Trace your thoughts slowly
Across the moon’s lit Primrose,
And ponder not on how she belongs to the
Twilight.
Linger not on the notions of Beauty’s
Contrast…
Of utter radiance amongst the Eventide—
Lest you crave her
Shadows.
The unworthy swoon on false intoxications of allure,
Betraying pheromones that lead only to
Ruin.
Breathe not in her presence and still your thoughts, which race ill-intended towards
Premature release of longings—
Unrequited.
Dark Goddess of the Abyss
Siren of Shadows
Seeker of none, yet yearned by
All.
Accursed Aphrodite
Preternatural Persephone
Devourer of Darkfall,
Merciless Maven of moon-drunk men
Who quake with trepidation
Under the pressure of your
Wrath.

Know that your fleeting fury fuels
Fiery passions.
Fulfills my need to know you
If only briefly.
Shall I caress legendary layered labyrinths
Of thou’s lucid lithe mind?
Soothe seared sacred chambers
Of thine frostbitten
Heart?
Beautiful forlorn creature you are
To only be seen for Carnality’s
Delight.
Know that I perceive you.
Past Ethereal Elegance
Beyond the bonds of
Crescent Shackles.
Embodiment of Evanescent Evenings
Impermanence intertwined in
Insufferable aching…
Understand that your
Acrimony is
Admired.
This altruism
All-encompassing.

Allow me to detect deformities
Deep within
Defenses Deterred—
Hollow conclaves concealing
Corrugated corrupted
Compliance.
Humor my heartfelt hubris…
Humble yourself before this
Haunted man.
Entreat, Embrace, Entrust
This harrowed human husk
With an ounce of your Obsidian
Opulence.
I proclaim to pronounce you as my
Pessimistic Paramour.
To never underestimate
Our most unholy
Union.
To know that you belong to the
Night Sky
And must be unbound…
Understand my ululating plea,
To adore your admonishing
Yet never resign to its
False
Adherence.

I yearned for peace,
To silence the chaos of my mind.
Craved a quiet solace
Sought to close my heart
Until Fate wove
Our bonded twine.

Two wayward souls
On separate paths—
“Coincidentally” align.
This perfect pairing,
Our missing piece
A testament to
Divine Design.

We navigate this expanse
Unknown
For which only the boldest
Are inclined,
Of life’s tumultuous spectrum—
Erratic fluctuations, vacillating
From arduous to Sublime.

It takes an acute endurance,
Coupled with two spirits
In their prime
To overcome insurmountable
Obstacles
Which so often bend
The Strongest
Of
Stalwart
Spines.

And yet our love
Transcends all trials
And to you Alone,
I resign…
To the man who mends
My heart
I am yours, and you
Are Mine.
I vow to cherish you
Until my last breath,
Until the fabric of
Time
Unwinds.
To my Saving Grace,
My Singular Proclivity—
My
Everlasting
Valentine.

Because you're in Hell,
Suffocating in Degradation...
Lost, Stolen, Swallowed--
Taken.

Breathe in Acceptance,
There's no Room
For Lies...
God Does Not Atone
False Alibis.


Alas, The Devil will Welcome all
His Ripened Fruits,
The Darkest of (His) Children
With the Blackest Roots.

To Rot in Primal Horrors
Of the Great Below
Where Truculence is Transcendent--
You.
Must.
Reap.
What.
You.
Sow.

"Human morality (tsk), it's so fragile--
so frail.
Such hubris--to have free will
yet still fail.
Such folly, the notion
of tipping Death's Scale.

Abandon All Hope,
Here no Souls Prevail.
Silence your Pleads--
I wont be compelled.
Stifle your Prayers...
They never leave
Hell.


And Between your
crescendo of cries,
shrill shrieks--
lamented wails...
Remember to breathe in
Child
Breathe
in
and
InHale."

