yelhsa

yelhsa Jun 10

i don’t even wanna vent
i’m so lost
i used to beg
used to talk to strangers
used to tell all my tales
now i walk around on mute
i could only talk to a few
not really
it be ******* up my mood

#vent #bpd #mentalhealth

yelhsa May 24

Dearest Angel

If you can have a day in my head
you’ll know how much I care
about you my dear friend
we broke bread
many tears we have shed
stayed up for hours
past curfew
simpson on the tv
talking about our issues
with a cup of coffee
late night drives
always getting high
we sat down in silence
watched time pass by
we had fights
the next day
we would apologize
forgive me if I assumed the worst
almost every girl i knew
I couldn’t trust
you're a real one for still keeping it a buck
u still here with me
I know I can be crazy
I can call u family
a sister and a little brother
a best friend
all in one
they say blood is thicker
than water
but with you that doesn't matter
i’m here for you
my dear friend
thank you
I love you
you take part in
my healing journey
for that you deserve all the worlds glory

#best #friend #family #sister

yelhsa May 22

Free Yelhsa

Never been so deranged
Remember how you came
Not first place
Who says
I chase
I rather do well
Watch how far I go
Go ahead
Go kiss and tell
I be up in your mind though
On the highest pedestal
I know I be tripping
Stay daydreaming
Life be hella fun
hehe haha
Ran outta funds
This ones for my friends and foes
If you wanna holla at me
You gotta keep up
Got so many **** phones
Might **** around
Leave you on dial tone
I am not sorry
I'm ******* insane
Come ****** and fed
Finna vent
**** that
Mood switch
******* pay me
Leave me alone
Don't wanna be lonely
I don't know it makes sense to me
Get rich and cry trying

Originally it was a rap song I did.

yelhsa May 22

A Summer in L.A.

Last year’s summer

I moved to South Central

I don’t miss the heat strokes, but it did take a turn

I ended up losing my mental

Driving down LA

It’s a sight to see, all day

They don’t talk about Skid Row

Now I see why so many lost hope

Junkies, they were once someone's loved one

You see them using dope

Just to cope, they’re lost souls

It’s easier to live on the streets

The people out in LA don’t want to see you succeed

Living in my car, bouncing around sober livings

I am surprised I didn’t end up permanently on the streets

In a tent, sitting next to someone’s auntie

I'm grateful for the experience just lost my mind, not completely

South Central, Los Angeles

Land of the not so righteousness

I wrote this poem for an English class, and it got published to Kings River Review 2024.

yelhsa May 22

Weird

Life is so weird, one day you have it all

The next day you are walking down a jail hall.

You stop talking to a person for months,

Suddenly now you have an incoming call.

You say goodbye,

The way life is working, could that be a lie?

You feel uncertain

All the emotions just come bursting.

What's greater than life?

I suppose I just got to try.

If I keep myself closed in, will it be the same,

The same as when is say it, I don't hold it in.

But I talk too much, honestly

I don’t talk enough.

Life is weird,

Like me, and I cheer.

Hoping for my mind to just be clear.

#prosepoetry

yelhsa May 22

Patience

Learning each day to be patient

It's easier said than done, I hate it.

I forgive myself a lot every time I slip

“I'll be okay” is what I tell myself when I start to trip.

I have walked through darker days,

But lately I started using an umbrella,

Life has been raining down on my parade.

I don’t fear losing, I fear success,

With my type of patience, I can’t explain the amount of stress

I have bottled up in my chest!

#prosepoetry

yelhsa May 22

Overwhelmed

My mind is overwhelmed

It has been hard to get into bed.

Sometimes I wish I could turn off my head

But it just doesn't stop, its overflowing

It's like a river, come and sit by the riverbed.

Let me tell you about the knots, the ones in the back of my neck.

It's stressful, I am so over it.

I want to avoid it, like it’s the plague.

#prosepoetry