I can't stop myself from
taking this.
I know it's bad,
but I simply can't resist.
My hand
s h a k e s
as I reach for more.
Should I be doing this?
I think as I count...
one, two, three, four.
It rushes over me,
like a wave in the sea.
It feels so good;
this deadly thing that I took.
Sure, plenty before me have died,
but to my parents I could lie.
It's not like they'd ever find out;
I think right before I blackout.
Would they ever come look for me
in this ally?
Or would I just die,
right here, right now,
lonely?
I faint before I can finish my thought.
I felt nothing; naught.
I lie in that ally
for what felt like years.
All until a someones appears.
I hear them talking,
it all sounds very faint.
They try to save me,
but it's just
too late.
Please, stop yourself before something like this happens to you. Luckily, this is not about me, and don't let it be about you. Ask someone, get help, do whatever it takes. Don't do this to yourself.