I Entrusted you
With My Being, My Essence, My Life.
Displayed my Chimeric Tormented Spirit—
Bared my Skin and Shed my Soul
I showed you the depths of my Hurt—
An endless Chasm—
Suffocating Wretchedness,
Spoke to you of True Pain—
Endless torture; boundless ruptures
Tumultuous Lightning Storms
Within My Chest,
Of Sorrow Simultaneous—
Drowining in Tears
Too Bold to Shed.
You viewed my sacred landscape
Riddled with War
Ravaged by the Merciless
***** by those who plant
Seeds of Birth...
And still Brought only
Death.
My Blackened Heart further Decaying...
In your Hands—
A Testament to My Desolation
My Wrath.
You Squeezed—
Forgetting you weren’t the First—
To
Attempt
My
Annihilation.

She ascends into this
World with Hellish intent,
From the Blackest of Chasms
From the Deepest Pits.

Her Dark Beauty enraptures—
It Corrupts, It Ensnares.
With Cataclysmic savagery
She devours the unfortunate,
The Unaware.

Her Crimson lips lie
Speaking sultry words so bold.
Watch her Deadly Touch,
So Tender
Yet Cold.

She will draw you in close
All are Moths to her Flame,
‘This Devil in woman’s guise’
Primal Evil
Untamed.

With words that smolder
She whispers sweet temptations
In your ear.
“Come to me now—
You have nothing to fear”.

As your defenses fall
Her Depravity gives rise
Drunk on her intoxicating aura
On lustful promises...
Rhapsodized.

“ The price to pay is so small,
And all must pay My toll.
I’ll give you everything your
Sad heart desires—
For your Sacred immortal Soul ”.

You* resign to her words
And once again she has won.
Another one turned victim—
Only the Deed left to be done.

Hand in Hand you walk
To where she will not tell...
But you descend into the
Blackest of Chasms
Into the Darkest of Hells.

Remember, It A l w a y s starts with a
Pernicious wish,
With promises of Eternal bliss...
Kisses upon Deadly Lips
From a being
so
**Devilish

Unburden my Heart
The very one that used
to Beat so Fiercely for You.
Unravel my mind,
and Reclaim every crowded thought
I hold on To.

Take away the light that once
Shone in my eyes
Rid me of these cruel Sands of Time--
Flowing endless as the sea,
Seize my tumultuous Soul--
****** it away from me.

Take away all nostalgic recollections
both the good and the bad
Steal away with my fractured emotions--
Those I wish I never had.

Take away the love I can no longer Give,
Take away my Fight, and my Will to Live.
Remove every aspect, Swipe every lingering Lie,
Rob me of the Crushing Weight
of our Final Goodbye.

Unhinge All my Sorrow
Release All my Hate
Strip from me from All this Pain
That I feel so Late.

Take back our First Hello
Take back our First Kiss...
Wipe away this Accursed Phantom--
The constant Taste of You worn upon my Lips.

Reacquire Every Intimate Moment once Shared,
Every deep breath, Chaste touch;
Fingers that once combed
Longingly through Raven Hair.

Take away the failed notion of Us
To make room for a Solitary Me,
Take away how things once were
And leave behind what must Be.

Detach your Essence from my Spirit--
So Broken and Weak,
To Allow myself to swallow Selfish Words,
Words I can no longer Speak.

Pull every Volume of our shared story from my Shelves,
So that you may set every page ablaze
And leave Nothing
But Myself...
To pick up a pen
And Begin
A
New
Page.

I have cried
silent, bitter, and angry tears.
I have bled
internally--externally
for the past Seven Years.

I have endured the Nightmare
of your Invasion,
of your pernicious touch.

Sickening and Intrusive

Plagues upon my skin
For Seven Years...
Yet Here I am--
I Begin Again.

The cells of my skin Reborn
as all of you Recedes...
I am the Phoenix
And I will Never Concede.

Your Toxicity no longer corrupting,
your assault all but faded--
Never Forgotten or Forgiven
your depravity--your degradation.

Whole once more
no longer shattered
I put Myself together
I am what matters.

Seven Years

Shackled in body and skin
that once belonged to You.
Never again, Nevermore
I am no longer subdued.

I am no longer a prisoner of fear,
I look at my skin...and it no longer sears
I. See. Clear.
My Body
My Soul
is Cleansed.
And
it
only
took
Seven Years...

