It seems I can't get away from my inevitable destruction

I've tried too many times to counterfit my emotions

And I've searched like a blind man drowning

I've put my best foot forward only to find myself running backward

I've laid my best intentions only to find the road to ruin paved with the best of them

I've said a thousand and more times sorry

Only to end up having to say a thousand times more

I've dared to dream my dreams and grasped only thin air

I've allowed myself to be used and abused time and time again

Like some twisted self flagellation

only to find my self unrepentant without even knowing it

I've hidden from the truth only to find it find me

I've doubled down and doubled myself over it

I've built walls to dam up my failings only to find holes in it

always one hole more than any fingers or toes I've got for it

Troubles always seem to find me and worries never leave my mind

I'm not afraid to cry

And here I am still hopeful I've got one more time left  in me, and the will to try

Who knows, one day I'll win the tittle and maybe...

The distance between us seems endless

Yet you're only 2 feet away by measure

I wish I could reach you like I used to,

You know, in the way that a look,

or a penetrating thought could

Or that soul song we used to sing

when the world seemed perfect

Where You fluttered like a moth

And I danced like a flame

When I resonated through you

And your eyes used to burn deep into me

When your touch electrified

And my kiss hypnotised

As you sleep dreaming of flightful fancies

I hope I meet you there soon

But first, stop your ****** snoring!

Such a playful synergy
Your heart strings and mine
Thrumming on our frequencies

Drawing fourth sacred energy
Running on light beams
Dipping our toes into notes
And hands wafting in melodies

Dizzying highs and resounding lows
Shattering boredom
Stepping on apathy
And plucking joy from the air  

A glorious spiritual liturgy
How beautiful now since we've learned to pray

Drawing such sublime adventures
Going this way and that
Shuffling the order of truths and mystic mysteries
Coming full circle where withall
then bounding off again.  

Such a lifting of feet
a symphony of etherial musings

The tethering of our minds eyes
innocent daydreams
Making a mockery of darkness

Shining in the glory light beams
Bloated with gladness
Soaring with hopes

Soul Edifying

And that's just the beginning
Of our poetry.

In the hollow inside my soul

Rattling around a cage

scraping yet more and more flesh

I dont go down those steps anymore

But I can feel you scratching at the door

Dragging every sweet moment into the abyss of bitter

And the salt of my tears crystallised long ago

With nothing but dust to offer

The ocean of tears still drown me

And resurrection feels neither glorious or healing

Such long tendrilled fingers

Frightened to let go

I might have forgotten you

But you won't let me

Until you take every part of me for yourself

But I still walk forwards

And every day I will get further

And you will be but a pin *****

In my new tomorrow

And despair will forget my name