sign something, care, tell someone
yeah, that'll do it
you're safe where you are so why should you give a ****
you let things fall apart because they're irrelevant
to your further existence
you can just stay there
where you're safe
where not giving a ****
gets you so, so far
because you've never needed someone
to give a ****
about you

not caring isn't a defense mechanism
it's a step closer to nothing

you look at them and you want it, you do
but, truthfully, that's just not you

i just want to live a normal life
without this pain and unnecessary strife
set aside what i can gain
and walk outside and feel the rain

it's no one's fault but my own
i've built up new skin out of stone
and as much as i want that rain
i feel, with this, there's more to gain

There are troubles left unsaid but that's okay I'm fine
I'll think about it in bed and wonder how I ever got this far yet never reached a point but then I'll realize what I've done to have you here anyway
Is it okay to think like that I mean it's not like you're mine
just because you're here doesn't mean I get to keep you you're free to be whatever you want with whomever you please
As long
I guess I can't expect that either
But as long as you remember me
As long

I fall down so much
like, God, I have more scars on my knees than you'd believe
they've joined and now it's just one big splotch
and while
Yeah, I guess they could be my past mistakes
In some sort of metaphor on life and the universe
they're also all the times I've laughed and just mildly ****** up
you take those moments for granted
forgetting your knees don't just break every time
so laugh
and **** up
you're fine

you know?
living isn't a necessity for being yet
we stumble on and I get that, really, I do
'cause here I am

Where is my mind
I can feel it spinning
I'm falling behind
In a race
I'm not
winning
Inside, I'm collapsing
I'm crossing the line
I need to find
My mind
It's circling
I'm wishing to get
Some consolation
A way out of this trip
No open doors
I'm hoping
You'll see that part of me
And you'll love me
Despite
My madness, my fight
My constant flight