Another night where I struggle, toss and turn, sigh in frustration.
Sleep evades me.

Does it not see that I'm exhausted?

I've nothing left to give, I am beaten and warn out.

Yet time moves into the next day regardless of if I'm ready to begin or not.

Nightmares creep behind my heavy eyelids.
I sense them pulling at the covers. Maybe I can push them aside.

Shadows creep around me, tiptoe through my home, so rude they don't shut the door behind them.

Thoughts circle, I try so hard to leave them behind, However they choose to remain.

Another night where tears fall silently, why bother wiping them away.

I'll stare at the darkness in which I've always held an irrational fear.

Don't count the time, it passes far to fast. Sleep please take me, I need an escape.

This is when I turn to rock, emotions mold to stone. I could never give you my heart, for its not my own.

I drift away with regret, I know I let you down. I cant take back the things I think, when your not around.

I feel it pulling in my chest, rise up and come to tears. I took a chance to make this work, and it ended with my fears.

I disapear now like the wind, I fade into the trees. You think I will forget you fast, but pain is hard to ease.

Dont look back and see me, a shadow of who you once knew, for I was never fully here. I make it look so easy, but the scars are always there.

You want to take the wings I've earned, I sense it beyond your touch. You wrapped your hand around my throat, and it become too much.

You think that you're the only man, to ask of me what you do. But in reality, there have been countless before you.

I pace this room to ease your pain, it sinks within my skin. Another scar from your heartache burns. So much to say, I can't begin.

I count the scars on my flesh, the hearts I've had and lost. You look at me like I'm the monster, but never ask the cost.