Open the door,
Open your mind.
To the thought of,
Everything being a lie.

Take care of you first,
because it may be the last time.
Tell a joke,
That only you will laugh at.

Smoke a pack of cigarettes,
While drinking the best wine.
And laugh until you cry,
For anything at all.

Tell the truth,
No matter who it hurts.
Don’t be a liar,
Thats the worst kind of soul.

Don’t be an actor,
You’re not good at it at all.
You’re a bad liar,
That’s for sure.

Run a red light,
Steal a car.
Start a fire,
In a mall.

Make a mistake,
And make another one.
Drink until you pass out,
Stay sober for a year.

You can do whatever you want,
You’re the boss of yourself.
You can fall in love,
Or break a heart.

You don’t have to decide right now,
But this big old world doesn’t stop turning.
And you’ll have to make your mind up
One day.

Well you didn’t wake up,
And I didn’t learn everything.
There’s so much more to be said,
You left behind a legacy,
But that don’t mean much.
Me and my siblings,
Ain’t living up to it anyway.
But we’re making our way,
Through this thing called life anyway.
Without you here,
Wherever you are.
In the sun rise,
Or in the rain.
I see you face,
Sometimes when I drink.
But the hard truth is,
You ain’t coming back.
And this thought sends me hurtling back to reality.
Sometimes I can’t stand the sight of me.
Been searching for love,
But hearts break at the sight of me.
I’ve done some woman wrong,
And I can take it back.
I wonder if you would be proud of me,
When I stare into the dark.
And I wonder wherever you are,
Are you watching me?
In the sunset,
In the morning mist.
I’ll  always resent,
the times that we missed.
I see your face,
Sometimes when I drink.

I remember winters,
when I was young.
I remember falling in the river,
When it was frozen.
Caught a glimpse of you in a person on the street, I followed them until it felt weird.

I miss you
I can’t believe,
It’s been so long.
I miss you.

You broke your leg,
Crabbing in Jersey.
The police let me ride in the back with you.
I miss you.

I miss you,
Like it was yesterday.
When I last saw you,
I miss you.

I saw in the hospital,
One to many times.
Always working on your leg,
It doesn’t matter now.

I remember crisp autumns,
Coaching my soccer team.
You screamed when we lost.
I remember it all.

I miss you,
Like it was yesterday.
I love you,
And I miss you every day.

Cause and effect,
You live and regret.
You can’t stand to be where you are anymore.
Holding on for dear life,
Almost made it out alive.
But you lost it at the last second,
You gave it up at the bottom.
Its all that you have,
Can’t give anymore.
Your almost dead,
You’re sure.
But you I’ve to see another day,
Yu can’t help but feel you got away.
With your life in one hand,
And in the other a new chance.

Saw you in a dream,
You were chasing me.
You followed me for miles,
Really wore me down.
You almost got me,
You almost won.

But I got away,
It ain’t as fun.
When you don’t get to ****,
The ones who want to do you harm.

I wish you well,
I hope you live.
To see a better day,
Or any day again.

I don’t know you,
But  I hope you get to live.
To see another day.
I know you’re brave.

You’ll survive it.
I hope you do.
I hope you finish the race,
I hope you win.

I love you now,
I loved you then,
I love you always.
And when it’s over,
I’ll love you still.

I’ll love you forever,
Until the sun burns out.
I love you now,
I’ll love you forever.

I remember when you told me to be brave,
And I won the championship game.
I remember when you said mom,
Doesn’t want you living here.

It was a spark,
That lit me up.
I knew then,
It was all down hill.

It the night I wished for you,
And I settled for dreams.
In the day I saw you,
And you made me scared.

I wanted to impress you,
But I let you down.
You wanted to impress me,
But you died too soon.

And the sky lit up,
With fireworks.
You said this was New Jersey.
And I always kept that in my mind.

And when the police man said you were dead.
I banged my fist against the fall.
And I walked down the stairs,
To the empty basement.

You were gone.
You were no more.
I said a prayer,
The first one in awhile.

.

When it hit your blood you were lost,
Taken from the ones you loved.
Just a taste it took,
To make you a monster.

Your tongue stuck to the roof of your mouth.
You stuttered the words,
I love you so much.
Did you mean it?

He watched as your eyes rolled to the back of your head.
And you said,
This means you love me so much.

And you saw the future,
And you felt like a god.
But you never came back,
You just went to sleep.

Chasing a dragon,
That never looked back.
You had it all,
And you gave it all back.

So let it all be true,
What they say about you.
You were the hero,
And the villain of this story.

I’ll miss you forever,
I’ll think about you forever.
And I’ll tell your story till I die,
If it saves one life.