If I could draw you a picture
So beautiful, so lovely.
Of you.
And only you.
I would draw it and lay it beside you.
You.
And only you.
Cast a spell.
And spread  it upon you.
Wrap you up in my arms,
And never let you go.
You.
And only you.
From now untill forever,
It’s just you.
And only you.
I love you.
And Only you.

I am not fine.
I am not ok.
I exist and that is it.
I’m am tired.
I am worn.
I have walked this path before.
And this cold and lonely pace
Reminds me of what I hate.
And I keep it at the surface instead of forgotten  like a dream.
And you can’t make it disappear.
And you can’t make it any better.
Your on your own.
But it’s not like it’s the first time.
You have a gift
Of knowing what you know now.
And you exist like a ghost amongst the living.
And it’s an easy choice to turn back once you see this.
But you go on.
Cause your strong.
A hero of your own story now you know.

Its the cold dark night
That tears apart  your heart
And leaves you in the dark  
Hollowed out to rot.

The sounds they are so deafening
Of sirens going past.
The city lights are blinding
From above the shadows cast.

And you call out to the wind.
And hear the silence stay.
You were once alive.
But now your left astray.

In the cold dark night
Your worst fears they come alive.
And eat at you like demons
From below and above they fight.

Its the cold dark night
That tears apart  your heart
And leaves you in the dark  
Hollowed out to rot.

Found it in a bottle, buried in the sand.
I dug it out, pulled the cork, and held it in my hand.
And on a rolled up paper words were  written down.
And the very top it started with two words:

Dear mom.
I hope this finds you well.
I wrote every feeling down and set it free.
To the oceans waves to carry away.
And every word carries with it everything I’ve Carried with me.

To the times I cried and you wiped my tears.
Told a younger me I shouldnt have any fears.
Lit a light when it got dark.
Gave me yours when they broke my heart.
And told me none of those girls deserved me.

Dear mom.
I hope this finds you well.
I wrote every feeling down and set it free.
To the oceans waves to carry away.
And every word carries with it everything I’ve Carried with me.

Trouble always had a way of finding me.
But you always had a way of dealing with me.
Sometimes for better sometimes for worse.
I know sometimes I broke your heart.
But still you always tried to help me.
Well I’m writing this because I know
You did all because you loved me.

And as the sun set.
I rolled the note up.
As a tear rolled down cheek and glistened in the sun.
I put the note back in the bootle and ******* the cork back on.
And threw that bottle back into the ocean to swallow up.
And I whispered to myself.

Dear mom.
I hope this finds you well.
I wrote every feeling down and set it free.
To the oceans waves to carry away.
And every word carries with it everything I’ve Carried with me.

The mother she is broken, tattered and torn.
shes given her soul to her family and lord.
The father is busy with work and a secretary with low self esteem.
The son is busy looking at boys and the daughters is busy with all sorts of boys.
Well what a family.
That’s what you call a family.

They married young right out of high school.
She got knocked up and that’s where it went downhill
He started drinking and messing around.
She kept busy stuck close to the house.

Now one crying baby led to another.
A strong face was worn by the mother.
The father slaves to bring in some cash.
But he just wished to rewind the past.

Well that’s a family.
That’s whats you call a family.
One big happy family.

Who’s name I do not want to say
Who brought me so much pain
But whose love taught me to grow and Change.

I do not know where you are
But  Even in your darkest hour
You always managed to smile.
And I know you are ok.

You said we’d be better off
And you were right.
I spent many lonely nights
Just trying to figure it out.
But I’n the end I think you were right
I was better off.

Who’s name I do not want to say
We haven’t spoken since that day
You left behind memories that wouldn’t go away

I tried to drown them out with liquid demons and any and everything.
I pushed away family and friends
All because I could not comprehend what I know now was we weren’t meant to be.

You said we’d be better off
And you were right.
I spent many lonely nights
Just trying to figure it out.
But I’n the end I think you were right
I was better off.

As the frozen lake begins to melt,
The summer arrives and beats it’s chest.
From frost bite to sun tans.
From cold wind to cool sand.
From warm gloves to warm hands.
Seasons change and so do we.
I got love for you. And I got life for the world.
Together we can explore it like it’s our own.
I got doubts but their small,
Compared to what we have.
We will rule his world
And the seasons will still pass.

Oh brilliant stars above
Whether  your standing still or shining bright,
You fill my mind with wonder.
Oh what a sight it is to gaze upon your shine.
A twinkle for every empty space.
A light that’s dead before it arrives.
What tragedy this story hides.
A black canvas to make its own.
The stars they always find a home.
Infinity Wishes forever wished upon.
Not everyone answered,
Not everyone fallen in love.
Great Norh star that leads the way.
Finds me when I can’t find my way.
The marker north, pointing on.
The stars above will guide me home.

When I met you in the dark
In the cold December night.
Your eyes pierced my soul.
And immediately every hole
Began to fill with light.

We told each other stories
Of ghost from our past
And how we were both Looking
To find happiness again.

When you say you have to go
I can see you want to stay.
And my head fills up with a thousand words to say.
But all I can get out is, “ok.”

And when the door closes shut
And I’m on the other side
I whisper to the dark
“I love you.”

For awhile we watched
As something special grew.
And everyday brought me closer to you,
A fire in my heart started to Burn.

But I would come to learn
The fire started to soon
And like the sun you went away
Replaced by the darkness.
And once again I found myself swallowed up by pain.

When you say you have to go
I can see you want to stay.
And my head fills up with a thousand words to say.
But all I can get out is, “ok.”

And when the door closes shut
And I’m on the other side
I whisper to the dark
“I love you.”

