
It doesn't matter what they say
As long as I can forget
*I know the meaning of infinity
 Apr 2017 Aqua Rose
Amethyst Fyre
As a start, you should always project the opposite of what you're actually going to do. If you're going to cut yourself, smile! People will tell you you're the happiest girl they know. If you're going to starve yourself, have desserts. You'll have your mom telling you to stop eating so much. The great thing about people is that, once they see you a certain way, almost nothing will change that.

You can't get lazy though. Always take care of the evidence. I don't mean hide it, because hidden things can still be found. If you need to hide evidence, you've already been too careless. Taking care of the evidence is part of the plan. You can cut your arms, but only in winter, when its normal to wear long sleeves. Switch to your inner thighs for summer, and take care the swimsuits you choose. You'll have to eat dinner with the family, but you can throw away most of your lunch during the school day without anyone noticing.

IF, and I do mean if, someone asks questions, don't panic. Trust that your precautions have protected you. The only thing panic can do is make you defensive and getting defensive is the surest way to get caught. Surprise is better. "Really? Me lose weight? I don't think so. I hadn't noticed it."

The fewer words you say the better. You don't want them hearing something in your voice. Keep your focus on whatever you were doing before, extra points if its your phone. Sometimes all you need is a disinterested shrug for the whole conversation to go away.

IF you get someone who is unusually persistent, still don't panic. Turn to half-truths instead. They sound plausible, and people eat them up. "Oh I would never do anything bad to lose weight. I guess I might've lost a little because we're in season right now." If you're feeling a little irony, thank them for their concern. It'll make them feel good about themselves and the whole thing in general. I doubt you'll ever hear another question from them again.

Just remember this: there is a trade off for everything you do. You have chosen, in order to get away with whatever you're doing, to live the life of a liar. You have sacrificed your innocence, your fun and your conscience to control the truth. The life of a liar is no easy way to live.
*Do you regret it?
I don't condone the use of these tips to harm anyone, except apparently myself
 Apr 2017 Aqua Rose
Traveler
The causation
Of war
Is a world view
Implicitly drived
From a commonality
  Of righteousness...

Yet in the event
Of such realization
Of our oversight
And in that moment
When we happen to
Think twice

Any way we
Contemplate war
Death and suffering
Will always want more
..................................
Traveler Tim
 Apr 2017 Aqua Rose
Amethyst Fyre
Standing at the top of the clock tower
with bells echoing through my chest
and wind ringing in my ears,
It feels as if the whole world is within reach.

**They have nets under all the bridges. How many bodies have they caught? So many abused by their own broken souls.
From my college visit today.
 Apr 2017 Aqua Rose
Traveler
If I were as convincing
As true love on display
I'd speak without merit
As loud as I may

But...
I'm but a whisper
A voice in the dark
Speaking directly
To subconscious parts

Disturbed and forgotten
These thoughts left alone
I am the whisper
That comforts you soul

And if you believe
The whisperer's rhymes
You too shall travel
Beyond your own mind
...
Traveler Tim
 Apr 2017 Aqua Rose
Amethyst Fyre
I am not going to **** myself
I am not going to **** myself
There is no pain
I'm okay
I am not going to **** myself
*Please don't let me **** myself
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