I suffer from generalized anxiety
and I just want people to understand it
but mental illnes is frowned upon by society
Some days I'm fine but I must admit
I'm always just teetering at the edge of sobrietry

I know it's never going to go away
But I can try my best to forget the pain
Always trying to keep it at bay
But always in vain

walking around in a circle
trying to learn from my mistakes
at the pace of a turtle
at night my thougts still keep me awake

I'm really not depressed
but I'm not happy either
I have this anxiety pressing at my chest
And sometimes i just need a breather

I'm constantly told to get it together
to pick up some courage and do things
But that's like telling someone not to be cold in freezing weather
And more anxiety is all that it brings

You said goodbye                                                          ­        
But why                                                              ­                    
I'm not the smartest person
But I'm also not stupid
Do you need help?
Please
Talk to me
Don't hide yourself
Please don't
Stay strong
Fight if you have to
Fight the illnes
Fight the bullies
Fight your thoughts
Your thoughts aren't you
You make yourself you
Why are you doing this?
Please answer
Stop this hell please
No one likes this

Look at her smile
We don’t even know what she feels inside
Look at her laugh
She seems happy but it’s a bluff
Look at her eyes
It’s sparking like she doesn’t cut
Look at her wrist
You’ll see what u don’t know yet
Look at her body, so skinny
Because if she eats a lot, it affects the illnes in her kidney (stop body shaming!!)

Have you seen her cry?
Blaming herself for being a nobody

She is a failure, but tries her best to make you proud
She isn’t the most intelligent, but she tries her best even if she bleeds.

I am her & She is me.

We are all living with a
common illness called
life.

U ask me a question
Although U know I have no answer
Then u ask me another
Of which u don't want an answer
and of me u don't wanna hear an utter
Somehow u still ask again
And get silence with no answer
Ull get upset cz u got no answer

Is it a game we r playing
How would I know, when u'd want to here of me a saying
Ur always unclear
Do I have to guess
Of that u know I fear
I don't understand
Do u or don't u want me to obey ur command
To me u must explain
Cz The thought of u not knowing me causes more pain
Than loving u and getting no gain

Now tell me is it true what they said
Towards me the feelings u once had r now dead
Indeed u have changed
From better to worse
And it's me u have blamed
I have done nothing to deserve to live that way
But yet I choose to stay

I can't live without u and that I hope u still know

Q: Do u not nave feelings for me or do u just not want them to show
Plz tell me the truth
Tell me all that u know and can
For without u I am a lost man

A: Even though
U say ur answer is no
U must have known that this question I asked
Should have been answered by silence

As I begin to understand u
U forget who u have been
It is this illnes blocking ur memory from every thing u have ever seen
Flashbacks are what I get of u
For before this invasion was the perfect version of u
U forget me and forget u
And every situation we have ever been through

Not knowing who I am
And having to constantly remind u i am and will always forever be ur man

Will always be upsetting
But to u I'll always be forgiving
For it is not ur fault u keep forgetting
Hugging me sometimes like its the first time ever
Is what keeps me from leaving u never

The love I have for u is deep
But now since u see me as a stranger I weep
But yet I will never leave u alone
I'll always be by ur side
Even thought ud never notice if I died