I see you standing there
With the wind blowing through your hair
I watch from the shadows and fall for you again
My heart sings deeply for you  
Oh how I miss you
Oh how my heart aches
for you
What you are
What you were
What you will one day be
But never mine
So I forget
my thoughts
my feelings
But never how much I loved
Even though you may never know

Close your eyes
Take a step
Let it go
Let it flow
Just let go
As you fall
From the cliff
You are no longer stiff
For the ocean will catch your fall
As you end it all
Listen to the sea
As you forget to breathe
And just let go
Let the emotions flow away
They won't be there the next day
When you wash away
To somewhere better
Somewhere unknown

If you think about life
Isn't it truly insane
You're thrown around and broken
Cracked and mended
You are either a pawn or a player
We all have different roles
Some are known while others are not
The roles may be changed or just be forgotten
Nothing is absolute
It's full of lies and so few truths
It all seems so absurd
Every death is so minor
Every life is meaningless
We will all die in the end
and eventually, the memories of us will fade  
Some make differences
While others don't and die trying
Many dwell on the past and judge
Few look and accomplish in the future
No one can change the past
Only how you remember it
Memories can easily be altered
Feelings can change
And no emotion is absolute

there's a Funeral in my Brain,
I think i am going insane
The Mourners went to and fro
Not knowing where to go
While the mourned stay and flow
having no where else to go
Some Kept threading through the holes in the walls
The holes in me brain
The sense was gone
like a Drum
They started beating and beating
till I thought My mind was going numb
And then I heard them break the wall
And crack across my Soul
With the blood seeping through
The Space began to toll,
Growing heavy on my soul
A ringing started
And i all started to fade
The bright light was going away
The Wrecked, solitary, was back
And then a Plank in Reason, broke,
And I dropped, down, and down
And hit the floor,
It didn't work
The light is gone and i'm still here
Still wanting to disappear

I felt as little as a mouse
in that smoke-filled house
Hiding away all day
I knew it wasn't okay
So i got fed up and ran away
And called the feds that same day
that life had been run astray
The condition getting worse every day
Every day She grew less and less okay
It was all starting to fade away

I started forgetting
i fell through the netting
I got hung up in pills and drinks
And almost going to the shrink
They say just stop and think
But thats all i did
That's all i do

I sit and think
How much i want it all to go away
How bad i want to disappear
I just don't want to be here
I want to go away
I want it all to stop
Just silence
The quiet bliss of nothing
finally ending my suffering
peace and quiet
Pure silence

We are born to be changed and molded like clay
like rivers through mountains
it all takes time
some longer than others
yet one is not like the other
they may be similar but all differ
there's never two of the same piece
yet each is tangled in the lives of another
some crack and shatter
others grow and flourish
some grow bright
and others stay dull
or they may radiate darkness
many have two colors
choosing neither side
or constantly switching in between
many have two faces
one shown to the world
yet another kept private
we all contain the same roots
they all connect and intertwine
some rot and die sooner rather than later
some just fall in an attempt to survive