I’d like you to know I’ll  always remember you.
And the way your eyes danced in the light.
The way you warmed my heart
As I held you in my arms.
The touch of your skin against  my own.

When you say you have to go
I can see you want to stay.
And my head fills up with a thousand words to say.
But all I can get out is, “ok.”

And when the door closes shut
And I’m on the other side
I whisper to the dark
“I love you.”

You always leave the light on when you leave
As a reminder to me that you were there
And it isn’t fair.
Why should I be left to lay in my defeat
While you rush out and retreat.

You always leave the light on when you leave
I’m reminded that we’re just not meant to be.
To be comforted by an imprint in the sheets.
while a shadow makes it way to the street.

Dont I get a say in how we burn this village down?
You brought your Trojan horse to my beach.
And it’s like all we had is out of reach.
And oh how far I’ve reached.

You always leave the light on when you leave.
As a reminder that you were there and it isn’t  fair.
Why should I be left to lay in my defeat. While you rush out in your retreat.

Say your goodbyes
Kick rocks to the road
Because you can’t go back.
There’s no changing the past.

Let the storm past
Seek shelter from the fallout
Don’t look back
It’s not what it once was.

You can do the same old dance
Around around again
You can sing the same old lines
You can stay the same

The night is young
Your soul is not
So put the past to rest
Your alright now.

I want to come clean
I am a monster.
I want to be clear
I am dangerous.
I will seem safe
Maybe even inoccent.
But I am neither.
So tell my story when I’m gone.
About who I really was.
But lie just alittle.
Just to make them smile.
Try just alittle to make me look good.
I am a monster anyway so what does it matter?
That’s what they say anyway.
I am a monster if you couldn’t tell.
I’ll play the monster for as long as it takes.
Faking the bad guy in a bad play.
I’ll be your monster and be the excuse.
I’m a monster after all
Im a monster for real.

Have a drink, have another
Get so drunk you call your mother.
Kiss a girl, change your world
Fall In love and hate yourself for it

Spin around in a dance,
You believe in romance.
Hold his hand and live alittle.
Life is short just live alittle.

It’s a great big world
You have a great big plan.
You have a life to live,
You have a life to plan.
Just understand.

Just say your goodbyes now.
The time has come to be true to yourself.
Just be calm and be sound.
Your time is now
Just be yourself.

Forget what you have done.
This life is fair.
You did this to yourself.
Just live it for yourself.

It’s a great big world
You have a great big plan.
You have a life to live,
You have a life to plan.
Just understand.

Your a long way from home
But You don’t  feel alone
In a city so big it could swallow you whole
The pavement is vibrating
People seem busy
Distracted by everything
But one thing in common
They all have to go.
The cars stuck in traffic
Signal lights dancing above
Yeah it’s a familiar site
But brings such a delight to the soul
We all play a role
A beat to the drum of life
A pace to the step we all take
In directions all different but end all the same
So you can’t feel alone
When the lights never stop
And the people shuffle for hours unknown
and the Bridges, tunnels, and highways go on forever
And you can’t possibly come to an end

I had dreams when I was a boy
I thought I’d grow to own the world.
I wished I’d known
What I know now.
I would not be where I am now.

I could have grown up to be something big.
Instead I’m asking questions to the wind.
And it goes on.
Like the birds will always sing.
I’ll go on
Like I knew I’d always be on my own.

Helllo are you listening?
Hello is anyone even there?
Are you out there or am I talking to myself?
Can someone please tell me?

Am I alone?
Or is someone by my side?
Can I just known please?
The comfort would set me fine.

It’s 5am and i can’t sleep
Gotta get this off my chest
I dream of you
And I don’t want to
Gotta tell somebody cause its killing me
The way you to did when you were around

no amount of cigarettes can make this go away
Lost a piece of me when you left and went away
Now your standing there it’s not clear
What I should feel
im not even sure that this is real

So I fake a laugh
And take a step back
And take a sip of my beer
and put on an act that deserves a round of applause

The old man got mad again today
Said things he will forget tomorrow
The old man hit mom again today
Will apologize tomorrow
I saw the old man cry once
It will stay with me forever
I never made the old  man proud
I never made him smile
I buried the old man today
I said I forgive you

I haven’t seen my daddy in seven years.
But I’m told that he’s not far.
He’s up above,
Living in the stars.

At times I feel him with me.
In a gust of wind.
Other times I feel alone.
Like the only person on earth.

Well deaths a fickle *****.
An unbearable itch.
Lives in your spine
Biding it’s time.
Devouring you from within.

And when the man in Black comes calling.
You never even know he’s there.
Just ask my daddy.
If you see him up there.

I never said goodbye.
I live with that regret.
An anchor in my heart
Keeps this ship from wreck.

And in the ashes that I spread
on your mothers grave.
A weight was lifted slightly.
I said a prayer and shed a tear.
I’ll see you soon I’m sure.

I was smoking a cigarette, in the early morning hours.
Devoured by the fog that came to claim its home.
The neighbors started shouting as they usually do.
The city starts to wake and speak.
I wonder what it says to you?

The wife began to clamor out the front door.
Dragging behind her, her husbands clothes.
He followed behind her not fazed and unamused.
Like this had happened before.

A single taxi  stutters by.
No service sign is lit.
The drivers face, like a ghost.
I wonder where he’s been?

The whole world is working.
It never stopped, since I’ve been standing here.
The streets lights begin to flicker off.
The sun begins to rise.
My cigarette has long been out.
And my lungs again fed up.

I wonder where your waking up?
I wonder do you think of me?
A city so big you could hide forever.
A city so big we could rule it together.
Set fire ourselves.
Burn it down if that’s what we pleased.
Or we can build it up.
Have towers in the sky.
And watch it till we grow old together.
I wonder if this could be?