The sky is cloudy
The light is dim
The party is lonely
The movie is boring
The food is bland
The bed is cold

Everything is Grey

Would you say I am living?

On a dark foggy night,
I walked with the mist,
Carrying around sins of which I bare
The pain dragging me down like the chains of hades on a filthy ****** soul

Suddenly, Flashes of light bewilder me
Have I been  overwhelmed by it all,
I wondered as I stared emptily at the lonesome street light flickering on and off in the crippling darkness

It suddenly dies and my heart skips a beat...
Could I suddenly die, like this street light on this foggy night?
If so, should I let go of this ocean of pain I carry?

Is it your voice..
Is it the colors I feel when I hear it
Is it your taste..
Cuz sharing with you creates its own unique flavor
Is it your Scars..
Cuz with every stitch we become one
Is it your heart
Cuz I think I hear it beating in my chest

I found my perfect match
but matches start fires and I know I am going to burn
I have been shattered so many times
that kisses feel like stones to me
But I guess to love is accepting to be broken
You broke down my walls

that's the reason.....I love you

This is my letter to you
Signed Gemini.

I feel like I am about to lose my mind
...But I don't.
It's like my body is saying
what everyone else said

"You are being dramatic"

I can't breathe
I am in pain
I am depressed
I am uncomfortable
But don't worry about me
Uncomfortable is my normal
So I am normal.....
.....I am Fine.

I am running
I am running towards a goal
But I am running on a treadmill

Every step forward
Is a step backward
I am not getting closer
I am stagnant

It doesn’t matter how fast I run
It doesn’t matter how long I run
It doesn’t matter how hard I run
I can’t reach it

I can’t control the speed
And I can’t stop running
If I stop I will fall.
It’s frustrating

I am still running
I am getting better at it
One day,
I will outrun the treadmill
One day,
I will reach my goal.