I sought it on the Devil's lips,
in his embrace
We intertwine, We twist
The savagery repugnant
as bodies collide
Intimacy culminating---
my sins give rise.
Between labored breaths
within satin sheets
Here--Dark meets Abysmal
And two tortured souls meet...
Building
Reaching
Pulsating
Both mind and body spent...
He sees through hazed hazel windows
And offers **Recompense

I hide you in my poetry,
In every ink stroke, blot, and flow.
I hold on tight, clinging to your memory,
Not ready to let you go.

I hide you in my dreams,
In order to visit you every night.
We'd live forever there together,
Until I'm robbed of you by light.

I hide you in my actions,
In every decision, in every thought.
Remembering your mannerisms,
Only to repeat what you have taught.

I hide you in my tears,
In every drop, stream, and stain.
Pondering in stoic sorrow
On your affinity to cause pain.

I hide you in my soul,
And tether your essence to my heart.
I still cherish what once was had,
Despite this rift, despite this part.

I hide you in my smile,
In recollections of together.
However, it is time to say goodbye,
For nothing lasts forever...

My heart yearned to be fixed...
ached to be rebuilt with the tender hands of
an everlasting forever.
My Sprit, long broken and shattered,
lifted with an optimistic hope
at your entrance.
My Soul...if only for an evanescent moment
returned from its self-induced  isolation.

But your touch was dangerous,
Your lips were toxic, and your words hollow.
I was lost in our temporary lust,
lost in the cold  fire beckoning behind your hazel  eyes.

Shackled was I, in the flames of a fiery passion.
(We so often forget that it is the inferno's we nurture and create ourselves
that consume us whole. In entirety.)
You were my all consuming,
Devouring what was left of me...

Shameful was I,
For enjoying my own destruction.
I felt bliss instead of pain,
I inhaled ecstasy and breathed in fantasy,
All the while choking on the effluvium of your lies.

Her skin is Obsidian,
Forged in the sacred flames of pain,
Calamity, and destruction.
She walks through Hell unscathed, for she is
Transcendent.
She was anguish, she was suffering,
She was guilt, she was unrequited love, she was hate.
Molded, formed, shaped, and artfully crafted, her darkness was beautiful.
Obsidian.

What is love, when only empty vessels exist?
When you have no lover, when you aren't loved.
What is love, but absent kisses on chaste lips and
Promises left unfulfilled in glass jars left to
Shatter?
What is love
If not the willingness of true pain.
To tear out the heart and hand it to another
Only for them to fumble your most precious *****.
What is love, if not the complete nakedness of the soul
Standing vulnerable before another.
What is love without the bitter taste of betrayal,
Like bile in your mouth?
What is love, if it isn't the silent, muffled, wrenching cries
At 3:16 in the morning that streak down skin so raw
Only to drip into oceans of despair and anguish.
What is love if it is not the slow drowning of
Your former self.
If not the suicide of the soul.
What is love without its admonition?
Without the stalemate of stubbornness and ego?

It is the willingness of spirits to collide
As walls collapse.
Its your secrets blended with mine.
It is our scars intertwined.
It is that leap, that moment of clarity,
Soaring over a chasm to reach you on the other side.
It is the disregard of fear, the spoken fableded words
Reciprocated.
It is the unwavering yearning for your touch, your kiss
Your chaste lips
Upon mine
at *3:16 am.

Secrets hidden well,
To cover up the shame.
Memories suppressed inside,
To bring relief to her pain

Nightmares constantly present
To remind that the past is real.
Sickness retching the body,
To release the disgust she feels.

Pasts that still haunt,
Both by day and by night.
Lives forever altered,
By something so far from right...

Child left alone,
Trying once again to be whole.
This unforgivable devastation
Forever tormenting her soul.

Many questions yet unanswered,
She still waits and wonders why...
Was there a reason?
Was there a purpose...
For
All
These
Tears
That
She
Cries...?

Within me Lies
Someone full of hate, pain and rage. I
See through her eyes.
Inhale her breath.
Consume her foolish men.

