Late nights will bring out the worst in me,
It brings out these versions of myself that I never wanted to be,
My hearts numbing and it hurts to think,
If I'm out, maybe pour me a drink,
It might save my soul cause I'm drowning knee deep in defeat,
Reminiscing the feeling of your uncertainty,
Cause I need to leave it all behind,
Behind this facade of my silence,
While I drown in those deceiving eyes.

Okay I get it you are indecisive,
Look at me , you gotta be more expressive,
Cause my feelings aren't precisive,
Often some or the other problem arises,
Distracting myself through these devices,
So that I don't become compulsive,
And even you know you are so impressive,
I don't even know how to express it,
You know my nature is defensive,
And sometimes it don't look so attractive,
Although I promise you, I'll be supportive,
You don't get it, I want to be possessive,
These excuses is making me aggressive,
But im not gonna be persuasive,
And I guess God is being preventive,
Maybe I am only being deceptive.

Oh! How long do I have to be on my own,
Passing by your street, I rmr singing 'until you were gone'

Now I'm stuck listening to your songs,
And I wish we were along,
Although I want you to elucidate your wrongs.

Now I guess you are happy,
Or not, all I know is i feel ******* nasty,

To give me all your love is all I ever asked,
Now this malaise has got me aghast,

I desire to find a way to make things proper,
Now My brain is faltering, rusting like copper.

And if I were you I would never let me go,
Won't lie, you tried, still was it my mistake though.

I crave her warmth,
However, her love was filled with thorns,

my eyes sparkled when I saw her as if she were golden,
only to find the blood in her veins was frozen,

so close to her, I could hear her rapid heartbeat,
I wish our love were more concrete,

I wish I could stay with you one more night,
And Make love to you as if it were destined for life,

Hours would go on and we end up panting,
Now those meticulous details have me stranding,

Now I look back and I consider it my zenith,
But people think of it as a blemish,

My affection was myriad,
And I desired a longer period,

Whatever we had was venerable,
Oh lord, I wish it were not ephemeral,

And now I have been yearning to feel your skin,
But you repudiated it by committing a sin.

Lately, all I can feel is despair,
Finding for love everywhere

People threw out their arms and called it home,
However, in reality, all they wanted was to me be alone

I could measure my significance,
Yet I wondered have I made a difference

Only to see myself dwelling into invisibility, Releasing pain by saying, I hate everybody

Hated upon everybody,
Yet couldn’t find reasons by anybody

Puzzled! what have I done wrong?
Do I have to suffer in this misery lifelong?

Day by day only exceeding my tolerance,
Will I ever get my Solomon?

My only wish was to be a part of something,
But fate had only written nothing

Reached out for help with a glimpse of hope, Figured out that the almighty replied nope

Never knew helping others can be harmful,
Until others acknowledged me as awful

Each day I gave up, also yelled I am done,
Only to find myself weak and burned

Now I know I do not want to be a part of this,
Remember this time I will not be there to pull you out of the abyss.