We are born to be changed and molded like clay
like rivers through mountains
it all takes time
some longer than others
yet one is not like the other
they may be similar but all differ
there's never two of the same piece
yet each is tangled in the lives of another
some crack and shatter
others grow and flourish
some grow bright
and others stay dull
or they may radiate darkness
many have two colors
choosing neither side
or constantly switching in between
many have two faces
one shown to the world
yet another kept private
we all contain the same roots
they all connect and intertwine
some rot and die sooner rather than later
some just fall in an attempt to survive

She was a maker and a breaker
She broke the hearts that once broke hers
What they did was just absurd
They left her down in the dust
As she drowned in tears she began to rust
She became stone cold
Her heart was cold and hollow
Cold and rusted
The sharp metal cut
The armor that coated her heat was broken
Old, sharp and rusted
For her heart had finally busted
For she is hollow and broken
She has drowned in her own tears
She lays breathless and lifeless
She is gone
For it cut too deep
The shattered armor that once protected
Killed her
She is gone
And will never return

You're all alone,
You're on your own,
There's nothing you even own
have you gone blind,
Have you forgotten what's inside your mind
A Glass half empty, a glass half full,
So don't go thirsty
So count your blessings, not your flaws.
You've ******* got it all,
You lost your mind in the sound,
It's all just a hazy cloud
There's so much more
so go reclaim your crown,
You're in control,
You got a soul
So Rid of the monsters in your head,
Put all your faults to bed,
Do you not get what all this is about,
Are you too wrapped up in your self-doubt,
You've got that young light, so set it free.
There's method in the madness,
But no logic in the sadness,
You can't gain a single thing from misery,
Take it from me.

Its cold and damp September day,
The kindred flame I'll long remember.
I crossed her path & she crossed mine,
The spark we shared was so in line.
A close encounter,but nothing serious?
I'd think i would  never have a chance
but she had me curious.
The tension built 'till she talked ,
as warm embrace, my fears were subside.
All the while my stomach in knots,
we cleared the air & shared our thoughts.
Talk of our pasts, and our flaws
The hopes for future built to change.
Face to face, our eyes spoke words,
reading minds, beyond what's heard.
I could use a nudge,and she's not one to judge.
beer cans & shots of whiskey, holding hands
She opened doors, established trust.
One more dose of nerve eraser,another first, another chaser.
We walked along, enjoyed the view,
talked and laughed,
Alone at last, where to begin?
we drank some water, cooled the fire.
I dreamt for more,
was not prepared to close this door.
In morning light, our eyes would meet,
It was so nice to share a meal, too new friends.
I hope again, her eyes I'll gaze.
When I felt lost, inside myself,
I found my way to her and she found her way to me

I really cant commit suicide
But I’m okay with dying
All of the times I end up crying
Seems like my eyes are never drying
I’m so lost, I don’t know who I am anymore
I’m trying to find them
They go by a different name and face
Writing and poetry helps us both and hurts like hell
I know I complain a lot
But i hide more than you think
I just wish things were a little easier
It's hard for me to do things
Sometimes I just cant move
I just cant Breathe
Some days I feel so strong and happy
But by the time the night comes im breaking
I’m so tired
. Is it wrong that I want to rest?
Is it bad that i just want to drop the phone?
Now that I feel I’ve done my best, I’ve left a message at the tone
Is it wrong to feel so alone
I’d rather die than keep fighting
And they can wonder why.
Why is everything so hard
I’d rather take my own life than be alone and alive.

I barely made it through the day
They almost found out im not okay
They say I have to follow through
How do I live my life?
Do I have to do this tomorrow too?
Do I have to get out of bed to do what I don’t wanna to?
Everyday I try act all happy
But the facade is starting to fall though
I give up, I give up on this life
Suicide is my last resort
An option I don’t want things to end to
Lately I feel so suffocated, restless, and irritated
I hate it, I can't take it
I thought there'd be more to life
Sitting on my bedroom floor with doors locked
while I hold a bottle
Maybe the pills will finally end my pain
I tried once before, and I got so close
So tell me what's more to life
Tell me again that I’m not good enough for life
Tell me will my story has a happy ending
And my future is mostly bright
Right now, the only light I see
Is at the end of the tunnel
Am I Daydreaming

I don't have the strength for another day
I’m so tired, I just want to sleep
I wake up every morning feeling so cold
I can't plan the day ahead like it's supposed to be
But life is so hard, its making a mess of me
I just can’t walk the path that's been made
Am I destined to be alone
Everyone keeps leaving me
What did I do wrong?
I’m so sorry
I realize that sometimes i go to far
I wound up on the floor with a razor down my arm
Catching myself in the nick of time just mumbling to myself
"Am I willing to die, let them win, and leave everything behind?"
I’d rather die than keep on fighting
So they can just wonder why
I’d rather take my own life than be alone and alive.
I’m saying my goodbyes
God knows i've tried
I guess im willing to leave it all behind
No one looked out for my best interests
Happiness?
**** that, it cost me this
It caused me so much pain
Hurt me every time you took that risk
So yes, I cut
I cut all the way across the wrist
I’m caught pretending, and imagining in my head
that I can finally cut so deep that I can't stop bleeding
I admit it It's my own fault, i've learned my lesson