Sometimes I wonder why am I so in love with you,
You're not like the other guys, you don't make time for me.

You often make me lose my sanity, and I go real mad,
And that makes me wonder, what do I see in you.

You're so different, something so foreign and fragile,
A little push our relationship is on a danger line again.

And you just make me wonder and wonder, what do I see in you,
It isn't your pouty face I've fallen for, nor is it your charming looks.

You make me go numb with just how you lock our eyes together,
The way you can just control me without a single touch.

You're my weakness and that's for sure, no lying,
But do you feel the same way, that's the question.

You agitate and irritate me so much, I guess it's love,
You're not a keeper, but you're my keeper.

Tonight the world shines bright,
With those bright city lights.
Everyone carries on with their daily routine,
In an ordinary life scene.
I will be left unnoticed,
With an ulterior motive.
I will sneak out like a ninja,
Some may call this a stigma.
I will escape alone,
Away from the sins that I would've atone
This is a short procedure,
To awaken the Grim Reaper.
As I escape reality,
Remove this surreal mortality,
After my departure,
I will follow the path that aperture.
No one will realise this,
This all happens in a blitz.
Suddenly, I lose consciousness.
Fully aware of the consequences.
My head turns drowsy,
My vision turns cloudy.
I will say my final goodbyes.
And slowly close my eyes.

When I see you suffering such excruciating pain,
I feel useless and efforts will go in vain.
Unfortunately, happiness wasn't what I could maintain.
You're the reason why I'm sane.

I wonder why am I here for?
I'm of no use and such a bore.
Some may even say I'm an eyesore.
What can I say? These things happened before.

I just wonder and realise how I'm so helpless,
In this situation, I'm more hopeless.
Don't fret cause I'm fearless
But will I withstand in this loneliness?

Feel free to write on my mind that's a blank page
I'm like a beast in a cage
I can't be tamed because I'm in a rage
You can't stop me from fuelling the fuel gauge

Rhythmic diesel gets me pumped, literally
On the cliff I'm the one that jumped, it hurt a little really
The lines are all clumped up, it's quite silly
Be silent and listen since you're dumped, sorry for being chilly

On second thought, never mind, you'resistant to cold
It's obviously your fault for being so bold
Just do you what you're told, your style is old
Your humorous tries are gold but I'm here, so behold.

Somethings seems within our grasp, however still so far.
Everything was going well but I just was never on par.
Distances so large, like us and the night sky's star.
Trapped in this, no escape like a sealed jar.

Everyday we lessen the gap, nowhere near narrow.
The possibility of failure, I think it's quite scary.
The bond turns weak overtime, somehow weaker than a barrow.
Just hoping for a sudden change, a projected arrow.

Every time when I see you, I try to converse.
As we indulge, I just feel like I made it worse.
I can't understand, Is this some sort of curse?
I guess it just might be how we're so diverse.

To be honest with you, I don't think I'm the right guy.
I kinda think that our paths have gone awry.
I need to accept this fate, no way I can ever deny.
All the hopes hit rock bottom, because I held it all high.

All the time I ever spent with you, was all in bliss.
I would do anything for the time I would've miss.
Every night, my thoughts, I'd reminisce.
Did all this just broke apart and fell into an abyss?

You probably never liked me in the first place.
You're one of a kind, no one to even replace.
I'll back up for your sake, to give you your space.
Worst comes to worst, my existence can efface.

Even if you leave, you'll still be my one true crush,
All these feelings would never go down in a flush.
The thought about you makes me blush.
In the end, all this love. We shouldn't rush.