i remember our first
outing by the sea
coffee in hand
you showed me markings
with meanings
and some without
you showed me you
but just a bit
and I remember we ran
you ran so gracious
and bit by bit I learned you
I am a student of you
and we'd live
by that window
we'd sleep
we had  many nights
by that window
sealed shut
and left across
outside
looking in

****** my hero in
everything i do
****** we populate
an empty ******* room
****** my heroine
you saved me from the crash
hero in my ******
i'm addicted to your flash
here without my
******

sweet summer grass we lay
sweat soft gently trickling another
swear sent oft we say
we vent our woft sick smother

I'm not something
that exists
only when you need it.
I'm alive
twenty-four seven;
Don't use me
to curb your boredom,
when your
plans fall through.
When everyone else
is tired of you,
what is going to happen
when I am too?

Sudden slip softly spoken
Past pursed lips,
My trust is broken.
Forced flashback ill-gotten.
Franken-furter, falsely forgotten.

I write logs and graph our calls
I guess I couldn't hear the fly
slowly writing on the walls
your cursive eludes me, why?
What goes around didn't come back this time
but when entropy reverses our cold breath
and you **** me back in, I'd like to meet death
I'm sweating now; but, I won't die a heat death

I watched a softball game
two girls during warm-up
tossing a ball-
flirting
with each iteration
they took a step back
with each step
they were growing closer
more personal
falling in love
with a ball
and a glove

candle wax and incense
the lies that we weave
in all of this nonsense
what do you believe
do you think it's all just
and right in the end
do you think that you must
survive for a friend
a pittance of praises
are all ye can do
as the water raises
Jesus, the canoe

dollar bill for whinnie
but save the rest for me
god you are so ******
in terms of company

toast me golden brown
don't burn me here
but dont turn it down
that is my greatest fear

hands made of leather
we keep together tight
and if we share sack'd feather
we'll make it through the night

maybe i'm a nando
and you are cheeky too
maybe i'm a rando
a fool i am for you

strike me like mike
stroke bow wows career
in the end he was like
a hippies brazier

words of our fathers
shooting like stars
if we were like others
we wouldn't go far

happiness in latex
depression in socks
swollen in ***
haplessness mocks

uncertain in love,
even less so in life.
Love, I am certain
You made a mess of my life.

I was going to send you
a ridiculously long message,
one where I say everything I feel,
perfectly punctuated,
immaculately articulated;
but, you leave me alone with words
like the more i use
the lower their value plummet
so ill send an ok
and never see your summit

I haven't written for a while
You give me nothing to write
About. I feel like i am whole.
Id like if you could stay a while.

relinquish my sleep
with your contrary gaze
pray on your knees
and stray in your laze.

god he hath written
of all we'd a done
with god I am smitten
a blasphemous son.

stray light for wander
and exodus days
somehow left focused
on all of our ways

I know hath we wonder
of where we were one
i'll show thee another
in life we had won.

insecurities consume as we fan our flame
knowing the end will be the same
as before we embarked here,
casting anywhere(.)
shadows reaching out together
consuming sun kissed land.
with the wind in our sail
we can't possibly fail
so never let go of my hand.
once mornings blanket wake'
we sober up once again
no more of this we take
until we try again.

desperately knotted
impossibly turned
lustily latent
unknowingly learned

fire of my *****
fruits of a feather
never gonna be together forever.

for what it’s worth
It’s not that bright
hoping you enjoy the night.

absolutely disgraceful
impossibly said
behold asphalt
and off
with your
head

lips of an angel
eyes of a snake
The devil wore prada
But yours are just fake.

just in case you wander
i wont let you stray
and if you ever wonder
night will become our day.

God made me.
In his image
before there was light.
and after he saw me
he then made the night.

All the while I called
I hoped you wouldn't answer
so I'd seem less clingy
and as you do
I didn't
and i'm still alone
waiting here
next to the phone.

yeah, I have promised myself that I would overcome,
be an unstoppable force and extinguish the sun.
encircle your moon, apologetic sounding words, hard.
I slowly evaporate touching your lips.
breathe me in, your atmosphere.
but I fear all.
and then you
see, you
mist.

inferno
what for?
we both ignite;
as if we both
feed the fire. burn higher
your combustion, smoke screen, cloudy judgement.
wild flames dance together melting as one.
hot sonnet of pleasure and pain, ending never,
them speaking no words but saying everything ever.

I'm the cyanide you keep
tucked gently between
your teeth and your cheek
swallow me
at the end
unsure of the first
but certain
to last.

Behold!

a fool dressed as you remember he

but did you know him? or did you know of him?

he'll let go of the coattails that once led

and be left behind.

Do Re Mi Fa
Fad I. Rome
redo if am
Fameroid
So La Ti Do
do it also
todo: sail
loot dais
O' tidal o's
Do So A ReaL iDio(M/T)  
F

pit full of ****
where I took a poo
steep and deep
kind of like you
digested dictation
slide slender slurry
expedited expression
and all in a hurry
pumping til you die
spurt **** spout
and cover us all
never be without
a smothering wall.

profiteer of suffering
you envy every man
tell me when the waters flow
you surely have a plan?
indulgence in dystopia
i hope your wealth is growing
I pray on the day of ropes
it is your blood that's flowing
Euro trash a market crash
lets write you up a check
when the markets do their last
i'll come and snap your neck.

why turn my eye
if happy to see
our easy through and between

learn of pain
use your breath
so they must give out
that same nature


he makes by hand
the world
the truth

more gain
you grow
from who
I'd know

I've spent much time in recent days
overcoming my old tired ways
I've seen myself for what I were
and after all I'm still quite sure
without you I am not

I've cleaned up my old tattered dreams
unwoven all my scattered schemes
I've searched throughout my entire lot
of all my treasures that I've got
without you I am not

I've lots regrets and mistaken paths
I've killed my rage and soothed my wraths
I've cast you spells and prayed your way
though it hard to finally say

without you I am not.

life is a light bouncing
to and fro
re and de-flected
not often respected
do you like what you see?

to whom do you preach when it's all only you?
can you convince one young man he were two?
convincing conniving confounded connections
reordering words and thoughts in directions
you might not have thought until push went to shove
if the shoe fits it will fit like a glove

but from my verbose vernacular illusions
we come across and throw out our new found conclusions
for order was out there and the going was tough
born into smoke and we're gone in a puff

I made the neighbors move,
it must have been my feet.
stomped around a bit too much
they've run off down the street.

man upstairs no longer cares,
he's senile for the sound.
landlord is out, have no doubt,
for the rent he'll be around.

I made the neighbors move,
It certainly had to be.
could it have been my voice
that caused them all to flee?

I know they always talk,
of my ever constant noise.
I have not yet met them,
yes I've never had the choice.

I made the neighbors move,
you know it to be true.
they did not want to leave,
they simply never do.  

I hear them leave for work,
or school so they can learn.
I made the neighbors leave,
don't think they will return.

not once have I seen them,
just when did they move in?
where exactly do they stay,
and tell me where they've been.

I made the neighbors move,
I swear they're never here,
so don't think to move in,
I'll make you disappear.

curiosity killed the cat,
yet left me on the floor,
although I know
I have begged and spat,
I always come back for more.

failure has feasted upon my esteem
and made me a mockery so it would seem
it's tricks have alluded to bettering ways,
yet leaving me lost, indecipherable maze.
perfection exist as a dream.

Direction has driven my wires crisscrossed
convinced of the letters i had left untossed
Now upon my arrival
I've become homicidal
and will **** all those memories lost.