I hear her,  I feel her.
She speaks in words that burn
Her touch sears the flesh,
Turns life to ash.

She traps me within,
In skin made of silk
Her voice made of Jazz.
Helpless is me (who had lost herself
To the beast once trapped within).

I feel her pain. I feel her hurt,
In pulsating waves
Felt within hollow chambers
Of the heart.

She is not shackled by this pain,
This hurt.
She is Fire.
All consuming, all powerful.
Callously and Casually she entraps.
She ensnares she takes (Inside her rests an unyielding furnace,
Filled with the ash and bone of her victims.
Am I too one?).

She corrupts flesh, she corrupts minds
she burns brightly, boldly, dangerously.
Her flesh slick with
The effluvium of
Lust.

I live within her,
I reside inside.
Shadow of my former self
Fragment of my former life.

She continues to live, she continues to consume
As fire can only take
Fire can only
Burn.
It tempts, it ensnares, enraptures
It does not feel, it does not care
*It does not love.

She built it strong
She built it tall
An impenetrable force
her unwavering wall.

Founded on hate
Founded on pain
Slick with agony
Painted in stains.

All sought the climb
All wavered...fell,
failing to reach
failing to quell.  

She built her wall strong
She built her wall tall
an unconquerable acquisition
with a devastating fall.

Climb, ascend, mount, scale
but be wary of her ferocious gale,
be mindful of her tears of hail,
Can you reach that heart so pale?
Can
you
reach
her
and
*prevail?

Slowly you draw near,
moth to my flame
you've entered my realm
come play this dangerous game.

Come sit near this inferno,
Come sit near this fire
Come to me, boldly
and be desired.

Let my fire conquer your body
Let my flames ignite your soul
Intertwined in my blaze...
consuming you whole.

Touch, caress, explore, and take
Engulf yourself in these triumphant flames.
Let my caress soothe as our bodies clash
Let my lips linger on yours
before
you
turn
to
ash...

I'm the change from Autumn to Winter...
subtle, silent, transcendent
Elusive.
I'm the twilight hours that steal away the day
dark, haunting, chilling
Elusive.
I'm the howl in the wind
wild, untamable, bold
Elusive.
I'm the tender touch of a lover
sensual, consuming, ravenous
Elusive.
I'm the stars in distant galaxies
unknown, terrifying, unobtainable
*Elusive

Within them I keep you
safe, tucked away, and always remembered.
Where I can see you always,
hear you always,
feel you always.
It's you I see behind closed eyes
in quiet still hours,
in midnight scenes
forever and always
within Illicit Dreams.

Where footfalls fade and echoes stir
amongst fractured realities and dreams deferred
Shadows loom...expand... make their mark
forsaking the light to birth the dark.

As darkness falls, as shadows lie
as cold winds blow, and devil's rise,
for those who listen will hear the call,
of sinister whispers, shrieks, and bawls.

Do not fret, do not fear
these shadows whisper, " Come near, come here..."
Their voices linger, their voices yearn
gnarled fingers reach, eager for their turn.


They wish to ******, they wish to take
to swipe, to steal... to alienate.
dragging tortured souls down boundless wells,
into the deepest chasms, the darkest hells.

Void of life, void of light
endless, eternal, forsaken night.
A haven for those who dwell below...
Within the Sanctuary
of Shadows...

we would be more than friends...
more than confidants.
More than late night texts,
over hesitated fingers,
and true feelings unsent.
In another lifetime...
we would have fallen
down the rabbit's hole
into a blissful place
where no one else could follow.
I wouldn't have chosen him,
and you wouldn't have chosen her,
instead we would have found one another,
and spent our days amongst the clouds.
In another lifetime...
I would love you not from afar
but up close
intimately
completely.
In this lifetime we are no more than
stars crossed...
opportunities missed and
loves lost, amongst the chaos of life.
In another lifetime
In another space,
some other place...
we
would
find
each other.

Shadows cast, eerie silence
blood, crimson, mindless violence.
Hushed voices, chaos...dread.
lives lost, withered dead.