I saw you tonight for the first time in months. Your hair was shorter and your face was covered in stubble, I’ve never known you as anything but shaggy haired and clean shaven, it was yet another reminder that I no longer know you.

You wore a dad hat and pink T-shirt, clothes I never would’ve recognized you in, but you still wore your worn down converse like you did when we were almost us.

You’re quieter now and your smile doesn’t quite reach your eyes. What once made you laugh until you cried now leaves you stone faced and I’m beginning to question if I ever knew you at all.

I still miss you, but it’s easier to miss you when you’re no longer the person I fell in love with. It hurts less to look at you and remember what we had when I know it’s no longer possible to love you like that.

I hope that you’re still happy. I hope you continue to laugh until your stomach hurts and watch ****** reality tv until the sun comes up. I hope your days are filled with far too many iced coffees, ridiculous twitter threads and indie music.

Tonight I said goodbye to the boy I fell in love with, in his place stands the boy that broke my heart many months ago. I don’t know where you stopped and he began but I think it’s time to move on from you. You’ve evolved into a different version of yourself and as much as I miss the person that completed me he’s nothing more than a memory to mourn.